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Guys today I feel so tired I have currently 23:16 and I feel exhausted so much because of you, IDK why you kept spamming me all this things with "Dazzle" I need to chill out a bit! If you haven't tipped ME: 1 pic and if you tipped ME :2 pic

No nut November🫡🫡 btw check my cat that I've draw special for you that will make you stand all this month chastity, haha actually you will lose to my new Reze cosplay💜 I KNOW YOUR KINKS ^__^ would you like to see it? or I should leave it to Decembrrrrrrr for u? T_T

This year, my Halloween is somehow special.. Without a costume, without candy, without parties, and even without any plans. No preparation, no festive hustle and bustle.. Just me.. A black T‑shirt with a green print, sheer tights, a bit of a mysterious mood, and the look I’m giving you right now. #d

#day140 It started raining and I just stood by the open window for a while listening to it. No music, no phone, just the sound. For a few minutes the whole apartment felt quieter than usual. Sometimes the simplest background noise is better than any playlist :3

#day139 I tried to take a “quick” photo for a story and somehow ended up changing the lighting, moving the chair, and fixing my hair for thirty minutes. By the time I finally took it, I no longer wanted to post anything.

#day138 My phone storage is almost full again. I went through the gallery and deleted about 40 almost-identical selfies, 15 screenshots of nothing important, and three videos of the ceiling that I somehow recorded by accident. Still only freed up 1.2 GB

#day137 Tried cooking something new today and immediately regretted the confidence. The recipe looked simple. The result looked… experimental. I still ate it though, because throwing food away feels worse than eating a questionable meal. At least the kitchen smells interesting now.

#day136 I found an old playlist from 2021 on my phone today. Started playing it and instantly remembered exactly where I was living and what I was doing back then. It’s strange how music can drag you back so fast.Some songs still hit the same.

#day135 I spent twenty minutes trying to open a jar of pickles. Used a towel, ran it under hot water, tapped the lid with a spoon… nothing. In the end I just put it back and made something else. Sometimes the smallest things win.

#day133 Laid down at a normal time, closed my eyes, and immediately started thinking about every random thing I’ve ever done. Two hours later I was still awake, staring at the ceiling and regretting the whole plan. Being a night person is not a personality, it’s a lifestyle problem.

#day132 My neighbor’s cat keeps sitting on the windowsill outside my room. Every time I open the curtain it’s just there, staring. Not moving, not meowing, just judging me silently. I’ve started leaving the curtain half-closed so we don’t have to make eye contact :3

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#day131 I accidentally bought the wrong shade of nail polish. Opened the package, put it on, and immediately realized it’s darker than I thought. Not bad, just not what I expected. Now I’m sitting here looking at my hands and deciding whether to keep it or remove it. Sometimes the smallest decisions

#day130 I finally finished a anime I’ve been watching on and off for weeks. The ending was quieter than I expected. Not bad, just… different from what I thought it would be. Now I have that empty feeling when something ends and you don’t know what to put on next.

#day129 Tried a new outfit today just to see how it looked in different lighting. Took a few photos near the mirror, deleted most of them, kept two. It’s funny how the same clothes can look completely different depending on the time of day. I might post one of them later if I still like it after loo

#day128 I stayed home, did a few small chores around the room, and spent a bit of time scrolling through old photos on my phone. Nothing important, I just sorted through them and deleted a few. Then I turned on some music and sat by the window, listening to it. The light was so soft, haha ;3 It’s ev

#day127 I stayed home for most of the day and didn’t plan anything special. Just did a few small things around the room. Later I put on an episode of anime and let it play in the background Now it’s evening and I’m thinking about maybe filming something short later, but only if I feel like it.

#day126 I spent some time organizing a few things on my desk. Nothing major, just moved a couple of items around until it felt more ordered. It made the space a bit calmer. Do you ever rearrange small things when you want the room to feel different?

#day125 The light in my room was really soft this afternoon, so I just sat by the window for a while without doing anything. No phone, no music, just watching how the shadows moved. It felt strangely nice. Like the day slowed down for a second. Do you ever stop like that in the middle of the day jus

#day124 Okay… little evening thought. I’ve been listening to the same playlist on repeat for days now. Not even because I love every song that much — it just feels safe and familiar. Like background noise that doesn’t ask anything from me. Sometimes I put it on while I’m doing random things around t

#day123 I spent way too long choosing what to wear this morning even though I wasn’t going anywhere. Tried on three different tops, stood in front of the mirror, changed my mind, and ended up in the most basic one anyway. Sometimes I do that just to feel like I put effort into the day, even if no on

#day123 I’ve been rewatching Toradora again (yes, I know, for the hundredth time). Every time I get to the same scenes I still feel that mix of second-hand embarrassment and warmth. It’s comforting in a weird way. Sometimes I put it on just for background noise while I do other things, and then I en

#day122 Made breakfast slowly, and spent most of the morning doing absolutely nothing important. Put on some music, opened the window, and just sat there for a while watching the light change. Later I cleaned up a bit, tried on a couple of outfits for no reason, and ended up rewatching an old episod

#day121 Woke up later than usual and stayed in bed for a bit, scrolling and listening to music. Eventually got up, made something simple to eat, and spent most of the afternoon doing nothing in particular — just existing in a quiet way. Put on an old anime I’ve already seen a hundred times, cleaned

#day120 Woke up a bit earlier than usual and actually managed to do a few normal things - tea, quick shower, even opened the window for some fresh air. Head feels clearer than yesterday, which is already a win after those long shifts. I’ve been trying not to overthink everything too much. Just takin

