Life Update

I haven't kept everyone updated on what's been happening with me. I last posted about being sick and a back injury, and I had spent about two months getting better until I had a setback which caused me to restart my rehab process.

For those unaware, meningitis is an infection/swelling around the brain and spinal cord. At the time I got sick I didn't think much of it other than a bad flu. Depending on the type you get it's actually quite deadly, even if caught early, which I did not do.

On top of that, there are long-term effects that can result from it. Luckily I haven't noticed any cognitive impairment, but I have experienced other things such as extreme headaches during sexual stimulation. Getting closer to climax resulted in it becoming so intense that I couldn't continue. It's such a weird topic and embarrassing to even talk about, so I've only mentioned it to a couple people. Therefore I'm currently in my longest bout of abstinence since I was a teen.

The spine injury wasn't caused by the infection, but may have created conditions that made it more likely to happen. I've avoided any surgery, but it's been a long process of rehab which I (being my usual self) pushed too hard through.

What has this meant for development? For much of this period I wasn't able to tolerate sitting at my PC very much. But also, working on a medium that includes erotic material doesn't help with the current abstinence thing. So it really put everything to a halt.

In summary, I'm tired. It's been months of pain and energy management. I don't like complaining about it because most people don't really care beyond "That sucks, hope you get better," which is understandable. I've had some people try reaching out to make sure I was still alive because I have been missing from all social platforms. It may seem like a small thing to make a post or pop in on Discord once in a while, but I guess it was just a sense of defeatism while I tried to manage non-work stuff. Plus I hate making excuses and trying to explain myself.

I had just gotten back home late last night after two weeks away. I didn't sleep all that well so I'm struggling to organize my thoughts. I do have approval to try periodic PC work. I need to pay attention to posture, and set timers so I'm not sitting down more than 30min before getting up and doing some sort of mobility exercise.

So to wrap all this up, I'm sorry for the confusion and my apparent lack of effort. I'm okay if there are people who are disappointed in me, or upset, or anything else. I guess I've been too tired to care much about it. My intentions, hopes, and goals have not changed, and I still plan to accomplish what I set out to do with TaH development and beyond. I'll have a more detailed game update in the future when I'm readjusted.

-ckr

P.S. I'm not proofreading this so hopefully it makes sense lol.