Lost my Cat :(

Some of you may already know from instagram, but my cat has gone missing and I am truly paralysed with dread and I don't have a lot of hope. I remember passionately hoping and praying for weeks when my cat Rain went missing a couple years ago... only to be found three towns over, three weeks later after he had been hit by a car. We saw him in the vet and we stroked him and he meowed, we were told he would live, but then woke up to a call at 6am the next morning when we were getting ready to collect him saying he had died form dehydration. So excuse me for not having an ounce of hope and immediately preparing for him to be gone forever.... but with all that being said... maybe some of you are more lucky, so please pray for Cloud, pray in whatever way you like!! To god, the universe,, spirits, i need all of it on my side right now cuz my thoughts are getting dark.

I went to bed Thursday night smiling with how happy i felt, then Friday my cat goes missing, why does my life always feel like a sick joke.

Tomorrow i will try get back to work cuz i don't want to miss out on it at all, i can;t afford to, i will do my best to let it be a great distraction and to not let my worry for my cat to get in the way, i appreciate you all so much, and hopefully making the vids will help me feel a bit better xx