Girlfriend trainer.
Let's talk about my personal experiences with haterism.
Over the years I received thousands of hate messages and emails. And I literally mean THOUSANDS!
At the begining (years ago) I would always tell to myself: "Calm down, comrade. You will never reach your destination if you stop and throw stones at every dog that barks". And would just let it slide (unless I was stupid enough to actually reply to those).
But as time went by my emotional response to the whole thing has gotten weaker and weaker... After a while not only I lost an ability to hear "the barking" but I had hard time even noticing "the dog"... My feelings in that regard has gotten sort of numb I suppose...
And I think that is just a natural order of things. You know, like when you visit a Disney-Land for the first time - it's pure magic! (Or whatever). But if you were to work at one and had to visit it every day, you would lose the ability to perceive "the Disney magic" in a matter of days. This is a crude example of course, but I hope it get's my point across.
So haters have a job to do - they hate. And receiving that hate had become a part of MY job. And as a result, it is just a routine now that doesn't trigger any emotional response in me. Not that I am complaining or anything, that is a good thing I think.
But here is what interesting: I receive plenty of supportive messages and emails as well. Not as many as the hateful ones, but still. Again, over the years I think I have gotten more then a thousand of messages and letters with all sort of positive feedback an encouragements. Some are short, other are quite lengthy. Some people just say "I love your work, keep at it!". Others describe their personal experiences and how my work had affected their lives, inspired them or made it easier to get through some hardships in their personal lifes.
And here is the interesting part. Like I said, the hate seldom gets through to me anymore and it is normal considering the sheer amount of it I have received already. But the massages with positive feedback and encouragements ALWAYS (!!!) get to me. No matter how many times I hear it, it is always an emotional experience to me! And I am very grateful that despite all the experiences I went through, seeing my work being appreciate always makes me feel like if I am still only at the begging of my path, like if I'm a little boy again and one of my friends picks up one of my drawings and says: "Hey. This drawing looks cool! Did you drew it!"
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And please don't get me wrong I'm not saying: "Go send me some thank-you notes NOW!". No way, I'm just sharing my thought on the whole matter. And those "thank you" notes should wait till the "PT:GOLD" release anyways :)
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Oh, and by the way, I get messages from the girls as well. Girls are usually way more hesitant to actually sit down and write to me that they actually appreciate my work. And when some of them do, I often reply with: "Support my work by sending me some tits that I could tweet later, please", and it usually becomes the end of it. But still, I have a feeling that the female audience for my work is rather extensive. Although playing my games in secret and openly admitting to enjoy them is two very different things.
And now to the news...
Well I've been doing my first "PT:GOLD" play-through for the past several days. Ideally that should've been an extremely enjoyable experience for me because it's always a big pleasure to see something you worked on for a long time finally coming together... In reality it was quite opposite though. If I were to use one word to describe the experience I would go with "irritating".
Tons of bugs, wrong labels, wrong variable, wrong everything! But I made it through eventually, taking notes and eradicating the bugs on the way. So yeah, first official play-through has been completed successfully. Now I will have to do the same thing again. This time around I will make sure to use different approaches, routes, choices and try to complete quests in different order to make sure the game still works that way and story consistency remains intact and such.
As I do so I will be also working on CG gallery, will be putting in the triggers that unlock the CGs and all that. But the major thing I will be working on is the music and sound effects. As you know I don't go too deep with the sound effects, but still you would be surprised how much work it takes to make sure every scene is supplied with the fitting music and occasional sounds.
Well that would be my plan for the near future. As soon as I finish playing through the game for the second time, adding proper galleries, music boxes and such, and adding the music and sounds into the game - next big step will be sending the game to DAHR and Xaljio for testing. Now THAT would be a really big step towards the release!
Oh, and one more thing that will take a lot of work (not on my part, thankfully) is the proofreading. I already started to send the files to Lyk, but there are quite a few of them, and proofreading them properly will be a time-consuming task no doubt...
Alright, that's about it for now. Thank you for your support.
