"Draw me like one of your French girls..."
Wow, my health has been super not good! It's making me real sad! Yesterday I dragged myself off the couch to go sit on a different chair for a few hours, but in my garden instead.
I am enjoying letting myself be messy with these last few garden sketches. You saw these ones in the last post, but here, let's keep 'em all together.
Just letting my hand move, approximating the curves of the stems without actually trying to make them 100% accurate. Blobs of color with quick little dashed accent marks.
My dark green marker ran out of ink before I could finish drawing the detail lines and, you know what?, that's fine. I like it in transition like this, like it's moving.
This is a good picture of me, I like this picture of me, so please don't push back when I say that if you spend a lot of time with me then you can tell that my face is bloated. I am smiling and I'm happy and I look "good" and also my whole body and face are uncomfortably, visibly bloated, I had to cancel multiple dates over the weekend because I was too sick to go out, and I'm just barely managing to fulfill the barest of my obligations and responsibilities.
It's such a disorienting combination! I am "well" enough to make pretty pictures for the internet in the form of drawings, photos, and videos, which creates this illusion that things are pretty and fun over here. And then there is everything else that I don't post pictures of that show how unwell I am. Sorry, this is kind of a bummer.
My garden makes me happy. Taking pictures of my garden makes me happy. Sharing those pictures on the internet makes me happy.
I'm catching my snatches of happiness wherever I can.
Comments (15)
Seeing pictures of your garden and your posts in general always make me happy, thank you for sharing.
I hope you feel better soon, and seeing you happy in your garden makes me happy. Yes, this is a great picture of you.
Snatches of happiness. Like.
Echoing all the sentiments above, and offering a virtual hug if you’d like one 🫂
Hang in there! hope they figure out how to better treat your health stuff soon! Love the garden drawings, thank you for sharing them.
Wishing you better days in the near future!
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us as you share. I echo the others that I hope you find answers soon, and I'll stick around even if you need to take a break from this!
That is SUCH a good picture!
I’m sure I speak for others as well as myself when I say that I love reading your posts, but prioritize your mind/body wellness above all else. Please don’t feel obligated to this space unless it brings you some comfort or joy. Hope you find answers and ease soon.
Just like in the garden, I think humans have seasons of growth and expansion and also seasons of rest and dormancy. You can’t have one without the other, and neither is fundamentally “better” (even if the first kind is usually more fun/exciting for the person living through it). So if you’re not doing much on the surface right now, maybe that just means you’re giving all the little (metaphorical) microbes and earthworms in your soil time to break things down, do some aerating, and get ready for a really kickass sprouting and blooming period later on. 💚
Solidarity. I hope you're resting as much as you need and getting lots of care. ❤️
I hope you find relief soon.
Just take care of yourself. We will be here waiting.
Those drawings are so lovely! I adore how busy and full they feel, just like your wonderful garden. Fingers crossed things improve soon for you, it sucks to be well enough to do some things, but not *everything*
{{hugs}}