memories

oh my god.

I keep looking over all the sketches again and again. I love them so much! That moment with Jay is probably one of my favorites. It captures that state of mind so well. I realize Jay shouldn't have gone to work that day, given that he was physically unwell. But honestly, when you're facing a terrible situation, simply going to work is a good option. Otherwise, you're left alone with your thoughts, and that can drive you into an even worse state.

this post breaks me every single time

I want to point something out which maybe doesn't fit the tone of the comic but ... I love how Adil and Jay hang out together. They're so comfortable around each other. Which really says a lot considering both of them are dealing with a huge amount of anxiety and trauma. I just ... I love them so much. ❤️

Omg, and this was when he made that mistake, right?? The mistake that made him not want to help Adil at first??

Never have I related to someone so much. It hurts but it’s comforting.

I am so unwell, oh my goodness...

this is so relatable. sometimes when you go thru a life-shattering event, there's not much to do about it other than carry on like you usually do even if it's always haunting you. this made me see jay's side of things a lot better <3

Oh, esto rompe mi corazón 💔

I'm so happy we get to better understand how Jay's been feeling since that night! So. Happy. I'm sooooo happy. I'm so SO—

"Thank you so much for the update🥺" I say as you stab me in the chest

I'm gonna kms

"No you can't, you're dead" "I know" lemme go and cry in a corner rn

Damn, this hit me really hard, you portrayed this feeling so well, I love your work so much. I’ve really gotten attached to these characters and I can’t wait to see more of how they grow and evolve and get to know more of their story ❤️❤️❤️

<3 Thank you for your service

Damn, I genuinely just don’t even know what to say. But this is seriously real, you could die one night and just move on like any other day.

Hii Sasha! Hope you're doing amazing!! Thank you so much for this story, it's amazing 😭🩷

I just scrolled all the way down trough the comment section,oh man..... So many SA victims here... Guys just know it doesnt matter if you were silent like Jay,or if you fought hard for justice,in the end,you are alive Not the best feeling,but still,there's so much yuri and yaoi unread in this world We must go on

Stories like that,about kids that were not protected from evil man in their lifes,oh,it brokes my heart in pieces every time!!!😭😭😭 little angels these fuckers destroyed!but i do really enjoy eating glass,so...

soul crushing mini comic aside-- the hair details is so so beautiful/perfect

Hey Adil, Jay did die one night... juste believe him on that one 😭

Has Jay told Adil about Chris???

Can confirm that Sasha in fact did NOT kiss the brick before she threw it 😭

and again, jay is an angel. the halo is the perfect another proof

im ugly crying i can’t wrap my head about how it must still affect him, like this is so unfair, so wrong:(

poor baby

Ouch. Ouch ouch. His lips look so sore, too.

damn man

💔💔💔

The hair strands!!!! The artistic details that go into your work are amazing

the marks on his lips :( he is so strong owwwe

MY POOR BABY 😭😭😭

This reminded me of some conversation I had with my sister few weeks ago, she was asking me random "funny" questions, one of them really hit me hard and I remembered the most painful time of my life and got really mad about it, and she was just… confused Can’t really blame her, cuz somehow trauma always find its way back to you

Sasha when will you stop torturing us? (Pls never stop)

the halo detail is so so goooddddddd

My heart ACHES

Trauma is such a heavy thing. A random conversation and suddenly you’re right there, facing your worst nightmare again.

Dudddee.... I'm in emotional distress rn. I want him to be comforted and I hate that he went through all that alone 😭😭

This hurt my feelings

this is so heartbreaking :( jay had experienced the worst already and he had to just keep going with life :( it’s so sad, i hope he can start enjoying being alive again

if you’re searching for me, i’m crying in the corner or getting rid of Chris

what jay has been through is already disturbing, and to bring such trauma into an art is something different. to make an art give an "uncomfortable" feeling rarely happens and you're incredibly talented in doing so.

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SASHA YOU MAKE IT HARD TO LOVE YOU

Interesting

i feel sick lmao

oh okay.

im on the edge of the cliff sasha.

Uhhhh ow????

what I'm always wondering is, will these sketches be implemented into the story chapters? or they just random moments of their everyday life?

Amazing as always Sasha

I'm an educator at a center for people with disabilities. Three years ago, a psychiatric boy, obsessed with me, sexually assaulted me (he couldn't do much), then beat himself up. I reacted professionally and, to calm him down, I hugged him, as if it hadn't happened to me. Back home, I only went to the emergency room because three of my colleagues asked me to. Eight hours had passed. I had his marks on my breasts for months. I had nightmares about him for years. Nowadays, I still work with this guy.

