My YouTube account has been terminated.
I’d like to write down my thoughts, just to calm my heart.
Through YouTube, I learned so many things.
At the beginning, I had very low self-esteem. I lacked confidence, and honestly, I hated how clumsy I was.
I didn’t feel like I had any talents.
But there was one thing I truly loved: listening to ASMR.
One day, I felt like trying to record some sounds myself. So I posted something on YouTube, almost on a whim…
And when I saw people resonate with that world of sound, I was deeply moved — I still remember that feeling vividly.
At first, I didn’t speak at all.
But then someone requested I whisper, and that gave me the courage to try saying just “Hello” in a whisper… haha.
After that, people said things like “I love your voice!” and “Please talk more!”
Even though I only whispered “Hello” for a long time, everyone kept encouraging me patiently and helped me gain confidence.
I used to get so nervous that I’d shake while recording.
I never smiled in my videos, and viewers would kindly tease me about it — haha.
I was so focused on capturing the sounds that I had no room left to smile. haha
If you’ve only recently discovered me, you might be shocked if you saw the old me — I was nothing like how I am now.
Even the fact that I started showing my lips was because of my viewers.
It wasn’t just my ASMR — everyone helped shape who “Cham” is today.
That’s how the current “ASMR Cham” style came to be.
And that’s why losing my YouTube channel this time…
feels like everything I built has started to crumble. My heart just can’t keep up.
Being able to smile and speak so openly in front of the camera now —
that’s all thanks to everyone who gave me confidence and helped me grow.
Before I knew it, over 600,000 people were listening to my work.
But…
I lost the channel we built together.
Even though I knew the chances were low, I found myself dreaming that maybe — just maybe — we could reach one million together.
I really wanted that Gold Play Button, for everyone who supported me.
But I never imagined that seven years of effort on YouTube would end so suddenly like this.
My precious space… is gone.
And yet, as I write this, little by little, I feel myself calming down.
There’s still so much more I want to say,
but for today, I’ll end it here.
Thank you for staying with me through this emotional journey.
【YouTubeアカウントが削除されました。】
心を落ち着かせるために、想いを綴らせてください。
YouTubeを通して、私は多くのことを学びました。
当初はとっても自己肯定感が低くて、自信がなくて、不器用すぎる自分が嫌いでした。
得意なことも何もなくて。
でも、唯一好きだったのが、ASMRを聴くことでした。なんとなく自分でも音を録音してみたくなって、なんとなくYouTubeに投稿してみたら…
その音の世界に共感してくれる人がいて、とても感動したのを今でも覚えています。
最初は、喋ることはしていませんでした。
でも、「囁きのリクエスト」をいただいたのがきっかけで、恐る恐る「こんにちは」だけ囁くようになって…笑
それでも「声好き!」「もっと喋って!」とたくさん褒めてもらって、
しばらくは「こんにちは」だけだった私に、みんなが根気強く自信をつけさせてくれました。
緊張しやすくて、震えながら動画を撮っていた頃。
笑顔が一切ない私に、視聴者さんが優しくツッコミを入れてくれていましたね 笑
音を録ることに真剣になりすぎて、笑う余裕がなかったんです 笑
最近知ってくれた人が過去の私を見ると、今と違いすぎてびっくりするかもしれません。
唇を見せるようになったのも、視聴者さんがきっかけでした。
ASMRだけじゃなく、みんながChamという存在を育ててくれたんです。
そして、今のASMR Chamのスタイルができあがりました。
だからこそ、今回のYouTube削除は、築き上げてきたものが崩れていくようで、心が追いついていません...
今のように、カメラの前で笑顔でたくさん喋れるようになったのは、みんなが自信をくれて、育ててくれたから。
気づけば、60万人以上の人が聴いてくれるようになっていました。
でも...
そんなみんなで築き上げたチャンネルを、私は失いました。
可能性は低いとは分かっていても、みんなとなら100万人いけるのではないかと夢見てしまいました。応援してくれている人のためにも、どうしても金の盾が欲しかったんです。
でも、こんな形で
7年間のYouTubeでの挑戦が突然終わりを迎えるとは思ってもいませんでした。
私の大切な場所が...なくなってしまいました。
でも、こうして書いていたら、少しずつ少しずつ気持ちが落ち着いてきました。
まだまだ書きたいことはあるけれど、今日は一旦ここで終わりにします。
私の心の整理に、ここまで付き合ってくださりありがとうございます。
Cham
Comments (42)
That's so shocking and unbelieveable.....I've got used to sleeping with Cham's latest video since my senior school.....That must be banned by mistake and I sincerely hope Cham's YouTube channel could be back......
You are by far my favorite asmr creator, it is extremely disappointing that YouTube would do such a thing. I hope you feel better soon and this gets resolved.
