第31期與32期獎勵發放與33期的收費!!^W^

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各位粉絲，終於完成了我的TERM31期~與32期!!!(目前因為太久沒使用PATROEN平台與他們平台大改版，我現在正在找過去有收費的粉絲的名單，找不太到所以，這兩天，我找到你們這些當初有付費的寶貝粉絲名單後就會送出獎勵)

似乎後面PATRRON強制開啟了每個月強制收費的機制，

一開始...我感到很擔心，要是我給粉絲的心意圖，還不夠多做成一期獎勵怎麼辦!?

後來. 經過一個很長的時間...我漸漸地釋懷了，我將會把$1 與$3的選項開多一點，如果內容太少，大家可以適當降級，只希望大家繼續關注著我就好^A^

每個月穩定的收入對我的幫助也是很大很大，也是從十年前舊夢寐以前的夢想。

其實，今年滿我PATREON的十周年，我不敢想像在這裡支持我快十年的人，對我的恩情有多大，跪謝!

我的每一期，其實都超過一個月的製作，有些時候甚至2.3.4個月，因為我想要我的心意，滿滿的灌注在每一期中，也盡量把圖片修到滿意，但其實是怕各位嫌棄我一個月真正能拿出手的作品，

因為我試圖留住每個珍貴的粉絲，但這也…注定了我身為畫師的時間與精神很大一部分會分散在缺錢的恐懼中與作品的不及格中，因為2.3個月才收一次費，平均收入真的有些低。

我不知道是…我拚盡全力掩飾自己的不足所以留下了我現在的粉絲，還是這樣做時間的消耗與精神的消耗導致低產量與粉絲流失，我不敢拿自己的粉絲做嘗試，我不敢想像粉絲嫌棄我或是覺得我在斂財的感覺。有種世界上我最愛的概念，被他們嫌棄的感覺。

後面我因為實在無法負擔的起一期獎勵的內容所需花的時間與AI崛起時我的徬徨，我把存下來的錢慢慢花光只求想到一個道路，期間~我接了很多寶貝粉絲的委託，因為..實在還是需要錢，

但對於寶貝粉絲的委託，我又更上心了，我的修改更多，花的時間更久>A<

所以這次的強制，也是徹底讓我放下一期獎勵，一定要花兩三個月的心力，去努力完成才對得起粉絲的念想，

我知道我所剩不多的寶貝贊助者會離開一些，但我似乎一定要做這個決定，希望你們能繼續偷看我。我也真的很想繼續創作下去，感謝在這裡看到這裡的每個寶貝粉絲。

未來我每一天都會創作，盡量在一個月裡面完成夠多的作品，並且快點完成粉絲預先收費的委託......感謝委託者大大先支付款項讓我壓力小一點， 數不完的感謝!!

雖然未來我有打算嘗試很多技術或是動畫之類的，但眼前的生存壓力，還是要先解除，努力完成委託與獎勵，等解除生存危機後，我才能有能力去嘗試其他更多更美好的創作!!

卸下濃厚的妝，大家也許會驚嘆底下的面容與你們想像的不一樣，我可能會失去像你們這樣可愛的粉絲，但容許我自私一次，為了我能繼續創作下去，這層掩蓋我也必須誠實面對，也許我有冒牌者症候群，也許我卸下妝後，大家不會感到太失望呢，未來的創作，我也必須誠實面對自己了，對我的粉絲致上最高的謝意。

另外TERM33期會在11月中發出，要跟各位提前收一次費用>A< 帳戶裡歸零了..跪謝各位。
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Hey everyone! I’ve finally completed Term 31 and Term 32!!! (Because I haven’t used the Patreon platform in a long time and they have gone through a major layout redesign, I am currently trying to locate the list of patrons who were billed in the past. It’s been a bit tricky to find, so please bear with me. Once I track down the list of you lovely patrons who paid back then over the next day or two, I will send out the rewards right away!)

Recently, Patreon seems to have enforced the monthly automated billing mechanism.
At first... I was so worried. I kept asking myself: "What if the reward illustrations I made with all my heart aren't enough to fill a whole term's rewards?!"

But after a long time... I’ve gradually come to peace with it. I will be opening up more spots for the $1 and $3 tiers. If a certain month's content feels a bit light, please feel free to downgrade your tier accordingly. My only wish is that you all continue to follow my journey. ^A^

Having a stable monthly income is a huge, huge help to me. In fact, it has been my dream since ten years ago.
Actually, this year marks my 10th anniversary on Patreon. I honestly cannot find the words to describe how deeply grateful I am to those who have supported me here for nearly a decade. I am profoundly, deeply thankful to you all!

Each of my terms actually takes more than a month to create—sometimes even 2, 3, or 4 months. This is because I want to pour all my love and dedication into every single term, and I try my best to polish each image until I'm satisfied. But the truth is, I’ve always been terrified that you all would dislike the pieces I could realistically produce within just one month.

Because I tried so hard to retain every single precious follower, I was... destined to spend a massive portion of my time and mental energy as an artist trapped between the fear of running out of money and the feeling that my work was never good enough. Since I was only billing every 2 to 3 months, my average income became incredibly low.

I never knew whether I retained my current followers because I fought so hard to mask my flaws, or if this massive drain on my time and energy was actually causing low productivity and losing me followers instead. I never dared to experiment with my audience. I couldn't bear the thought of my followers disliking my work or feeling like I was just trying to cash in. It would feel like the thing I love most in this world was being rejected by the people I care about.

Later on, because I truly couldn't keep up with the time required for each term's rewards, combined with my anxiety over the rise of AI, I slowly burned through all my savings just trying to find a path forward. During that time~ I took on many commissions from my lovely followers because... honestly, I desperately needed the money.
But when it came to commissions for you guys, I became even more overcritical. I did even more revisions and took even longer. >A<

So, this automated billing shift is actually a turning point that completely forces me to let go of the mindset that I must spend two or three months of grueling effort on a single term just to live up to your expectations.
I know that some of my remaining, beloved patrons might leave because of this, but it feels like a decision I absolutely have to make if I want to keep creating. I truly hope you’ll still stick around to catch glimpses of my work. I genuinely want to keep creating, and I want to thank every single lovely follower who read this far.

Moving forward, I will create every single day and do my best to complete enough artwork within each month. I will also work hard to finish the pre-paid commissions as quickly as possible... A huge thank you to my clients who paid upfront—it took a massive weight off my shoulders. Endless thanks to you!!

Although I plan to experiment with a lot of new techniques or animation in the future, I must resolve my immediate financial survival pressure first. I will focus entirely on completing your commissions and rewards. Once this survival crisis is resolved, I will finally have the capacity to explore even more beautiful forms of creation!

Taking off this heavy makeup, some of you might be surprised to see that the face underneath isn't what you imagined. I might lose lovely followers like you, but please allow me to be selfish just this once. In order for me to keep creating, I have to face this mask honestly. Maybe I have Imposter Syndrome, or maybe, just maybe, you won't be too disappointed once the makeup is off. For my future creations, I must be honest with myself. To all my followers, you have my deepest, highest gratitude.
Additionally, Term 33 will be released in mid-November, so I will need to process an automated advance billing with you all. >A< My account is currently sitting at zero... Thank you all so much from the bottom of my heart.