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Some of you probably saw this on Twitter, but just in case:
I've had a couple of nasty, frightening psychotic breaks in the last 36 hours or so, which is disconcerting in itself, but I'm most scared by the fact that I don't know why they're happening. Usually there's some kind of pretty self-evident catalyst for a psychotic episode, but this time, I've got nothing. No drugs, no drinking, no staying awake for a week, etc.
I hope this shit will go away in time to record & release Death/Corner at the normal time this week, but because I don't understand what's going on, I feel ill-equipped to make any promises. Hopefully that was some semi-random neural misfire and will dissolve over the next few days, but some of you will probably know that, even when you're not actively hallucinating anymore, any kind of schizoid episode leaves you rattling around inside a hollow shell of yourself for a while. A lot of that "self" has been abruptly discontinued.
Hoping it doesn't matter and everything is as usual, but I figured I should mention it in case of "in case of" –
MSJ
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I wish you way more than the best. But i bet you don't like that phrasing. Just the best will do then. Mike also, since weather is such a bitch to you... can you move to better climes? We can all subscribe enough for you to live in a better air and climate for you right?
TX sized vibes for you dawg thanks for uploading and thanks for being the person you are
I hope you are doing okay. - Greetings and best wishes from Prague.
Love to you man. You’re a light in this world, get well soon 🙏
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Sending you love and light man. Your insights are timeless and I always pick up on new things with each listen, so I got no problem looping back through the catalog for however long you need
we love you judge. feel better baby
take care of yourself
We’re all in it together, kid.
Take your time. We will be here.
Take all the time you need
Feel better
Sending all the love
Get well soon.
Get well soon mane
<3 <3 <3
Rest and nourish🙏🏼🤙🏼🖖🏼
Take your time and prioritize your health.
Here’s to not having any worse shit happen to you,….wouldnt be the first time you looked up and saw that we were by your side…‘cause we’re by your side (thanks for that btw, i listen to it everyday and it gives me a tiny glimmer of hope, even if it’s just long enough for the other one I also listen to everyday to snuff it out ૮(꒦ྃ⌑꒦ྃ)ა
Thanks for posting, we support u bro <3
Focus on you right now
Do what you have to do for yourself; your health comes first. Here’s hoping everything is ok and these episodes were just transient, random, and finally over.
Take care of yourself and most importantly take the time you need to feel better.
Take your time man and get well soon 🙏
Man, thanks for posting, I didn't do no socials and I worry about my parasocial best friends.. psychotic episodes are probably the most terrifying shit I've ever had to go through and mine were exclusively from smoking too much high strength weed for decades, one coming out of the blue is an absolute nightmare to me. I'm sure I don't need to give you advice, but rest up and keep out of the iconosphere and in nature and among trusted people for a bit
Rest up MSJ, none of us is going anywhere
All love to you, MSJ
You're a phenomenal translator of phenomenon, so it sucks to know that you're dealing with something so incomprehensible!! No hurry on an ep, put yourself and your health first. Take care MSJ
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I've had psychotic breaks before. It's scary beyond the imagination of most, I'm fucking sorry. Remember the love that formed you and supported your endurance through the bad times.
Take care of yourself and know that we’re all out in the world rooting for you. We’ll be here whenever the time is good for you ✊🏼✊🏼✊🏼
Feel better champ
Hang in there, big cheese
take care of yourself comrade
I hope They aren't coming for you...not after They just took Matt out... (kidding. sort of.)
Take care of yourself!! I know it may not mean much but I mean it very well, praying for you MSJ! <3 wish you all the best!
No sweat amigo, cool those coils, I'll be happy to hear it when it comes but I'm not going anywhere
Mike your health is the priority don’t worry about us we can wait
Please be well. Your content has helped me through a difficult time. Best.
Take care of yourself my man
Take care of yourself and we’ll all still be here once you’re feeling more normal. But what’s normal anyway https://youtu.be/iVSIQwnvniA?si=O8qAmN1WSCXeZTSo
https://youtu.be/aHCLUep2Gr8?si=7V4t-srPYsozAF1O for the better half of the album concept imo
You take care of yourself first and foremost
We're least concerned with when you'll release a D/C episode. Your health and well-being is first and foremost to us and we're all rooting for you. You got this, king!