Okay… #day119 Got up normally, made myself some tea, fixed myself up a little. Head is still a bit heavy after yesterday’s shift, but it’s already clearly better than yesterday. Tonight I just want to sit quietly, maybe put on some anime. If the mood is there, I’ll film something light. How about yo

#day118 This week the call center gave me two long shifts back to back and by the second one I honestly felt like part of my brain just left the building. I came home, didn’t even change clothes, sat on the floor and played some random video on YT with the sound almost off because I couldn’t handle

#snap A few stories from my snap haha 👀

#day74 ㅤ I just vibe-coded myself a personal corner of the internet instead of doing anything useful tonight ㅤ Purple lights, my links, and my favorite Sewerslvt mix in the background... basically this outfit turned into a website ㅤ nyama2007.vip Tell me if it actually feels like me >_<

#day70 #snap_leak #missed_day67 I have watched so many videos of girls giving head. Like.. an embarrassing amount. I know the techniques, I know what guys react to, I have paused and rewound clips trying to understand how someone fits THAT much in their mouth without ***** ㅤ And every single time I

#day66 ㅤ I made a sound last night that genuinely scared me a little ㅤ I was layering distortion for like two hours, and at some point the texture started sounding like a voice that got buried under static. It is not a voice. It is just noise and filters. But I keep replaying it ㅤ I think that is wh

#day65 ㅤ So. It finally happened 😳 ㅤ I have read about squirting more than any normal person should. I know the anatomy, I know the mechanics, I have watched enough videos to write a whole lecture. In theory I was an expert ㅤ In practice, every time I got close I panicked and stopped because the fe

#day64 ㅤ I counted today. It is less than three weeks until September ㅤ This room has been my whole world for years. The same wall where the paint is peeling, the same window, mom's voice through it. I used to fantasize about leaving every single day ㅤ Now I keep catching myself memorizing things. L

#day63 ㅤ Okay.. deep breath 😳 ㅤ These were never supposed to exist outside my gallery. Fully naked. No hoodie, no towel, no clever angle hiding the important parts. One of them is so close up that I stared at it for ten minutes deciding what kind of person posts this ㅤ Apparently me. I am that pers

#day62 ㅤ I came home, took the headset off, and caught myself doing something weird. I opened this page before I even made tea. Before Dota. Before anything ㅤ You are literally the only people I talk to voluntarily haha. At work I get paid to care. Here I just.. do. I am still not sure what that say

#day61 #snapchat_leaks ㅤ Okay so.. I have been online here almost 24/7 and still did not write a single post in two weeks >< Quick thing before anyone panics: some messages from me will be ads for other girls. Money is tight this month, so I sold promo spots. I did not get hacked, just ignore them,

#day47 ㅤ Okay.. I disappeared again, and this is basically where I ended up hiding today >_< ㅤ After spending so much time with a headset on and people talking at me, I needed somewhere quiet. I sat in the bath with no music and no messages until the water started getting cold ㅤ My mom asked through

#day39 ㅤ I said "I understand how frustrating that must be" so many times during today's shift that the sentence stopped sounding like English ㅤ One person asked the same question in four different ways, like the answer might change if he found the correct order of words ㅤ I had to give him the same

#day37 ㅤ I tried taking photos in fishnets and that vinyl top today ㅤ I had the phone in the right place, the light finally looked good, and I was trying very hard to look like I knew what I was doing ㅤ Then mom yelled through the wall asking if I had eaten LOL but yeah I had not x_x The photo still

#day36 ㅤ People usually assume I like Toradora because it is cute, but that is not really the part that stays with me ㅤ I like how almost everyone is bad at saying what they actually mean. They hide something, panic, make it worse, and then need forever to admit the obvious thing ㅤ I understand that

#day35 ㅤ I opened my Minnesota document folder today and realized I have been treating September like it is very far away... It is not x__x ㅤ Some things are finished. Some things I keep postponing because one form asks a question I am not completely sure about, and apparently my solution is to avoi

#day34 This sound and the entire song literally describe my current state https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0A4TWgxW4o

#day33 ㅤ Okay.. I know the last thing I wrote here was "I'll be around a lot more now," and then I disappeared for 12 days. Very convincing haha >_< ㅤ The first few days were work and document stuff. Then once I had already been gone for a while, I started feeling weird about coming back without an

#day21 got dressed up for basically no reason last night and now I'm paying the price cause these New Rocks weigh like a kilo each and my calves are done x_x I've been listening to Sewerslvt on repeat all week honestly. her stuff is breakcore layered with these sad atmospheric samples and it's genui

#day16 ㅤ okay confession time.. I disappeared for 4 days again x_x ㅤ the call center had me on TWO 12 hour shifts this week and honestly I think part of my soul left my body somewhere around hour 9 of the second one. on the days I wasn't there I was filming new content for the page, which sounds gla

#day12 okie so I have to go do a 12 hour call center shift in like an hour and I really really don't want to today I was kinda mentally ready for it, was gonna make tea, do my little routine before leaving.. and then someone here in dms said something that just.. hit me harder than I wanted to admit

#day11 everyone: all women just want money, they only want sigma males and alpha guys with abs my actual type: picture https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JK_hBk2f01k

#day9 Okie so.. you know how I posted that whole thing about being back and answering everyone? >_< Yeah I vanished again basically the same day lol. I'm so embarrassing honestly I really don't know where the day even went. I laid down for "a few minutes" around noon and then suddenly it was dark ou

#day7 Okie hi.. I kinda disappeared for like 2 days and I feel bad about it >_< I wasn't ignoring anyone on purpose I promise. My brain just went into that mode where I open the chat, stare at it for a second and then close it without typing anything.. Depression is so dumb like that. It's still kin