⚠️ I'm expanding the BRUNO section of this post. The bit largely concerning Colt Gray has been spit off into its own entry, with a bit more added to the top of it, and I'm adding an entry for Lindsay Clancy, where we're gonna talk about postpartum disorders and how our failures as a species to adequately give a shit about each other, resulted in a woman allegedly suffering a mental health crisis and strangling her three little children to death.

🐱 I keep saying I'm back, and then disappearing again. I apologize. Hopefully it won't happen again. Have a kitty video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Smc-3dVKNqc

😺 Have another kitty video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqTaFnFj_6U

📸 In the personal pics, (1) is of Kittykins, (2) the orange kitty at the front is the beady-eyed male kitty that I feed that I thought had drowned, (3-6) is the female orange kitty seen in the background of (2), and her two kittens, (7) is three additional cats I've started feeding, (8-9) is Fishy Fish and one of it's two snail friends, and (10) is a beast from the pit that I accidentally captured in a drain while fishing for little aquatic plants. I dumped it back in a drain after it doubled in size by feasting on the little snails and the other creature larvae that was in the container with it. I have no idea what that thing evolves into or what it even is. 🐲

🎙️ Oh Lordy, Lord, trouble so hard. Oh Lordy, Lord, trouble so hard. Don't nobody know my troubles but God! Don't nobody know my troubles but God!

☆// ⋆ THINGS I NEED TO DO:

1. Gif Kittykins headpats and feed Fishy Fish. ✔️✔️😻🐟

2. Everything, just everything. ❌

☆// ⋆ HIGHLIGHTS FROM THE UPDATE NOTES:

New Size-Inclusive Styles

This base game drop enhances body diversity representation in Create a Sim by adding a new set of CAS assets designed to flatter Sims of all shapes and sizes.

This drop contains 6 new CAS assets—from a versatile dress, tops, jeans, cardigans, shirts, and slacks—along with 5 new Styled Looks that use these items to help jump-start your outfit inspiration.

We’re also adding 5 new Starter Sims, each created to showcase these new outfits and clothing options. In addition to finding these Sims in CAS, they will also be available on the Gallery so you can easily bring them into your worlds and give them a story!

A.K.A. The new groundbreaking innovative feature of NOT BLOATING™ THE FUCKING CLOTHES MESHES, brought to you by the hardworking Sims team!

I really need to be back.

☢️// ⋆ SO WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON WITH ME?:

The past <INSERT HOWEVER MANY WEEKS I'VE BEEN GONE> have stretched my already overstretched mental health:

1. The birb died on the same !@#$ing day.

   I had contacted an additional two entities. The final one, an 80+ year-old retired wildlife conservationist, was the only one to follow up with me, but it was too late by then. I broke down in the shower that night.

   The day after was my day off, and I had intended to buy a birb cage and to find and buy one of those syringes for feeding young animals. I found the syringe and bought it anyway, in case I find myself caring for another fledgling birb.

2. The following workday, I saw a cat, dead in the big open drain bordering the school I walk by on my way to work. Face down, bloated, and covered in drain muck.

   I feed two stray cats in the immediate area, and I hadn't seen the beady-eyed male cat for a couple days. The last time I had seen him, he was poking around the drain. I chased him from it, telling him to leave the drain alone, then I fed him. Point is, I immediately thought it was him in the drain. For the next four days, I walked by that drain and avoided looking into it, because he was still there. On the fourth night, he appeared, alive and well. It wasn't him in the drain, it was a cat I didn't know. That gave me a bit of relief.

3. Two other things happened during that week:

   1. A neighbor from the previous apartment building we lived in, who shopped at Hardware Doody, and whom I had a good rapport with, passed away after years of battling illness.

   2. My ghoulish mother who has been !@#$ing with my cat's diet for the past nineteen months that I've been living with her again (to the point where I need to take kitty to a vet at some point to ensure her liver and kidneys aren't !@#$ed), told me that if I couldn't afford about $1,100 TTD ($163 USD) per month in cat supplies (mainly food), that we'd need to euthanize my cat. Unfortunately, or fortunately, I'm not as ghoulish as my mother, so instead of telling her that she should euthanize herself instead, I simply told her "That's not happening. Kitty will eat something else." Consider the state of my mental health at this point: I'm still feeling the death of the birb, and I'm in daily distress over the assumed death of the stray cat, and now I get to listen to this !@#$.

