Devlog#11: Trouble in paradise

Hey there!

It's the middle of February and I feel like it's DEFINITLY a good time to talk about where I'm at right now.

Today is a bit special as I'll mostly talk about myself as ToU's delay is impacted VERY by my private life.

I began meeting with an actual psychiatrist and a nurse about my current mental state.

Let me picture it for you.

I feel bad because I'm VERY late and work very little on ToU lately, which makes me feel ashamed and stressed.

This stress in return prevents me from working in an healthy and efficent manner, feeding a cycle.

Hence why I am hoping to get a proper medical treatment to help me focus and shed the stress off so I can work again.

It's insanely annoying to feel that unable to provide a proper update despite teasing 50 release dates, I feel ashamed honestly to not be able to provide right now hence why I decided to relax, to straight up loosen my muscles no longer feel bad for not working and to slowly vent the stress out while taking the medication prescribed by my psychiatrist.

Alongside that I also decided to sign up to recieve financial help from the governement, Patreon being my only income, I can barely sustain myself, and my old ass being unable to provide more content to drag more people in isn't helping.

Though if I am allowed this "welfare" I'll be able to move out of the heart of my problems while also being able to pause month in which I haven't worked enough as my actual basic needs will already be fullfilled, but for now I have no choice but to sustain myself on Patreon.

Though it's not like I didn't do anything for ToU.

The majority of my work, is being redirected towards writing script, preparing the story mentally and finding new soundtracks.

It isn't much, but it's still progress.

I do have to admit that I'm satisfied with 0.11.

Every render in my opinion looks good, the animation which are all ready look good too.

I'm thinking about patching the main holes in the Beta 2 to release it as 0.11 while adding the content that remains to be added in a later update perhaps 0.11.5 or something.

I am still unsure though.

I am once again very deeply apologizing for the delays, I cannot express the shame I feel.

Still I do hope that once the update is out, you will all enjoy it, I am forever humbled and impressed at how understanding people are of my situation, to this day, I still consider my community to be some of the most amazing people in this industry.

Thank you.

Take care, have a lovely February.