It’s nearly Halloween and I’m… Horny?

So! Let’s look at the culture! The hottest thing(s) right now are the Menendez brothers. Liam Payne just died á la drug induced balcony incident and Halloween is right around the corner! That’s all my instagram feed has been feeding me this past week anyways. The Cooper Koch thirst trap reels are everywhere and I’m not mad about it one bit ‘hey mafia…’ ringing in my head like a sexy bell.

It is such a sign of the times that the hottest guys in Hollywood right are actors who portrayed the controversial real life Menendez brothers who definitely killed their parents, maybe because they were sexually abused. Like obviously. This has been happening since Tate Langdon, series 1, American horror story. Also created/ directed by Ryan Murphy! …I’m telling you, gay men know how to package horror, sex appeal and real intelligently dark humour into satirical, campy gold! Male gazey, but men are the object. A straight man just couldn’t write murderers to be actually sexy in the way Ryan Murphy does so effortlessly.

Pink cocaine (which isn’t actually cocaine, but like everything else), crack, alcohol and klonopin are some of the drugs named in Liam’s autopsy. I do love a celebrity autopsy toxicology report. They’re great to gaze over when you’re wanting a new prescription (or otherwise) drug to try! Kinda like a sick shopping list - or a what not to do list if you’re sensible and sane. There are some pretty top tier toxicology reports, like Micheal Jackson’s - all that propofol is crazy hehe.

I’m not making light of this situation by the way, it’s just whenever a celebrity dies from ‘drugs’ I love knowing the science behind it. It fascinates me.

I reached out to a university in London, re a forensic psychology degree I’d love to take and have been offered a place there, starting next September which is super exciting! I’m finally, for the first time in my life thinking about like, a long term career option. Something I’d feel proud to tell my mum’s friends when they inevitably ask me what I do at family functions. This productivity was deffo spurred on by the Zoloft in my system making me more hopeful and productive. I tell you, it’s working overtime but there’s still a way to go!

Recently, I can actually really feel my brain being rewired, and I don’t just mean the headaches! But my patterns of thought are much more healthy than I’m used to. I also feel less emotional, which for me is deffo a good thing. As someone so often ruled by their emotions, it’s nice feeling balanced for a change!