   3. A week before that, another customer, an elderly lady who lived just across the street from Hardware Doody, also passed away. I felt like death was following me. We'll talk about how I process death, at some point.

4. Some days later (after beady-eyed male kitty reappeared), my mother decided to go acting a fool in front of the landlady's house.

   It included arguing with her over every sound that the neighbors make, and then directing insults at the neighbors (who weren't there at the time, meaning she was just acting a fool in the road).

   About two months ago, I told my mother that I'd take over paying the rent and that she could take the time to find an apartment she likes and then move, but that I wouldn't be moving with her (of course she doesn't like this, because it means losing control over me). Her response, after the previous months of complaining about everything, creating her own problems, and villainizing all of the neighbors and the landlady (which is exactly what happens everywhere), was to tell me that she's not going to let me "kick her out of her apartment." Up to now, she ain't committed to moving yet, but she is committed to making everyone's lives, especially mine, as miserable as possible, because she's a toxic and abusive narcissist.

   I can't do this !@#$ with her anymore.

☢️// ⋆ COLT GRAY'S ALLEGED ABUSE, BULLYING, AND TOXIC BRAINWASHING THAT LED TO HIM MURDERING FOUR PEOPLE:

This bit before the first "--" cut, is new.

• Christian Angulo -- 14

• Mason Schermerhorn -- 14

• Richard Aspinwall -- 39, married with two kids.

• Cristina Irimie -- 53, Romanian immigrant, married.

Robert McCrimmon and Jaden Hunter, 17-year-old seniors, each carried a bouquet of flowers to the school’s flagpole, where students and community members memorialized their fallen classmates and teachers.

McCrimmon, who mentioned that authorities knew of a previous threat made by the alleged shooter, said that “if precautionary things had been done, we wouldn’t be here and in this pain.”

Hunter said people were traumatized.

“I don’t know if I can go back into the school,” she said. “Right now, I don’t want to. It’s very sad because it seems like it could have been prevented if you knew he had said he would do something like this.”

-- NBC News [🌐]

Why wasn't the alleged previous threat taken seriously? This happened in America. The country where there's a school shooting like every other week.

I mentioned the school bullying. It was allegedly relentless, and from what I read, it wasn't all just verbal either.

Did anyone in authority at the school do anything about the bullying, or did they perhaps take the "bullying builds character" or "it'll man him up" or maybe a "bully the gay away" approach?

Do you suppose it traumatized him?

Do you suppose that "if precautionary things had been done, we wouldn’t be here and in this pain."

If everything I've read so far about this kid is true (and I haven't read or watched absolutely everything), then he had his mind fucked from all directions: home, school, online, and society in general.

I don't know what else to say but congratulations to the "bullying builds character" crowd.

No one over a certain age, who isn't a fucking cunt (this is meant as an insult) or has some sort of malfunction (this isn't meant as an insult), is so dense to not know what the potential extreme outcomes of bullying are:

1. Mental breakdown and self harm / suicide.

2. Mental breakdown and outward acts of violence.

I read this comment on this Facebook post:

I love that you posted those names that should live on forever and completely left off the one that lives but should be forgotten as completely insignificant moving forward.

Colt Gray wasn't born a monster (unless someone wants to show me some neurological markers that indicate that no matter how he grew up, he would always one day pick up a gun and go on a murder spree), and the "conditions" that turned him into a monster didn't begin and end with him either, did they?

The point ain't to make you feel sympathy for him. Fuck him, he murdered four people and likely would have murdered more. He is a danger to society now, and needs to be isolated from society for the protection of society.

Colt Gray's mind is fucked. He is a danger to society.

To pretend otherwise is irresponsible.

Similarly, to ignore the "conditions" that turned Colt Gray into a mass murderer, is also irresponsible, and will only lead to more Colt Grays, because no matter how much the maliciously ignorant bigots try to insinuate that Colt Gray went on a murder spree because of trans psychosis, that bullshit logic doesn't compute when applied to all the other mass murderers over just the past two decades who weren't allegedly queer, now does it?

Fucking hell, this shit is tiring.