昨日寝る前に、Chamちゃんのチャンネルが見つからなくてびっくりしちゃったの…!QAQ 何もなければいいなって思ってるよ〜 わたしは台湾からのちっちゃなリスナーです♪ Chamちゃん、がんばってねっ!!焦らなくて大丈夫だよ〜✨
Didn't find your videos in my history anymore. Went to reddit cause there's a thread for everything. Found out what happened, created a patreon account. Now I'm here. Hope you're doing well regardless of that loss
Noticed my YouTube recommended didn't have ASMR on it anymore, so I went to Twitter to find out what happened. Can't believe YouTube terminated Cham when there's way more obscene creators out there. Where are we supposed to get our TK TK TK supply from now?
This is terrible news 💔 I'm a new fan and only been watching for a couple of months but you and your channel are my favorite!! I don't understand why YouTube would do this, but I will continue supporting you here or whichever platform you decide to post content on. Your work is amazing and I'm sure you'll thrive wherever you go, so please keep your chin up Cham! We love you!!❤️❤️❤️
This is absolutely heartbreaking! :( You very quickly became my favorite ASMR creator when I found your channel years ago, and one of very few channels I turned on notifications for. The effort and care you put into not just your videos, but also posts like these (multiple languages!), has always come through and shown just how much you love creating and the community you've built here. It's so sad that YouTube just removed it all like that. I might not comment much, but I'll continue to support you on whatever platform(s) you create on! ❤️
I have been watching Cham since around 2019 if I recall well ,her ASMR relaxed me countless time ..I have watched most of her videos throughout the years and if I’m 100% she is the sweetest and most innocent people on the ASMR side of YouTube ..Shaming other YouTubers isn’t my goal but it makes me ANGRY when I see Chamcham channels being deleted while lewd YouTubers continue to thrive ..Anyway I support with all my heart Cham-san ,I think it’s fair that she don’t want to start a new channel but I must say the hard truth ,the future of this channel can’t be on Patreon .Like someone said earlier here ,I think YouTube is overwhelmed and strike anybody for anything ..I urge Cham to take actions to recover her channel as quickly as possible because THE WAR ISNT DONE YET..The sole fact we might loose those last 6/7 years of precious Cham content makes me angry and sad ..and the fact I might miss the future content because Patreon isn’t an app I go often arrange nothing . Cham we are proud of you ,don’t abandon YouTube so quickly yiu might miss a key element to recover the channel Lots of love (marry me please) -Zerox from France
https://www.reddit.com/r/asmr/s/23RWAsAxp1 Please read this. I just saw this and I hope it helps
大変心が痛みます.メンバーシップに加入し,ほぼ毎日睡眠のお供に聞いていたのでチャンネルがBanされたとお聞きしてとても辛く悲しい気持ちになりました. チャンネルメンバーシップが停止されたので,今まで加入意欲はあったものの加入していなかったPatreonのメンバーシップに加入しました. 限定動画や投稿などを見て落ち着こうと思います. Chamさんも心が落ち着くまで美味しいもの食べてたくさん休んでください. またChamさんのASMRが聴けることを心待ちにしております.
That's super disappointing... I dont get why they would do that. They just really seem to dislike asmr -.-
As one of your first subscribers, I'm extremely upset over this news. I hope it can be resolved somehow. I will continue to support you ❤️❤️
Many creators are moving to other video websites. I hope you would consider re-uploading on one of those?
I’m so sad to hear that. You have all our love and support. I hope it’s just an error of youtube. know that if we have to start over, we will be there, again, to support you. Gros bisous de France <3
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I'm so sorry to hear that this happened, Cham! I only recently discovered your content but it has been some of the best ASMR on the platform, so I hope you'll petition YouTube to reverse this decision and restore your channel. Regardless, we'll all support you going forward. <3
Hi Cham. Since I discovered your videos, I've felt accompanied and less alone. I remember the first videos where we only saw your hands, and when you showed part of your face and started using your voice, I immediately fell in love with the channel. Your tenderness in making the videos, your smile, it's clear that you didn't make the videos for views or to get more followers, but that you do it because you like it. And even though everything looks like this now, you have the support of your community, who will wait for you. I will wait for you. For my cham cham desu. Take this time to relax and calm your heart, and when you feel comfortable, you know we'll be here for you. Un abrazo enorme desde el otro lado del mundo!
Hi, Cham. I've been a subscriber to your channel for over 5 years since early covid. You've always been my favorite YouTuber and asmrtist. Whenever I see a notification of your video I always become so happy and your videos have helped me alot throughout this time. I never imagined something like this would happen. However, when I saw your story, I was so shocked, upset, and angry at YouTube. I'm still heartbroken and continue to pray that your channel will be restored. I can't imagine how painful this must be for you. That's why we'll always be there for you and support you no matter what. Please appeal to youtube, I am sure it will be restored as you did nothing wrong and please dont give up.