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*The screenshot is from above is from some forum thread the link to which some kind soul sent to me a while back... Don't worry there were plenty of hateful messages as well, but like I said, I'm having hard time registering those :)
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Comments (85)
I've been loving you work now for a few years, but never really got involved. I love your art style, and the game play is awesome in PT and WT. I play the shit out of them. I hope to contribute in the future once I get over some personal financial issues.
Just gonna toss out there that if you need playtesters I'm willing and able!
Noted!
Is there links for your stuff i wanna know where to find it
Here: <a href="http://www.hentai-foundry.com/pictures/user/RUBAKA" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">http://www.hentai-foundry.com/pictures/user/RUBAKA</a>
Asking for tit pics right away Seems a bit d-bag-ish to me. Perhaps wait til the second message ;) you might get more. And Im happy about PT:G is now in playtesting state. I vollunteer to help! ^_^ I might find some typos or something ar least
^_^
FOR SEVERAL years I am fond of this kind of games , I can assure you that your two games are among the best at what I could play ( princess trainer and witch trainer ) . I m sorry i m french and i m bad in english. I don't have any money for support you. :( i don't have job but i hope you continue your good job. Courage et bonne chance pour la suite. I waiting your Princess Trainer GOLD EDITION with eagerness.
Your english is fine, mate. And support comes in all sorts of shapes and forms. If all you can spare at the moment is a kind word, then I am taking it humbly and gratefully. Thank you!
Akabur, you create a very interesting game. I like your art!!!
This all I needed to know. Thank you!
Akabur your games astound me, they are the only ones of their kind, I can pull up a few hundred jrpg turn based hentai games, or a dozen run or rape games, most of them with varying art styles and its really jarring to go from 1 artist to the next, but your games are immersive, its porn, but its immersive porn I can get lost in the story you are trying to tell and that kindve interactive narrative is a cut above, keep up the AMAZING work and I look forward to PT Gold.
Thank you, my friend. You are too kind ^_^
As one of these patrons which occasionally drop in to throw some money at you and then bug out again I can say - I just think your games are great. Sure there will be haters, because this and that - but sure there are lovers of your work as well and at the end, every positive and even negative response is good since you can use them all to do what you are doing at the moment ... PT:Gold and whatever will come into the light after that ... :-) ... come to think of that ... a Girlfriend Trainer would be kinda interesting ... ;-) ) ... Just keep up the good work!
Heh... Thank you, my friend. ^^ As long as you guys will continue give a damn about my work, I shall keep on working!!
Dude im not a patron sorry about that i will try to be but i have a stupid idea in my mind i want to share it with you.I was thinking of Ninja Trainer i you haved watch Naruto and that stuff it will be actually pretty damn good it's like your naruto or maybe sakura i'dont know and your in the villege hidden in the leafs and you go make missions just like princess trainer or you can be in the Hokage office (just like Witch trainer)and give orders fuck bitches make them bitches and every thing i don't know if you like it reply and have a nice day ;d
Hokage=Genie, Sakura/Hinata=Hermione
Haters going to hate and lovers will love and we all love your work.
I know. I don't doubt you, guys for a second.
keep on. just keep on.
That is a good advice actually! Thanks :)
hey.... man.... why don't you share with us some of those girl's email? (i bet you got some photos from time to time, you lucky dog)...
Share personal emails of some of my fans with other? Dude, that would be the lowest of the low things to do 0_0
Testing phase. . Cool .. I can't wait T_T Keep it up And another thing .. are you starting doing another game or something like that while in TP:GOLD in the testing phase
Start working on a new game before "PT:GOLD" is ready for release? What a marvelous idea!!!
Me and some others get confused, where can we find the most recent release for witch trainer and others games?
Right here, buddy. <a href="http://www.hentai-foundry.com/user/RUBAKA/profile" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">http://www.hentai-foundry.com/user/RUBAKA/profile</a>
If I bark, it is a bark of approval. Woof woof.
^_^
If you ever make it out to Vancouver I will buy you a beer as thank you.
I appreciate it. Although let's go for gingerale instead.