--

When we have time, one of the things I want to talk about - it looks like I'ma do all of it right here - is that teenager in America, who was recently sentenced to life without parole for going on a shooting spree at his school and killing two students and two teachers.

I want to talk about it, not to try to make you sympathize with him, but to highlight what years of mental, emotional, and possible physical abuse, paired with anti-LGBTQIA+ bullying, anti-woke and anti-LGBTQIA+ brainwashing (a.k.a. hatemongering), irresponsible parenting, and irresponsible gun ownership, can lead to.

A number of people I've seen on the internet talking about this kid, they don't want to talk about any of that, yet they're the ones who will repeatedly say that "guns don't kill people, people kill people" and how "we need to address mental health and mental illness".

Mike Johnson, Republican Speaker of the House, (along with many other mass shooting gun apologists) was quoted as saying such in the years BEFORE bigoted and maliciously ignorant (a.k.a. "totes lied to" and "didn't vote for that") Americans sent probably the most blatantly vile and corrupt incarnation of any political party in the history of America since the days of slavery and the colonization of America (a.k.a. the butchering of allegedly 95% of the Native American population), into the White House AGAIN, FOR A SECOND TIME.

I TIGRESS! 🐯 Did you miss me? Of course you did.

I've mentioned the anger issues I've developed as a result of the abuse I've endured from my toxic narcissistic mother:

• I check the first box:

  • ✔️ Years of mental, emotional, and possible physical abuse.

• I gave and received the second when I was in secondary school:

  • ✔️❌ Anti-LGBTQIA+ bullying.

• I pulled myself out of the third:

  • ✔️❌ Anti-woke and anti-LGBTQIA+ brainwashing (a.k.a. hatemongering).

• I was "raised" with the fourth:

  • ✔️ Irresponsible parenting.

• And I've never had the fifth:

  • ❌ Irresponsible gun ownership.

I've maintained a hold on my sanity for a long time, but every time my mother comes at me with her asinine bullshit (which happens at least once a month and sometimes multiple times a week or day), I feel myself inching towards a violent mental breakdown. It takes a lot of energy and self control to keep pulling myself back. But this ain't the point I'm trying to make.

The point I'm trying to make is that society's failure to intervene on this kid's behalf, in more ways than one, led to him going off the deep end, ruining his life, and violently ending the lives of four others.

This is what happens when we fail to look out for each other.

This is what happens when we fail to stand up to the irrational bullshit that religious extremism breeds.

This is what happens when we refuse to talk about these things. We leave people to suffer in silence and shame until they break, and then we wash our hands of responsibility while saying "guns don't kill people, people kill people" and how "we need to address mental health and mental illness". No shit, Sherlock!

This is what happens when so-called "good people" fail to do anything meaningful.

THREE YEARS OF ABUSE (ALLEGEDLY) at the hands of primarily his mother, [...]:

• + Social Services failing to do their one !@#$ing job for whatever reason.

• + School bullying.

• + Right-wing, god-fearing hatemongering.

• + His irresponsible jackass of a father buying him a gun to, and I quote, "man him up".

EQUALS:

• 2 dead kids.

• 2 dead adults.

• Multiple broken families.

• Multiple lives ruined, including his own.

• Who knows how many kids and adults developing PTSD and survivors guilt after witnessing that shit.

The point ain't to make you feel sympathy for him. Fuck him, he murdered four people and likely would have murdered more. He is a danger to society now, and needs to be isolated from society for the protection of society.

The point is that we had multiple opportunities to stop it from reaching that point, and we failed spectacularly, at every critical junction.

I don't talk about my shit, or any of this shit, to generate sympathy for myself or to virtue signal. I do it with the hope that one day it might help someone survive their shit without going off the deep end.

After all, I've made it this far without killing myself or anyone else (or advocating for the genocide of children regardless what ethnicity they belong to or religion they were brainwashed into), haven't I?

My memory is kinda shit because of how much of my mother's shit is in my head, but I'm almost certain I'm still alive, and I don't recall ever advocating for butchering innocent children.

I suppose one day we should talk about my stance on abortion, since I'm pro women's rights, including women's right to bodily autonomy and access to healthcare, while I'm also anti child butchering.

