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It's ok to be unapologetically yourself. It's a lonely road when the mask comes off, but you attract the right crowd eventually.

It's ok to be a bit different.🌈

It's ok to still believe there's magic in this dark and lonely world🧚

It's ok to want to rather curl up with a book than socialize - it can be exhausting. Especially if everyone assumes you're outgoing.🤪

It's ok to want to live a life that isn't the norm.🤩

To be 32 and love unicorns🦄 and fairies and to believe in wishing on a star. It doesn't make you not mature. It makes you alive. It makes you appreciate the small beauty no one sees. 💫

It's ok to love the Sims as an adult, and it's ok to dream the most impossible dreams when everyone else thinks you've lost it.

But I have a hand-tremor, and I am an artist by heart (always writing, tried the music industry but I loved writing the songs the most, more than the social media look at me thing), I used to love to sketch but it became increasingly difficult for me with my tremor and funny enough the only art I am actually able to do now is digital. Because I can press undo every 3 strokes of my pen. And The Sims as a whole is a game that helped me feel less alone as a kid. 🙃👩🏼‍💻

When I was 12, I discovered my love for fashion design. Only problem: I was not very fashionable😅. And I never know what looks cool TBH. So, I started designing themed things🎨. Specifically, fairies. I loved the challenge of taking a theme (fire for example) and then making the outfit represent that. Then Sims 2 allowed for clothes creation. Dream come true, my badly drawn fairies could be on my Sim. So, I taught myself Photoshop. Then a couple of my fairy outfits were the most downloaded things in South Africa (huge deal for a 12 year old - and I am well aware that there were only a few 1000 from here, but celebrate the small wins guys haha). I took it very seriously. Place 1,2,3, and 5 simultaneously held by my drawn fairy outfits in Photoshop. This is not a brag, because even typing it out I am laughing at myself for being so excited about that. Ok, I will get to the point soon, promise. Fast forward 20 years now. In the meantime I tried being a popstar in South Africa - that act is exhausting let me tell you. Then Covid forced me to stop that. A few years of selling everything under the sun "because you have a bright, happy personality" burning myself out trying to convince people to have call centres here (at least this one created jobs in South Africa so that was fulfilling - but the PRESSURE OMG), then payment portals for websites, anti-fraud stuff, more call centres, another very toxic company, selling sheds in Australia over the phone at my 3am. I was never happy, the money wasn't worth it. I hit a breaking point with the sheds. I realised I only took the job because it started at 3/4am my time and I could end at 12 midday which means I had the whole afternoon to make Sims content haha. Through every above job I woke up early to create before work because it was my happy ritual to start the day (like how some people like to start with meditation or a work-out), I sometimes even took my personal laptop with to my various offices to try secretly create more content in lunches haha I apologise to every boss ever. If you haven't noticed by now in this essay, the common theme is that making Sims content has been my escape and my happy place for 20 years. I know a lot of people don't see this as a "real job", but f--- that honestly. I would rather make art the only way I physically can and be happy 😝. I am done trying to fit the mold. This is obviously a passion of mine, and after a lot of back and forth fighting with myself I am going all in. 💥

This is my Sim-self, unapologetically t*ts out because I am really over trying to be a size 6 when I have bigger fish to fry. Body confidence and self-love and all that. Unapologetically nerdy, and over trying to be perfect. Thanks for being here through this journey. If you don't want to read my nonsense detailing the life of an artist trying to find herself then I promise I will just make cute download posts without the backstory in a file in the collections haha. And if you're into the backstory then I hope my journey makes you feel a little less alone when you feel "too much", "too sensitive", "too difficult", "too liberal", "too everything is wrong with you when you're just trying to survive". I am literally just figuring out, and making Sims content helps me through it, so I invite you into the mess. Because since having this Patreon I met someone else, JUST LIKE ME all the way in New Zealand (Heey girl - sorry for the shoutout but I have a point to make haha). And I am in South Africa. And we barely know each other, but through this journey we were able to not feel so alone anymore. Friendship in unlikely places. Stop wasting your energy on the people that will never understand you. It's not worth feeling unworthy of love. 💖

I studied game design for all of 6 months (I couldn't finish sadly - long story), but I kept the sticker they sent in the mail. It says "Find Your Tribe", and it's on my fridge. If you're struggling to find your tribe, I really want my Discord to be that place for you... and for me. It wasn't very active until now. But it's something I really want to do, so if you want to walk a journey with people just like you from around the world, then come play 🥳. I'll be putting things in place over the next few days there. Bear with me - I have a lot of ideas and the unfortunate need to sleep being a human so I never have enough time haha. Slowly but surely, they will all get there - patience is not a virtue of mine and I am trying to work on that haha and not be too hard on myself. Sometimes you have to rest before you can rise.

👩🏼‍💻Discord Link. Join so long and stay tuned, nothing has been fixed up there just yet. Tomorrow it'll get a mini-makeover and some updates. 💌

Cazz💖

xxx