I got something positive and possibly over sharing: I still jerk off to Witch Trainer, because it's just that good. I can't do it with Princess Trainer though, I find myself too emotionally invested in that game . . . Well, maybe one or twice.
Or you just like them young. ;)
keep doing what your doing im not going to stop giving you my money because i just love your art and the games
Thanks man. T_T
Never understood the level of vitriol. You're a guy who makes fun Rule 34 porn games........ sure, the games have their issues, but geez!
People just.... People....:(
Never understood the level of vitriol. You're a guy who makes fun Rule 34 porn games........ sure, the games have their issues, but geez!
I know 0_0
I'm glad to hear that you still get warm fuzzies at the nice comments :) And that you've grown thick-skinned to criticism. Also, just for census sake, my girlfriend totally enjoys your games, particularly the Hermoine one (she's a total Harry Potter nerd). You keep working, and I'll keep supporting you, man!
Heh... Thanks man. Always nice to know that there are some cool girls out there who appreciate the work we all are doing here.
I read somewhere that the reason why people tend to focus on the bad things instead of the good, is that as we evolved as a species we retained a trait to notice the bad things because prehistoric man had to be aware of his surroundings, yes it's good and all that you are in a beautiful jungle filled with beautiful flowers and scenery, but it means shit if a hungry tiger is waiting in the bushes to kill you. So we developed a conscious being to notice the bad because it's a survival instinct we have.
Sure.... But also there is another theory: some people just assholes. Heh... :)
So much hate means only one thing - SUCCESS.
Heh... That is true... But if I can say that I have any success that is because you created it for me by taking interest in my work. Thank you for that!
"And when some of them do, I often reply with: "Support my work by sending me some tits that I could tweet later, please", and it usually becomes the end of it. "
Usually, but not always... ^^
Honestly, a hell of a lot of the hate you get doesn't even make sense. The amount of work you put into these games is obvious and amazing, and I wish you all the best in the future!
Heh... Yeah, I know. And thank you, man.
Its easier to hate then to love.
Dunno... I think it also depends on the person. Miserable people rend to be prone to spreading misery I think.
It is a pleasure to be able to be part of this my friend.
Thank you Roufas.
thanks dude big fan of your work just recently pledged but do appreciate the work you do and what you said is right ignore the haters because they will always have a reason to hate...Anyways waiting for the release eagerly...Any ideas on new games?
Thanks, man ^^
I've been a fan of your work ever since I first saw your April O'Niel and a certain ninja turtle flash which I forget how long ago that was. Keeping up to date and watching all your work along the years and patiently waiting for PT:Gold is an easy task as you will know what's best and where the bugs are and I know you will come out on top. I just hope the good praise won't get numb for you dude, love your work and keep that middle finger up for haters ^-^ stay well Akabur
It always so nice to get feedack from people who's been following me for years now. Dude, we are growing old together :) Thank you for the years of support.
You know, I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people who enjoy your work and don't send you any "love" but I'm also sure that there is almost no one who is "offended" or whatever who doesn't send you a hate message. So next time you go through your messages, remember there are probably 10 people who loved your work for every hate message you recieve. Love your work can't wait for the release!
Yeah... I agree. Thank you, Nemo.
I know what you gonna do Akabur. You will play your game with trollface saying "Nah-nah-nah-nah-nah I can play PT: Gold Edition and you not! Losers!")) Kidding of course. That thing you said: >>If I were to use one word to describe the experience I would go with "irritating". That's why I probably will never deal with developing of games with boobies. I work as a motion designer (still newbie in it) and every time after several hours of hard work with shapes, scripts, key-frames and other stuff I push "Play" button, I feel myself crazy as fuck. "Shiiiit! How I missed this bug! Fuck me!" I just cannot dare have such attitude to something containing naked females. Hell no. And this is one more reason to greatly thank you for such big sacrifice. Man you go through this hard shit every day for us, little internet jerking-off bastards. So I think all we owe you for that. Thank you very much man. Keep going and be cool. *Hope I will support you with some bucks when I stop being a beggar. Cheers!