Take your time, take care of yourself. May you find health and peace quickly.
Good luck and take care your yourself as good as you can
The cosmic beauty is that when I start to dissociate or have an episode, your show always somehow helps me peace myself back together. A real through the looking glass experience in which acknowledging all the insanity and darkness rebalances me. I’m so thankful to have that, and want you to know that your episodes exist on a different time schedule. There are still episodes I haven’t heard because the time isn’t right yet. There is always time; take as much as you need.
Take care of yourself, we all love you
Take your time. Get well. We can wait
The psychic weather seems heavier than usual lately. You've kept up a powerful pace of late, and I don't think any of us would begrudge you taking some time to rest. Hope you feel better soon.
I think it's the eclipse and all the crazy solar flares coming down as the aurora borealis. Shit has been rough out here for those sensitive enough to feel it.
Take all the time needed.
Hey Michael, yes I saw on twitter but since I’m 🔒 there i can no longer reply guy you to hell and back; allow me to herein wish you a smooth stabilization back to a non-Lynchian reality. We may love the man but no one should have to live like that. I know any Health Event is even scarier when no cause is obvious. If you go seeking answers (which w your history i imagine is an emotional minefield) I will hold light for you that they are forthcoming 🙏🏽
Take care of yourself and we will be patiently awaiting your return. I have a friend I've introduced your work to with similar struggles with addiction and mental health issues including psychosis at times. He's a musician and deals with these themes in his work. Perhaps give some a listen https://edymeaday.bandcamp.com/ This song in particular https://edymeaday.bandcamp.com/track/open-letter
Me and my fiancé were hanging wallpaper last weekend and listened to your podcast. It brought us closer together which I cannot say about any other podcast. I am thankful for you and hope these past couple days were just some fluke. Hang in there.
***Also, im no expert, but I have (nearly a lifetime) of first hand experience with severe manic episodes that lead to psychotic breaks/behind the veil experiences. They ALL have happened in the SPRING. Had been over 20 years since I landed in a special kinda place, but there I was recently…again. Take from it what you will, but the energy of the sun vibrates differently in the spring, and sometimes it hits you hard. Maybe that helps, thanks Mike you’re an inspiration, hope you recover well.
this is totally anecdotal but i've always had major burnout episodes (as well as some attempts and being admitted) around March/April/May. apparently it's kind of common with people with chronic mental health issues? again, this is anecdotal and just what i've seen people talk about on social media and in some of the mental health support communities i'm in.
I've had recent experiences of temporary mental loss. I remain thankful for those close to me that helped me pull through, and that has helped me stabilize.
Much love. Will be sending the good vibes for whatever they’re worth ❤️
Take all the time you need Mike. We’ll be here when you’re feeling better. Much love.
get well soon man take as much time as you need and then some
Be well, sir. Take your time.
I can’t imagine a single person that truly appreciates your work, and that brain of yours, being upset at you for failing to produce a fucking podcast fast enough for them. I think I speak for us all when I say, you’re genuinely loved and we understand that your health is your biggest priority.
you had me at “a single person that truly appreciates your work” bc I think many many brains are required to fully Get It (or i’m just dumb which also fine). but yes to your actual point!!
Take your time and take care of yourself!
We love you and we're with you, if you gotta be out while you get it sorted none of that changes. Get back when you can friend, hopefully sooner than later. We'll be here.
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Rest and recuperate
Been going through the same, I find ridiculous “touchstones” help me—like watching NBA basketball. I listened to your episode with Liz from that other show, so maybe you can find the same bizarre ritual helpful. Sounds weird, but shit like that helps me transition back to “normal” land.
glad 🏀 is helping you /gen
Love you Mike take care 💚
get well soon brother
Take care brother
Good luck Michael. I love the show but I'm happy for you to take a break to take care of yourself.
be well cher 🖤
Be well man, wishing you the best