I expect kickback for this...

I announced I turned off comments on YouTube as an appropriate action taken for looking after myself and needs that YouTube no longer gives me any pleasure sharing interaction with.

Comments will be turned off retroactively on any older videos that receive new comments requiring this action also.

The truth is, I feel thoroughly disrespected and can no longer pretend to have a thick skin when I can’t unsee what came just came into my inbox. I don’t want to be subject to disrespectful fuckboi kicks. They really get a kick out of my videos and I don’t blame them, I just don’t want to be a recipient of this behavior anymore.

My videos attract fuck bois. Period. I am attractive and I attract a lot of negative attention also. I don’t deserve it, I don’t need to put up with it. I don’t want to be hurt by it anymore. I’ve been hurt too much already and I’m way over my limit. Even the slightest fuck boi intimation hurts and offends me because I am traumatized.

Thank you all for being here. You really mean so much to me. You protect me from fuck bois and allow me to regain my strength. I’m thoroughly eroded after years of daily comments (some of my videos are 400k views) so yeh - I get A LOT of stuff that can’t be filtered to spam.

I don’t know if I’ll ever return to YouTube because the culture there is too toxic for me. I’m relieved to be winding it down to be honest. It opened my eyes how much I’ve put up with over the years, and it shouldn’t be this way.