Ha-ha. Thank you man. Although I don't look at it that way... For me you guys are the best, and therefore deserve the best.
Soooooo... are we gonna get a trainer game of your girlfriend in the future ? :^) I kid I kid, <3 btw what kind of cintiq you're using right now, 13HD ? surely you could get a bigger one than the one I saw in your past videos. Gonna get my Cintiq 22hd tomorrow :D.
Size of your wacom is irrelevant. Only size of your dick is important.
Haters gonna hater Aka you are doing a really good job and we really apreciate it, stay awesome bro!
Thanks man. With you to back me up, I couldn't care less about anything but keep on doing my thing.
I understand how you feel -being a very sensitive person, I deal with that sort of feelings a lot- and it's a shame for you to feel like this. I know hates and bad comments always get the best over everything else, but you know who you can trust and who will support you. Good luck with the debugging, good luck with everything else, please, take your time and don't trust the haters :) We love you, Browaifu. All of us. Don't let these comments get to you. Godspeed o/
Thanks, Red!
Sucks that you be hating on, but you have over 9000 reasons a month to read each letter and laugh hilariously. Glad the game has finally reached the testing phase, It's only a matter of time now.
Yes! Soon! SOOOON!
Well thank you anyway, thank you for all the work tou do ! there 's always plenty of Butthurt people that enjoy being mean while staying behind their screens.. I believe they are kind of sick..
Thanks, man.
Fuck bitches, get riches, you do what makes you happy, we love supporting you and I'm glad you can see the positive in all of it, keep being awesome!
Thanks, buddy :)
I would give you 100$ a month, if I could afford it, because your art work is amazing and unique. I'm a Patron of Smersh with BHB because its a good game and your art. Most haters are, and I know it sounds childish, jealous that your making money for your awesome art and they don't have the talent to do so. Keep up the good work and can't wait for PT:Gold.
You are right. And I don't need $100 from you. Let's not get carried away before I get crushed under some sort of guilt complex or whatever. God, that fucking PT:GOLD thing better be best thing ever! OTL...
Well, you still will get a Thank you from me even before the game is out :D But it's nice to see that even a small sentence like Keep up the good work, give you the motivation to go on, so ... Keep up the good work and continue to make us dream with stories in the desert or conspiration in magic schools :D
Dorago, your support means more to me then you'll ever know.
So basically, you giggle like an excited schoolgirl every time you see positive feedback ^^
Something like that. Well, more like laughing like a crazy pirate.
Man I never listen to haters on the net they don't like it they don't have to play it whining about it won't help also if you are sick of playing the game I'm sure plenty of us would put up our hands to help you beta test it you have a lot of supporters here we can help if you wish it of us
True, true... As for beta test, it's still too early...
Nice to hear that PT:G slowly gets to its release. Haters are annoying but most of them are just jealous or what not. Your fans will always stay your behind you. I don't remember how I found your work but I was like "Damn that's good stuff!" After that I found your name and patreon site. I could say "thank you" many times but those bucks help you more I guess ;) just stay the way you are, do what you love and ignore the haters, focus on the fans. Lucky you with all that tittie pics you may have gotten :D So just leaves me to say, thanks for all the work, tears, sweat (and god knows what other liquids) you put in your work! I'm totally hyped to see PT:G in its full Glory!
Dude, I only ask the "tittie pics" so that I could hare them with you on twitter and let you know that we have some cool girls out there loving my work as much as you do :)
Glad you are philosophical about it,because envy is a really bad thing, and if you mix it with the cloak of anoniminity that Internet have you get a hurtful hate cocktail. Because they envy you for living the life you want, or earning money from art which must be free or another list of stupid reasons. I would like to say that someday you will get more support than hate, but humans are not that nice. Glad you are in the last spurt, even if it means a few more months of spellcheck and bughunt. Keep the great job and the cool attitude.
ACE! Thank you for all your supports over the years, man. Time sure flies, doesn't it? 0_0 And you're right: humans are not nice...