2024 :/

Hi everyone. Again, long time no see. At this point it's starting to become a tale as old as time with me, isn't it?  Well, without beating around the bush, this year has started horribly for me. I was hoping to start this year by creating more but my creativity and mental health are in the gutter. January is always a weird month for everyone. It's the beginning of the year, we're getting used to the new number, it's also my birthday month so it's always glum for me.

Then came February. Our pug, Betty got really sick and after a few weeks of fighting, she passed away. Even though she was 24 and we were preparing for her to go for a few years now, we were still devastated. She was a part of our family and we loved her beyond words. She was the most lively out of all 3 of our dogs. She loved running around outside while the other two were always lazy potatoes. Even at this age she was a force to be reckoned with. She passed in my arms. She fought hard and long to stay with us for as long as she did.

Then before we had a chance to fully grieve, last week we've lost another of our doggos, Neska, to heart failure. It was so sudden. She was only 10. She was treated like the puppy of the bunch. And she acted like one. She was a lazy Frenchie who loved to chew on everything she shouldn't. She loved giving kisses and she loved treats. She was thoroughly loved. We will miss her so much. She passed on the way to the vet while I was petting her. She was my mom's dog but my mom left the country for 3 weeks and wasn't here when it happened, which she can't forgive herself for.

My whole household is in deep grief. We had 3 dogs just a month ago and now we have 1. They were our whole world.

But besides telling you about this, I also really wanted to thank you guys for being here. For staying pledged. You have no idea how much that helps me and how much that means to me. I haven't expected so many of you to stay loyal and wait for me this long. Every time I glance over here, there's new notifications from you guys. You're amazing. Thank you.

Once again, I can't promise anything. I can only say that I'll try. I want to try. To create to take my mind off of things but we'll see how that turns out. (Plus I can't log into my tumblr account at the moment because I've changed phones and deleted the authentication app on the old one and now I can't get it back so the 2-factor authentication is lost. I will have to contact support, which means human contact and that creates anxiety, so no thank you for now.)

For now I'm leaving you guys with a picture of my doggos. They deserve love.