Not quite a Devlog or an Announcement
Just wanted to share some personal and general musings for anyone interested.
I'll be honest, I haven't been feeling the passion for my games as I have in the past. And when one knows what that feels like to have that fire you're supposed to have for a project and it's not there…It's very obvious to me and is so much harder to work with. Something especially impossible when I'm working with the themes of devotion and obsession and love. I'm glad to report that I am getting back to that feeling again. And I remember all the emotions that I was going through when I started this project, chilling devotion. For a long time I couldn't remember that time in my life that well anymore. Or how I felt living in snowy isolation. It's a kind of scary experience to forget something that was so important to you before. Maybe normal. Poor brains.
I've been quite distracted with the events happening where I live- America. And trying to figure out my place in all of that mess. This year has been profoundly disappointing in many ways. (Please make sure to vote in November if you live in America!) I've really taken the time to take stock of everything and try to sort it out. All of my insecurities, fears of disappointing, and perfectionism feels so far away right now when all I want to do is express myself. The best way I know how while I can. It's embarrassing how long and arduous it's been to get back to this point. Messy.
I might be on Patreon less and reply less. Sorry. I've always been bad with social media, so please forgive me there. I'm still so uncomfortable taking up space in that way, if that makes sense. There was no one watching when I first started making games and that was a comfort in a lot of ways. I feel very fortunate to have people that care about the stuff I make, of course. But this is all very new and overwhelming for me. The world along with the internet is changing so quickly as I'm sure we are all well aware of .
I am expecting and giving myself the deadline of December to release day 3. Perfect for the winter setting. I think as a solo dev, that has to do such a range of things, I'll have to compromise with making original music for now. Hopefully I'll be able to rectify that later. I may post extras here and there, no promises, but I'm gonna focus on game development. Halloween Jim drawing?? I'll still make devlogs, but less than I have. As fun as they are, it does take me out of my flow which feels like such a pretentious thing to say.
All that is to say, my fire is back and it's time to make art again. I woke up and remembered that whatever I've done, I did it for love. Excited for ya'll to play with me again. Thanks for listening to what I had to share and for supporting my work.
-Remina
Comments (10)
it doesnt matter to us hun when you release it, aslong as you dont overwhelm yourself and push yourself to hard, remember to take care of yourself, take breaks, or ill crawl underneath your bed and hit your head with a frying pan, dont test me :stare:
I get it! I JUST downloaded your game and immediately wanted to support this project, take all the time you need.
It's nice to hear how you express yourself, I really admire your work and projects and you are the source of my inspiration to do my own work, it's understandable how you feel and nice to read how you felt that spark again for your work, keep improving yourself 💪💪
Please remember to take breaks and be safe !
Always take your time and space. As someone who also lives in American, I understand what you mean. Someone this country situation tends to get to you mentally. It’s always important to stay informed about our current situation, but it’s also important to keep your mental health in check. Pls don’t be harsh yourself. I’m really glad you found our spark back✨ and we will always support and wait for you no matter what😼
Whatever you choose to do, I'll try to keep supporting you
your art and characters have inspired me so much, they’ve helped me heal in a lot of ways and helped realign me in a time when i was struggling with who i was and was doing. i’m glad you’re starting to feel better about your work and progress again :) i also get how it feels trying to create when perfectionism mixed with a lack of drive eat away at you. really excited to see what comes next for chilling devotion and any other plans you have in store.
take as much time as you need, CD is very much worth the wait and you're still one of the most active developers that I follow on patreon 🤍 I probably live in a bubble, but sending love to all Americans, damn, hang in there!
I know exactly how that feels, as someone also living in America (rip) glad you're getting your spark back, less posts is certainly fine, I'm sure most everyone would agree, to balance it all out I'ma just post even more fanart ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ (All seriousness though, take care of yourself, giving yourself a hard deadline can be rough, please take time if you need it, and also, we always have a space for you, take up as much as you want ♡)
Sigh, so kind as usual. I am very lucky and grateful.