2021 Update, dork

Hey friends,

So it’s been a stupid year/month/day for all of us. I feel like I get bad news nearly every day now and that has really worn me down. But I’m actually glad that some of this grief and hell found it’s way into my life because it’s seemed to fuel me lately. My brain is just gushing with thoughts about everything these days but I’m realizing more and more that this requires me to do more untraditional things.

So I’ve been thinking about my roots lately, which is never good to do when you’ve found yourself on a consistent quality level. I learned so much last year, about everything and I genuinely feel like I’m a better person because of it. So to tie all this together, I think I want to try some scary ideas that I’ve been hiding in the back of my brain.

When I say I have dangerous ideas, I mostly just mean that with the world in the state that it is in, it seems like a trans woman saying these things and getting attention could be dangerous for me. Something I recently realized is that I self sabotage a lot because I’m actually very afraid of attention. I think this is a disservice to everyone.

So, risks. I’m ready to take them now. It’s probably because of the loss and confusion but I think I would like to share more of my mind with the world. If my mind is rejected, I think I can handle that now. I’m going to start taking on big scary projects again. Matter of fact I’ve already started. I’ve been working on this since January 5th.

I have 5 or 6 videos that I have in progress right now which is the most I’ve ever done. It’s weird having like 10 thoughts at once but that seems to be where we are. All I ask is that you trust me here because for the first time, I’m not going to share anything about what I’m working on. Vague anticipation. There’s a storm coming and it’s going to change all of us. I can’t wait to share it with y’all because I know with certainty that you will love the hell out of it. It’s the most me I’ve ever been. See you very soon.

Love,

May