some thoughts on regaining the weight i lost after those fucking stomach issues:

it’s coming on so differently?? i lost a lot of muscle mass alongside fat, so im much weaker now. i’m not regaining the muscle, so my weight is overall lower but im still like. That fat. going up my stairs winds me. i’m scared of walking more than like, a quarter mile. i have to drive everywhere, and while my car was in the shop i was getting less than 600 steps in a day.

stretch marks are appearing slowly but steadily—under my boobs, among my back rolls, on my arms… and lord. the arm rolls, i can see where they’re gonna be!! and thigh rolls!!

i’m so happy to be going through this again 🥹🥹 onto 350 lbs—finally!!!