Hello, friends 💕

Yes, it’s me again the redhead who managed to disappear for almost three months and, surprise, rise from the ashes. My appeal for the old accounts is still floating somewhere in Instagram purgatory and at the speed they move, I’m pretty sure they’ll erase humanity first, then maybe get back to me.

Every morning I woke up thinking: “That’s it. Game over. Everything I worked for for years — gone in a one day. Because Instagram decided my life was just a little too fun and decided to hit the reset button for me.”

And those thoughts were eating me alive. Sure, I tried posting on TikTok ,but come on, it’s a totally different playground. People go there to lobotomize themselves with memes. Yes, Instagram is also a circus, but if you do art it’s doesn’t feel like a system error.

I wasn’t allowed to create a new account on my phone, while my appeal was hanging. Actually, I wasn’t even allowed to touch Instagram on my phone. So I sat in silence, chewing on myself like sunflower seeds.

At some point, my anxiety revved up so hard that my inner critic turned into a drill sergeant: “You’re doing nothing! We can’t just sit here! Get up, do something, goddamn it!”

And you know what ? Sometimes my anxiety isn’t weakness, it’s fuel. I hate it, but damn, it’s the very thing that pushеd me to act.

So I decided: if I can’t use this phone — screw the phone. I sold clothes I don’t wear (don’t worry, I won’t be freezing naked this winter). Took a loan, bought a new phone, a new SIM card, and do new email — and started from scratch.

Now I want to sell my old phone to pay off part of the loan.

Long story short: I’m back in the game.

Here’s the thing: I’ve been through so much crap in my life that believe me — an account ban won’t break me. Yes, I’m anxious, extrеme, sometimes I fall into the dark side, but I’m not someone who quits. If I were, you wouldn’t even be reading this post.

I know the road ahead won’t be easy. There’ll be days when my hands drop, when I want to quit, when I want to рity myself. Days when the inner voice screams that I’m a total failure. But! Doing nothing is worse than hell. So I declare: from this day on, I’m starting over.

And your support very important for me 💕Share, comment, save, tell your friends about me — all of this will mean the world for my new start.

Thank you for being here. I’m off to the gym to stand on my head, and maybe soon I’ll surprise you with something even stranger 😁

Love you. 🖤