Can you imagine us stripping men of their right to bodily autonomy and access to healthcare, and how well those whiny, historically violent bastards will respond to it?

It's amazing how extremists only ever seem remember the following when they're beholden to secular laws, innit:

Luke 6:31

Do to others as you would have them do to you.

Proverbs 31:8-9

Open your mouth for the mute, for the rights of all who are destitute. Open your mouth, judge righteously, defend the rights of the poor and needy.

"Austrian–British philosopher, academic and social commentator," Sir Karl Raimund Popper (28 July 1902 – 17 September 1994) "wrote on tolerance of intolerance in Vol. 1 of The Open Society and Its Enemies, published in 1945":

He posited that if intolerant ideologies are allowed unchecked expression, they could exploit open society values to erode or destroy tolerance itself through authoritarian or oppressive practices.

In his own words:

"[...] But we should claim the right to suppress them [intolerant ideologies] if necessary even by force; for it may easily turn out that they are not prepared to meet us on the level of rational argument, but begin by denouncing all argument; they may forbid their followers to listen to rational argument, because [they claim - my insert because these flowery words can be confusing sometimes] it is deceptive, and teach them to answer arguments by the use of their fists or pistols."

-- Wikipedia [🌐]

"Freedom of Speech" warping into "Freedom for Hate Speech and Hatemongering".

I hate "paradoxes" (especially time travel paradoxes in fiction, but that's irrelevant to the discussion), but look around at what's happening - at what's been happening around the world for centuries.

The eventual outcome of tolerance to irrational and bigoted intolerance, is always widespread terror, oppression, suffering, and death, no matter which god one claims to love, or which moral ideals one claims to hold.

--

Y'know, it's kinda improper for me to claim "leftism", when the "progressive" and "humanist" views I hold, are influenced by my underling trait: Misanthropy.

The misanthropy is why I'm not "ideologically blind" to the bullshit that some so-called "leftists" do, and why I can hold everyone responsible for the immense failures that brought us to this point in time, again, because y'know, it ain't like we been here, as a species, a bunch o' times before, and should know better by now, innit? No, not at all!

I distrust everyone and their alleged motives.

I even distrust myself sometimes because of the toxic and abusive narcissism that I was "raised" in (and the toxic masculinity and toxic religious dogma that I was brainwashed with as a child and a younger man).

I sometimes wonder if I'm truly trying to be better than my programming, or if my programming is at such a toxic level that I'm even fooling myself.

I TIGRESS! 🐯

I am one of many potential products of this world that we've created for ourselves that enables abusers.

That kid who shot up his school and murdered four people, is another.

The ones who kill themselves out of shame and/or depression and/or psychological breakdowns, are others too.

And for some inane fuckin' reason, we continue to allow a vile and degenerate "minority" (as people so like to claim so that they can feel better about themselves and sleep well at night) to maintain that world and force us all to live and die in it.

I'm done.

In case you don't know what "misanthropy" is:

Misanthropy is the general hatred, dislike, or distrust of the human species, human behavior, or human nature. A misanthrope or misanthropist is someone who holds such views or feelings.

Misanthropy involves a negative evaluative attitude toward humanity that is based on humankind's flaws. Misanthropes hold that these flaws characterize all or at least the greater majority of human beings. They claim that there is no easy way to rectify them short of a complete transformation of the dominant way of life.

Various types of misanthropy are distinguished in the academic literature based on what attitude is involved, at whom it is directed, and how it is expressed.

Either emotions or theoretical judgments can serve as the foundation of the attitude. It can be directed toward all humans without exception or exclude a few idealized people. In this regard, some misanthropes condemn themselves while others consider themselves superior to everyone else.

Misanthropy is sometimes associated with a destructive outlook aiming to hurt other people or an attempt to flee society.

Other types of misanthropic stances include activism by trying to improve humanity, quietism in the form of resignation, and humor mocking the absurdity of the human condition.

-- Wikipedia [🌐]

It should go without saying, if you've read any of my many, oh so controversial and unhinged diatribes, that I'm not looking to "hurt other people" undeservedly, I ain't trying to "flee society", I clearly can't shut up, and I can only make so many jokes "mocking the absurdity of the human condition" before I feel the need to bash my own head in.

☆// ⋆ TBC...