Ooooh Spooky!

Hi guys! Your perpetual reminder that ghosts is real and this universe is more than what meets the eyes. This week's story is all about being mindful of the signs our loved ones send us and appreciating our strongest connections...

"To understand the connection between my bestfriend and I, you should know the relationship we had when she was alive. We grew up just a few streets away from one another. Both of us having strange and dysfunctional families, we became family for one another. We were sisters that chose each other. Starting from the age of 8 until the day she died. On the outside, we were complete opposites. She was blonde, I'm a brunette. She was outgoing, hilarious, and completely wild (truly such a fun person to be around), and I was shy, timid, and perhaps more grounded. We brought out the best in each other. We knew each other like the back of our hands. We were those friends that people would always confuse. Everyone called me by her name and called her by mine. We both knew the issues we had at home, but when we were together, none of it mattered. Being together was a freedom where none of those issues existed. We could just be ourselves without care or judgment, and there was always so much laughter together. It feels like she was one of my soulmates of this lifetime. And I think she would say the same thing.

In 2015, when she was 22 years old, she died out of nowhere. A few hours before I found that out, I had the absolute worst feeling in my stomach when thinking about her. I felt like I was going to vomit. I texted her to check in on her, but she never responded.

Trying to cope with her loss, I went to a spot near the George Washington Bridge where we would always hang out. I was sobbing uncontrollably, grieving, when all of a sudden there was a butterfly around me. This butterfly stayed with me the entire time, fluttering around me. I have goosebumps now just thinking about it. When I was leaving and walking to my car, the license plate next to mine had her FULL initials (middle name included) and her birthday numbers- Month and Day. This girl was obsessed with her initials and birthday, she would write them everywhere. I smiled ear to ear knowing this was her sign of telling me she's with me, and this is how I would continue to get signs from her.

Within the year that she died, my entire life's perspective changed. My best friend, who was home to me, was gone. It made me realize how short life truly was and how out of nowhere, it can all be over. I started reanalyzing my life. And within that, I realized how problematic my boyfriend of almost five years was at that time. Although my best friend was friends with him, she always hated that I was with him. She knew how much he made me cry and felt like I couldn't be myself with him. While dating him, I randomly met another guy who made me feel in a way I had never before; in my gut it felt so right. I would go hang out with him and on my way to see him I would instantly feel like I was doing something wrong. Within seconds of that feeling, I would see her birthday numbers. This happened MULTIPLE times. I knew it was her telling me to KEEP GOING, just as she would If I called her telling her the situation. I broke up with my then-boyfriend and started dating the new guy. We have been together for almost 5 years, and he makes me laugh and feel free, just like my best friend did.

I have had so many dreams with her. I can usually tell the difference between her coming into my dream, and a dream where my mind is creating her. The dreams where she comes to me are usually very vivid. My first dream with her was a few months after she died. I knew she was dead and I saw her very clearly. I asked her if she is still around me even though she’s not physically here. She said, “I am always with you, no matter where you go.” Then I woke up.

That same year after she died, I had a pet rat. I would let the rat roam my bedroom freely (She was super cute and not like NYC rats, I promise!) And many times she would go under my bed. One time I went underneath my bed to pick her up and found a gold coin with an angel on both sides of it. I have never seen this coin before in my life. I googled “Gold Angel Coin” and found that many people who have lost someone they love randomly have found this coin before. (Photo attached.)

It's been almost six years since she died and I still receive signs from her. Whether it's seeing her birthday numbers the moment I am thinking about her or seeing her in my dreams. I truly believe that a soul connection so strong can not just go away through the physical death of our bodies. Losing her has been one of the most difficult challenges of my life, but it has also opened me up to all of the magic constantly around us. I wish for everyone to have such a deep and loving friendship as I have been able to experience and to realize that there is so much more to this world than what meets the eyes."