Updates + 2025 retrospective and future plans

GAMERS, GAYS AND EVERYONE IN BETWEEN

first off just to get this out of the way, i'm pushing the final book club for Will to Change back a week, momma is TIRED and has too much going on so now it's happening on December 15th.

now that that's out of the way, it's been a hell of a year and i want to talk about it. but first i want to thank all of you insane lunatics for watching my garbage, even more thanks to the insaner lunatics giving me money. ya'll are real and even though i have a full time job, this morsel of extra money has been more helpful than you possible know so thank you from the bottom of my caffeine addled heart.

pretty insane that this patreon didn't exist at the beginning of the year. my channel barely did too. i had a small but mighty 528 subscribers as of december 31st and now as we get close to the end of the year that number has grown to over 33,000. that's fucked up.

i had my first spike in january thanks to my "modern video games suck" video which i think was my first mostly watchable piece of content, then slowly things ramped up with my biggest spikes by far being my "r/asmongold" video followed by my "legendary drops" video. By then i had crested 30k. Around august, youtube did fucked up shit involving changing how views work and how the algo works which messed up LITERALLY EVERYONE and it's been a bit of a stall in growth since then. but i can blame it on youtube and not me falling off to preserve my ego so that's what important. oh i also got banned for a while, that was fun. if you, my savior, are reading this i reaffirm if you need anyone killed please let me know and i'll take care of it (legally this is a joke).

i fell into a pretty structured format for my videos because i specifically wanted to focus more on my writing, which is the thing i'm the least good at so i streamlined the other components of a video with just enough room for me to mess around while i get ok at writing words. i think this has been largely good for me and i feel like i have indeed gotten better at making videos from the writing side of things, but i feel a little stagnant in my format to a degree. as such, i have thoughts.

unstructured thoughts about content changing

I have a lot of thoughts around what kind of content i could make with infinite time and money but alas, i do not have those so my life is filled with compromises. i'm sure you remember the more ambitious cinematography-core type moments i've tried which i do love, but man is that time consuming on top of everything else. the green screen has been fun to mess around with but it too takes a bit of time to compensate for in terms of structuring a video around it even though it's extremely flexible.

My main issue though is how long my videos take to make, and how many things my brain wants to talk about on a regular basis, and how at odds these two things are. i like my long videos because i like going deep (hehe) into a topic but it really restricts me from talking about other things. i am looking for ways to amend this. i'm not sure if that means content outside of my main videos in the form of a side channel, patreon videos, or different things on the main channel, OR something different entirely but i have more thoughts and creative energy to expel and i need to figure out a way to do that. i'm just me doing all this though, so i have considered maybe finding an editor to take the load off assuming the fit is good.

i really like what jacob gellar does for example, with different visual formats for a lot of his videos and i think i want to try doing something like that over time. i think i get too in my head about having to edit as much as i do because i don't want people to get bored watching my stuff, when to be honest i fuckin hate editing. i know people like my editing but goddamn i find it very tedious most of the time, which is why i want to look into doing less editing in a way that doesn't impact the quality or vibe of my work.

community and interaction and blah blah

another reason i want to make some general vague concept of more stuff is because i want to interact more with people. obviously things like my book club is one version of this, but it's mega niche and not very accessible so i want to have more ways of doing that. i am going to look into making some sort of discord probably, i'm just looking into the youtube community tab, but overall i want to make a place where discussions can happen and people can interact with eachother and also me if it's something that makes sense.

i've met cool people and i've interacted with people on smaller scales and it's been cool, i want to foster more places that can happen more intentionally and not random chance or just people sending me emails.

obviously, before this happens, i want to make sure the appropriate safeguards are in place for me and members of the community so everyone feels safe no funny business goes on. safety number 1.

ANYWAYS, as i said before momma is tired and needs a drink, new video is coming along and will be out before the end of the month and it'll be the last one of the year. it's a bit of a companion piece to my first "modern video games suck" video that kicked everything off. how poetic of me.

cheers dorks.