BROOOOO NOOOOO HE'S SAYING THAT CAUSE HE'S ALREADY FELT DEAD GODDDDD

Hurt so much ❤️‍🩹

Its truly agonising to relate to him right now 😔 we will get over this together, I promise Jay 🙏

I never get tired of complimenting your amazing writing. Everyone is saying the same thing but it's true, the way you depict a SA experience, the PTSD, the way Jay handles it; it's all so realistic and well writen. Thank you for this story 💜

It really feels likes that. The guy who assaulted me worked in the same building as me. Not the same workplace itself, but same building. Life doesnt stop just because something bad happened to you. So every day, I still had to get up. Get on the bus. Go to work. Maybe see him, if I was really unlucky. Even though I went the legal route with it (a court case ongoing for the past three years now, and im pretty sure im losing), it didnt stop the world from moving onwards. Bills still need paying. Stomach still needs food. Its a weird, empty feeling. In a lot of ways you die. But you still go to work cause you have to. And you still pretend everything is fine and normal cause you have to. Anyways, this captures that feeling really well. Thanks, as always 💗

and i also want to say that your depiction of the entire SA arc feels very realistic, disgusting and ugly (in a good way). your work never gave me an ick or the "this is too artificial and made just for drama" impression. this is the first time i’ve seen something like that. i hope you have such a deep understanding of the issue is due to research and not personal experience. i wish no one ever has to go through this. ever. thank you, Sasha.

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Okayyyyyy getting sad looking at this at work okayyyyy thank you so much for thissss

Hurts so much

just noticed the way he's touching his hair in the third panel like its the moment when he started to hate it and the way he looks like he's about to cry (he probably did 💔)

Jesus christ Sasha 🥀

This raises the question in my mind; Does Adil know Jay's past with Chris? Or has he not felt comfortable enough to talk about it yet? It might've already been answered, but I'd still like to know

Jays the strongest person ever I love him so much wth

My baby Jay, may you always be safe

My Poor baby deserves his Happy End

my eyes started to water. Jay feels too real

Ok, I love (and hate ngl) how his feelings are so raw, I can easily feel everything.

And probably that night was when that happened. When something so traumatic happens to you you pretty much die. Even if physically you're still there. But the world keeps turning and your own life circunstances might have not changed, you might still need to show up to work, make a living, keep pursuing your dreams because if you stop "it" will catch up to you. Keeping a facade that everything is as it's always been and everything's great. Also, this kinda trauma is really complex and can reaaally fk you up. Among other things (like your authority figure, one you felt so safe with, completelly shattered; like feeling you are going crazy because you know something wrong happened yet you keep being told you had a say in the whole thing, that was your idea, that you wanted it.), the power imbalance was huge and now you are basically blackmailed because everything and anything you confided in them is surely gonna be used against you if you ever were to open up about what happened. Tbh more than su1c1d4l, this happening to Jay it's making me homicidal 🤗🔪

NOOOO 😭😭😭😭 THIS HURTS

him going to work, acting like nothing happened and smiling but still, his empty eyes tells you everything 💔 I love how you capture his pain sasha, its so subtle but still so obvious

Jaaaaay 😭💔

aaah minhas shaylinhaaaas 🥺💗

I really just want to hug that guy. Because I know how it feels, how your eyelids burn after you cry so much that on the second day your eyes look like beans

The mirror light showing a halo Sasha did you at least kiss the brick before CHUCKING it at us 😭💔

OWCH THIS HIT SO HARD

Poor Jay 🫂🖤

you just love throwing bricks at us at some point (keep going)

youre so evil for this one oh my god

This one hit close to home. Sometimes you do just get up the next day feeling dead and go to work.

How Jay's eyes are so red and puffy in the hospital showing just how much he cried breaks my heart stop

You're so good at portraying feelings

The fact that jay is slowly opening up more to adil and adil is doing the same AGHRHRHR

Both of them had to go through such different experiences it makes me want to cry oml

Obviously the lip cuts are there bc of what Chris did to Jay, but I do wonder if they unfortunately stayed longer than normal bc of jays anxious biting habits

OMG

i would die happy if an animated show about them ever happen

🥺🥺🥺

oh... ouch

I like that Jay is slowly starting to open up to Adil, even if he doesn't tell him everything, he'll feel much better. I hope this is canon and not just a sketch. 😔❤️

sometimes that's really just how it is. i had a 3 hour car ride home, then i went to bed. the next day, i got up and went to work. i kept going to work, and now i work almost every day just so i don't have time to think. i could feel the world continue to spin, but i wasn't in it anymore. it's been over a year or so now.

Somebody call an ambulance, I just got stabbed.

