Update: 55
The construction site.
You’ve been passing by this site for months now and it never feels like they’re doing anything, every time you look in all you see is people standing around and chatting, something -is- getting done as far as you can see but you remember a time when this used to be pouring out entertainment, you’re starting to get a bit frustrated with it and wondering whether you should bother returning.
If you’re here for important information, stop reading
Aside from this section, it’s just me talking at you in an entertaining fashion.
In order to show you that I do value your attention, I’m going to make it clearer from now on what to expect.
Posts from me will fall into one of 5 categories:
Release: Videos, when they’re ready.
Update: Me talkin’ atcha.
IMPORTANT: Stuff that you should read.
Game: Text or video based ARG’s or interactive experiences.
Free: Content that has been released for free and is now free to share with attribution, accompanied by a breakdown.
For a while now
I’ve been employing the services of a copyrighter to help me in writing my monthly updates, since the game that’s stopped.
That’s not because I don’t trust them, far from it, they are excellent at what they do, but I want them focused on their job at the moment which is the world bible development.
I’ve stepped into the role myself because I’ve realised that it’s my passion, I am a writer/director, I weave words and imagine worlds, I craft narrative and render them into visuals.
Some people might not be here for that, and that is fine you don’t have to read it if you don’t want to.
But some people do, and I enjoy doing it, so I am going to keep doing it.
And that doesn’t mean work isn’t getting done, this is part of the process.
I’ve got a lot done
I’ve mostly finished all the tidying, solved all the technical problems, and I’m about to return back to animating the ‘interactive experience’ I talked about.
I’m still waiting for two more parts of hardware that will be arriving this week but I’m now ready to start getting back to work.
I’ve finished getting the brief together for the concept artists, as well as giving myself the necessary structure for how characters are established in this world.
Here follows an example of one of the 17 characters that now make up my roster:
Lexx
Race: Designed
Genitals: Futa (NSFW asset)
Clothing: Black armour conceals reproductive anatomy, plates over a flexible weave, long overcoat, lower face mask.
Traits: Determined, disciplined, stern and isolationist.
Age range: Appears in her 30’s
Look: Sharp blue eyes, petite/muscular, short black hair, pixie cut.
Bio: Bounty hunter, expert killer, femme fatale, Ex-orogenix black ops soldier, has since departed seeking independence.
Motivation: Never be owned, scheduled or medically managed by another institution again.
Need: To build an identity around something other than usefulness and control.
Fear: Dependence. The moment she needs somebody, they have leverage.
Lie she may believe: Discipline is freedom because anything I can control cannot be used against me.
This was ‘the thinking’ I talked about before that was necessary, supplemented by the endless insight of my copyrighter. Now that the work has been passed onto the concept artists to begin, I can now turn my attention back to animating and getting ya’ll some content sorted out.
If you’ve not picked up
On my not so subtle messaging in the game and in the most recent updates, this is a point I’ve been trying to make for a while now.
But in order not to offend people I’ve always been very subtle with it.
That’s because I am a kind person, I have a long fuse, I believe that measured, respectful discussion is important for us as a species, I believe people are owed the opportunity to rectify their mistakes.
But we all have so little time nowadays that, if you do see pages and pages of text it provokes a very real reaction, I have so little time, why should I spend it here?
I am not unaware of the position I enjoy as someone who does get the opportunity to take this downtime, I understand that good things take time.
Good stories take time to unfold, good productions take time to make, something worth building takes time to put together.
I’m done trying not to offend people
I believe it’s important for all of us to let people know we have limits, I heard this fantastic saying recently, and yes I stole this from you, you know who you are, and I’m sorry about that but it’s just too good.
If you burn down my fuse, putting it out does not grow it back.
I have a limit, I am kind, but I do have teeth, if you push me, I will bite.
I believe in inclusion but inclusion does not equal entitlement.
I think this is an important lesson we can all learn from, we are so used to not saying whats on our mind because we’re afraid of how it would come across.
I believe it establishes a degree of respect if you let it known that you do have limits, mine are fair, but they do exist, you can test them if you like, but be aware that will come with consequences.
At this stage
If you have read everything I’ve posted over the last month, I surmise you fall into one of 4 categories.
1: You like what I do
That’s great! Follow me here, you’ll be the first to know when somethings new, mainly the more verbose updates will happen here or perhaps on newgrounds, free membership is a thing for a reason.
If you have some spare cash you wanna throw at me, that's great! I’ll take it, thank you!
In return you will appear in the credits, should you wish to be, and you’ll get the releases a little sooner.
But if you can’t, no worries! It will be free for everyone eventually, always prioritise your personal finances.
2: You really REALLY like what I do
You like it so much you can’t wait for the next one, you love it so much you can’t resist badgering me or my team every half an hour to say ‘Is it ready?’ ‘Is it ready??’
It will be ready when it’s ready, sit down, shut up and wait.
3: You don’t like me
Something about me just rubs you the wrong way, something about what I’m trying to do just pisses you off, I’ve offended you, you don’t agree with me and you need to express yourself with as much venom as possible.
Fuck off, if you don’t like it you don’t need to watch or read it.
