[life update] Heartbreak and to anybody experiencing it.

Hi everyone,

I usually don't make posts like this so this feels weird! SURPRISE HAHAHA! I've been really unproductive this past week for... reasons you see in the title 😅

Recently, I was in a relationship for the first time in 8 years! It was magical having mutual feelings for someone again and it was a beautiful dream that I never wanted to wake up from. Unfortunately, after 3 short-lived months, it ended on the day after Valentine's Day. It was a mutual, tragic ending.

I'm writing this article because I need to SLAP myself back to sanity and get back to my usual rhythm. After a week of crying into my towel I'm SICK of it - I can't just sit here and grieve eternally! I told myself that I would write lots of manga this year and I can't ruin my career over losing this person.

I heard the other day on my Discord that some of you guys are also going through heartbreak and I just wanted to say that you are not alone. You've probably heard this a million times but the days WILL get better. Make sure to take care of yourself even if it may seem impossible (drink water, eat, sleep, interact with people, do SOMETHING). Life goes on whether we like it or not, and if you don't take care of your health, career, and the people around you right now, you WILL regret it later. The negative emotions will feel overwhelming but there is unfortunately no way out of them - just through. The pain is temporary and once the storm has passed, life will be colorful again. It will be filled with meaning and things to look forward to. And one day, we'll find a love that will be everything we've ever wished for. In the meantime, take steps to be alive and well so that you can love yourself and be the best version of yourself for the next person.

I'm going to throw all of my current feelings towards my upcoming manga. These fictional yuri oneshots I'm working on are going to be a collection of "failed love stories" and will be based on all of the sad feelings I've come across with while trying to find love in this world. Hopefully this will be a healthy way of processing my feelings while being productive. When I was writing "The Girl That Can't Get a Girlfriend", I realized that I can be like HOHOHO CONTENT every single time I experience heartbreak. But to be honest, I'd rather not write about sad love stories... I'd rather have a stable, happy, long-lasting relationship than have a bunch of manga inspired by sad stuff that happened in my life. But what else can I do besides make lemonade out of lemons? In the meantime, I will live life to the best of my ability, have hope, and be thankful for the things I do have. Then maybe one day, I will be able to write a happy manga.

I was gonna edit a video this past week buuuuuuut that will be delayed to April likely because I am in California these next 3 weeks to visit my dad! I have my pen tablet with me so I will be working on the manga tutorial and yuri oneshots in the meantime. More coming soon, I promise!! 

For anyone going through a hard time - we got this. We will get through this. Everything will be okay, even if everything seems meaningless and hopeless right now. There are better days ahead of this dark tunnel.

Also I don't think I say this enough but I just wanted to say, thanks for all of your support, I really appreciate it. 

Talk to you later!

Mieri