Omgg

More Jay's content, but at what cost? 😭

It's so unfair! Because of what happened, Jay broke free from Chris's influence and didn't become like him, but he had to go through torment and will never be completely free from it... He experienced the worst and tried to just move on. I can't. I just have tears in my eyes. Sasha I love and hate ur work. Pls give us more

My poor jay

holy shit jdjjkdjk ufff

Wowwwwwww Sansan wants to killl us 😔 poor Jay be dead inside _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_ I just want them both to be happy. Welp great writing, great art, great facial expressions. I would die for a show to be made of this 😫 (who would u cast). Crying

this is so beautiful oh my goodness

Whyyyyy whyyyyyyy did i assume they’d be good memories.. I just took 12 psychic damage. I really appreciate Jay and the way his trauma and how he processes it is depicted, your art is beautiful and extremely cathartic at times

the hair details and the bloody lips your work will always be so pretty even tho it's KILLING ME INSIDE

sasha i swear if you dont give these two a happy ending i will sue like yeah break our hearts a million times in the process, thats fine, but they gotta be fine otherwise none of us will be fine ever again

Stop this is just so good. It feels so accurate and real. Every time the worst happened, since I was physically able, even if I died inside, I got up and went to school/work. I think so many people do. You represent that and the feelings so well. Beautiful as always.

Oh wow the dialogue hit me particularly hard and I can't even pinpoint why Gorgeous art, as always !

his hair ale magnificent

now thats a lot of damage!

pains me so much how alone he was. i’m glad adil came to save him unknowingly

Silence is the worst in your panels, in the best way possible

My day ended at 12 p.m today

STOOOPP his souless eyes always hurt me so much

It's hard to remember I was "dead" a while ago too. Almost two years feeling empty every single day, just going through the motions, anyone barely noticed, not even my family. Stepping out of that hole by myself was, by far, the best decision I've ever made. I hope Jay makes that decision too.

Thanks now I'm died too

this is so sad

Gorgeous work as always Sasha 🫶🏾 my heart hurts so bad everytime I think of what Jay’s been through. He deserves only good things. And as always, Chris can fuck off to hell.

In the picture where he looks up in the third slide.. its like i can see the thin line snapping in his head, his sanity gone and he died then

OW????

god his souless eyes im gonna vom i love him

Jay reveals so much to adil without context... he wants to be heard but doesnt say it outright.. adil mustve been a god send to him

I'm calling the police, harming your OC's should be illegal

Part of me is like absolutely broken by seeing jay deal with this traumatic experience and wishing things could have gone differently but at the same time…it’s only because of this that he gets the opportunity to meet Adil and they only meet because they’re saving each others lives so :(

You write them so well it's agonizing

You know who is dead? Me everytime I remember what happened to him

i love jay so much its not even funny :(

ouuu the character work here🥹

JYA HAS A HALO IN THE MIRROR

This hurts so bad 💔

God Adil is so lucky jay held out from attempting for so long because I wouldn’t blame him for ending things right away

this broke my heart actually

Take all his pain and give it to Chris and DOUBLE IT

This hits hard man 💔

God that one hits so close to home. Yeah, one night you die and the next day you get your shit together and you just. Carry on. I think that is my favorite part of this series so far. It's raw, it's realistic and it has so many layers. I really love your art and how you approach all of this. Thank you ❤️

Ahhhh I love your art sm :') </3

my poor heart jay i need you to be happy PLEASE

Sasha i just saw the overview of all the pictures. And pls don't do this to me

It makes me cry

why saaadd:(((

HIS EYES.

The difference between the two Jays killed me

Jay really has been all alone this whole time :(

😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ur expressions are always on point, i really love them

typical medics

holding them both carefully in my arms 😭 so glad they have each other

This one hits deep

oh my poor boy💔

😔😔☹️

I want him to have the best ending ever

jay :(((( Chris really is just the most evil mfer on earth

That’s evil 💔💔

why are you torturing me 😭

BRO THE TIMING 😭😭 I WAS LITERALLY STALKING YOUR ACC RN LMAO

oh this one has a little kick

jay my poor boy

💔💔

Can I kill Chris for the epic ending

:(((

oh Jay </3

I LOVE JAY MY SHAYLA 😞

sigh...

😭😭😭😭😭😭

Oh u want me dead 😭😭

Oh my god my poor baby

i hate chris i hope he suffers a lot

My favorite thing abt your art and story is how u depict SA. Truly 🙏

Oh. Oh honey, no.

NOOO STOPPP NOOO

oh gosh this hurts

Sobbing crying dry heaving, peeing a little

First boiiiiiii