You go back to your ‘somehow palpatine returned’ multiverse theory worlds where actions have no consequences and you tell yourself you enjoy it.
You should, however, bear in mind that offense might be intentional. That will only ever be if I determine you’re no longer a person I wish to engage with, or to further entertain you, usually, it will be the latter.
Inclusion does not equal entitlement
4: You think you’re better than me
You see my animation and you think you could do better, you think you’re smarter than me.
You people, I wanna hear from you.
A measured, respectful and informed opinion is always worth listening to.
Post it below or perhaps in the suggestions channel in my discord server.
And maybe you think you’ve got what it takes to help out, maybe you’ve got a passion in something I need.
Can you imagine what we could make together if we combine forces?
I will be needing:
Concept Artists.
Modellers.
Riggers.
Animators.
Technical/Coders.
If you think you can meet my standards, or maybe you’re just passionate about things, you should get in touch at the email below.
Include examples of your work, what you passion is, and how you’d like to help.
Bear in mind you may not receive a response for some time. I believe in paying people fairly, and I need to be able to be in a position to do that, this team needs to grow slowly and in stages.
Some people added notes expressing interest in getting involved to their game results, but those emails have been destroyed.
I am a man of my word.
And if you’ve missed something
If all of this didn’t make sense, if you’ve not had the time to read and digest it yet.
Don’t worry about it!
The information is there, and it will be there, forever.
I believe in transparency, where necessary, and there will never be any rush.
The construction site is now closed off, there is tarpaulin surrounding it, now you’re interested, what lies behind the veil when it drops? What have they been working on you wonder?
Comments (10)
Damn, I REALLY like this shift in attitude by you, to be honest. Not only because I personally dont like the idea of self-censorship in order to not offend people (offense is taken, not given, in my opinion), but also because it seems very liberating for you on a personal/mental level. Which is what creative individuals like you typically need to be at their best. And we all now that your best is quite impressive, to say the least. So I very much applaud this change, as long as its coming from a place you feel comfortable with. And while I AM in the group of "cant wait for the next content by you", i usually try my hardest not to pester you with the classic BS of "When????", because you cant rush Art, lest you dissolve it of what makes it art. So, you do you, ill patiently wait - while reading your updates, of course -, and be there when its done. And also, should you ever want my feedback/Input/support.
Thanks rando! Yes it’s been liberating to say the least! Suffice to say I’m very happy with the way things are headed now. And oh boy have I got some killer content lined up for you all.
I mean this genuinely without intentional bad faith, I think you take this thing too seriously. I'm all for artistic ambition and pride in your work. But I think you're putting too much purchase in the idea that there needs to be grand lore for why robots are milking people. I get that sometimes you need to vent, and that from what I gather from your previous posts, you were/still are lost in the sauce, I'm happy your friend talked you off the ledge, and that you felt it inspiring enough to write an arg. (I say this from experience in that regard) But I mean this in both reinforcement and criticism when I say that beatoff material is not that important. And that your fixation of adding depth is obviously going to rub people the wrong way when they're just trying to cum and be done with it. (I can respect the effort however) I dont know what you're planning for this next project and the wider world of your story, but unless I've interpreted what little hints you've given incorrectly, it sounds like it's a self medatative reflection about the nature of online pornography or something along those lines. I think there are far better avenues for that artistic message, but it's your work not mine. I think it's just important to know that your worth is not tied to how meaningful your art is nor how many liters of cum people shoot over it. I know it's a sin in art to say "it's not that deep", but you should understand if you don't already, why frustration manifests around these projects. basically If I'm tryna goon and I get backhanded by a surprise admission of attempted suicide, it's gonna cause a bit of whiplash no? I'm *mostly* optimistic for your future work, but with the scope creep and ever evolving artistic vision, I can only hope you avoid burning out or overcommitting to something you cant finish.
I do appreciate the honesty here, and I do hear you. My updates have always just been me talking about my life. I found it helpful and the game in particular helped me move through a lot of major hurdles. I can appreciate it’s a bit of whiplash to hear about it. But with respect. It was clearly stated at the top that this is just an update. It’s just me talking at you, it would be arguably more whiplash to introduce porno in the middle of something that is clearly very personal to me. The game was about testing my abilities in creative writing. Realising my potential. Making my failings public and known to the world. So I can move past them. The one point I’d strongly argue against is the taking it seriously part. My work exists because I needed to make it. And whether you’ve picked up on it or not. Me taking it seriously is what I attribute to me making it this far. If I didn’t -need- to tell this story. It wouldn’t exist. I’m not saying you or indeed anybody needs to commune with it on the deeper levels it explores. I know how to do both. I don’t expect you to take my word for it. The content will speak for itself.
I hope we get a a414 ep6 and Aimee comes back to milk him
Be careful what you wish for.
I recently rejoined after not being a supporter for I think 2 years? I keep seeing something about a game. I'm genuinely lost. But Im happy to support you
The post is still up. Look back a few. You can play it if you like! Or just go to the important bits to read about my changes. Or the results if you wanna see how people did!
I always look forward to your works and seeing the process is fascinating. Excited to see more of your world.
Not more excited than I am to share it!