Mostly good news, mostly!

Alright ya'll. Got my pathology results back and I've got a precancerous melanoma (they had some special word for it, but that's what it is). Good news is I'm scheduled to have it surgically excised on August 5th, 5 August, however you do dates where you live. They said they can get it all. Full cure. It'll be gone and I'll just have to have regular skin checks for the rest of my life due to having that because it puts me in an at risk category for future ones.. So that's actually great!

Somewhat bad news. The Dermatologist told me she didn't even think it was cancer or pre cancer when I had the biopsy done in the first place. So until they come back to me after the procedure and tell me there are clean margins and it's all gone. I'm gonna be fucking skeptical. But, overall this is good news and I should be able to stop being nervous and move on with my live and full game development after the procedure is done. With just a small scar to show for it.

Until then I'm still nervous about it. I'm still working on the game slowly. I actually went back and redid some of the earlier parts of this update I didn't like. Because I did them when my mind was a mess. I'll give you guys an update on game progress after the surgery. Again like I said before I'm gonna give myself some grace with this. I usually put out 3 to 4 updates a year (it was even more than that the first few years when updates were smaller, but they've gotten so much bigger as you know due to the cast of characters we have and not wanting to neglect them). But, I believe I've earned the right to take care of my heath right now. I've banked the good will and I've been straight with you guys about the state of things.

Overall I'm happy and lucky. But as I said, until they tell me it's fucking gone. I'm not going to believe it's gone. Thank you all for sticking with me and continuing to support me and the game during this time. I can't wait to come on here and tell you all I'm cured and it's full steam ahead. I imagine Lydia would say "It's gonna be alright, stop being a fucking pussy, but I love you." Sam would be sending me nudes with the caption "I'll fucking blow you every day until you're all better" and Audrey would probably be telling me "the statistically probability's are vastly in my favor!" Mary would be sweet and comforting, and Barb would probably pull some kinda prank to make me feel better. The other girls would have things to say based upon there own unique personalities too. Which honestly just writing that made me smile.

All signs are pointing to everything turning out alright. Again, thank you for your continued support of me and the game, and especially to those who've reached out to me in the comments or on Discord and shared experiences or encouragement. I've not forgotten your words. They have been a comfort throughout this process. Cancer's just a fucking word until you get it. I realize I got a mild form of it that was caught early and in all likelihood (99.9%), it will be dealt with and I'll move on with my life. But it sure as hell makes you put things into perspective when you end up getting it in any form.

So there it is! As always, hope you are all doing well. And I hate that this happened because I hate the fact game development has had to be slowed down as a result. But I promise once they clear me. I'll bust my ass for every single one of you! Cheers!

P.S. I'll let you guys know when I've got the all clear! Maybe I'll do a special render for it or some shit!