i'm really sorry for the less content this month

hello guys, drown's here.

i'm sorry that this month content get super delayed and slow-pace working. this month is suppose to mark of two years Akane series, and i want to end it exactly today. but i had some issue that i really cannot ignore, the more i try to ignore it, the more pressure that i get.

i'm sorry, my private life should doesn't concern any of you, but i dont have anyone to talk about this, so i need help of you guys, maybe just listen or give me some advice to keep me motivated.

this all sound stupid because all of this its about my love life, so if you doesnt want to read it, just skip.

i met this girl in July 2025 on social media, at first we just having a normal chat, talk about game, stuff, etc. after that, on October 2025 we decided to go on a date and take this relationship into next level. we have a pretty good time, going out, watch a movie, you know dating stuff, i even had a chance to meet her parents, and they super nice and support our relationship.

but the big problems is on me, You guys all know that i made a porn for living, in our early relationship, i just told her i'm doing a freelance job and she okay with it and never ask too far about what i do, so i'm just never think about it.

on February, we celebrate my birthday together, that's my first time to celebrate my own birthday in a long time, and i'm really happy about it. also on that day, she ask that if i'm serious to her, because she wants take our relationship into the next step (getting married) and of course i say yes, but she ask one thing that i need to find a proper job if i want to marry her, and thats the one that really hit me.

since that day, i really desperate to find a decent job. but its hard to find a decent job with only high-school diploma here, the one that have university degree is also struggle to find one, then what i can do? right now our country is almost collapsed, our currency is going to the ground, and there's nothing i can do besides trying.

after months try to apply to almost anything beside being a delivery man, i give up.

2 weeks before, i'm thinking before we go too far into this relationship and make it hard, i decide to tell her the truth for what i do for living, because i dont want to lie anymore. and after i tell that, i'm ready for anything she say, either she stay with me or she leave me, i will take it.

and you guess it, last week after i show what i'm doing for living for the past 4 years, she feel disgusted. and i understand her, so after i ask what she gonna do, she decide to leave me, and i'm okay. it hurts, but what did i expect? she a good girl, smart, beautiful. i should know my place from the start. with job like this, i can't date anyone, and no one deserve me.

dont get the wrong idea, i really love this job, i really love making a story, even maybe the earning is not enough, thanks to the USD currency to IDR, its enough to get me live day by day, and all of that thanks to you, all my fans and supporter who keep decide to support me.

but just so you know, anything about porn here is considered as a taboo thing. the thing that we should not talk in public, thats why i keep my identity anonim for the past 4 years.

again, there's nothing i can do now, besides move on and keep going. but i'm still human, even i try to forget it, its still hurts, and while finishing story, i keep trying not to cry, but i cant.

i'm crying here while my gf leave me, but i'm making a NTR story about wife leave her husband for another man, irony.

I'm really sorry, again, this should none of your guys business, but i'm really sorry for all of this make all the work got ruined.

i will try to keep doing what i love, i will try not to care about any of that again. for now i only just one thing, finish this work and make you guys all satisfied.

i need roughly 2-3 more days to finish, i will make sure its all worth for the wait!

and if you guys who are sub expired before the work released, please message me in discord to get the link send to you, because you guys have the rights to do so. please do it.

thank you for all the support, and thanks for letting me to talk about this.