この知らせを見て、本当に心が痛みました... 私は台湾から、とても早い時期からずっとChamさんの動画を見続けているファンです。 恥ずかしがりやの「こんにちは」から始まって、今の自信に満ちた姿まで、Chamさんの成長を見守ってきました。 言葉は違っても、Chamさんの声と温かさは国境を越えて、私の多くの夜に寄り添ってくれました。この繋がりはYouTubeには奪えません。 7年間の努力がこんな形で無理やり消されてしまって、どんなに辛いかと思います。でも、Chamさんが築き上げた成長と、私たちとの絆は、誰にも奪うことはできません。 海外のファンとして、Chamさんの影響力は想像以上に広く、深いということをお伝えしたいです。 どのプラットフォームで新しく始められても、台湾のファンはずっとChamさんを応援し続けます。 ゆっくりでいいので、お体を大切にしてください ♡
I'm so sorry, Cham!! I know you always dedicated yourself to your videos, and that was very obvious when you made cosplay videos, and other videos that I believe took a long time to make, that's really sad, I always wanted to comment on your videos but I didn't comment because there were already too many comments hehe but anyway, I hope you recover from this difficult time!! Good luck, and don't forget there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel!🤗❤️
Everyone is with you, if there is anything we could do let us know❤️
We are so sorry Cham, surely the reason for the termination is a mistake right? I hope YouTube will appeal your termination and if you do continue to make ASMR Content, we will all be here to support it.
Lots of encouragement. Sometimes life deals us blows, and those same blows make us better as people. It's okay to feel sad and depressed; it's the right thing to do in such a situation. What is not right is to watch it all end without doing something about it. Look for the reason and do what you can to get back what is yours. Also, always look on the bright side of things. You have a community that supports you and will continue to support you. 🙌💖💖💖
Why do bad things happen to good people... This is so unfair and totally unacceptable!! Your video's have helped me and countless other people. Youtube's decision to terminate your wonderful channel breaks my heart... 😞 If there was any way to boycot them at all, I would totally do it! You deserve nothing but love and kindness for all the content you made for us and I will definitely support you on here!! 🩷
It’s so unfair that this happened to you of all people!! We all hurt with you. You didn’t deserve this at all and I hope they reinstate your wonderful channel. You have blessed countless lives with your peaceful and wonderful videos. You built such an amazing community that appreciates you greatly. Please keep your head up Cham, I believe everything will be okay❤️
Please write to YouTube. I’m sure it was a mistake and it can be restored!
I'm so sorry for you! It's so cruel to have so much of your history erased like that! I love your ASMR videos, and I will be ready to listen when you decide to make your next one.
おつらい中、気持ちをお話ししてくださり本当にありがとうございます🥲 ずっと前からYouTubeのメンシプに入り、コメントこそしてませんでしたが密かに応援していました💐 今回の件で私の生活からChamさんがいなくなっちゃう…と思ったのですがPatreonの存在を思い出し登録させてもらいました。 ASMRが最高なのはもちろん、どんどん自分に自信をつけて綺麗になっていくChamさんがとても素敵だなとずっと見守っていました☺️🩷 私たちChamilyはどんなかたちでもChamさんを応援します! 今は少しゆっくりしましょ🍀またChamさんの笑顔が見られるのを楽しみにしてます🫶
悲しいです!復旧を願っています!Chamは素晴らしいクリエイターです。ChamのASMRが大好きです。Chamの作品は金盾よりも輝いています!これからもPatreonでChamを応援します。 ChamCham✌️❤️✌️
If there’s anything we can do to help petition them please tell us! ❤️
💔💔💔 This is heartbreaking. I am so sorry. Thank you for everything, Cham. 💜💜💜
I cannot understand Youtube's decision in any way. Your videos were wonderfully peaceful ASMR and that is why I've continued to support you here. Whatever you do from here I just hope you feel that your supporters are very grateful for you time and effort. While your videos may not exist on Youtube, your time and energy has been transferred into the tingles and relaxation of those who watched and listened to your videos and our lives are better thanks to your efforts. The effort you have put in lives on in your fans. Whatever you choose to do you will have people that are thankful for what you have done for us.
it's so unfair :( i'm sad that youtube can just decide to delete all your work like that. i feel so welcomed and happy watching your videos, and i'll continue supporting you here 🩵 thank you cham 🩵
Stay strong cham! Thank you for all the videos you put effort into! If you do continue to upload here Im sure a lot of us would support you through here gladly!✌️✌️
Chamちゃん 今の思いを書いてくれてありがとう。 ちゃむちゃんには2年前に出会ってから、ずっと私の心の支えです。去年本格的にChamilyに仲間入りして、さらにChamちゃんのことが大好きになりました。Chamちゃんの今があるように、今の自分がいるのはChamちゃんのおかげです。 本当にありがとう☺️ 突然の出来事で、大切にしてきたYouTubeが無くなってしまったのは本当に悲しいけど、どんな形であれ、Chamちゃんのことをこれからも応援することは変わりません。 作品はもちろんのこと、私たちのために素晴らしい作品を作ってくれるChamちゃんの存在自体が僕は大好きで、尊敬しています。みんなもそうだと思います。 Chamちゃんの笑顔と、新しいASMR動画が一刻も早く見れることを願っています。そしてYouTubeが復活することも、諦めない!!
Chamさんの声には、いつも大きな癒しをもらっていました。 今回のことで胸が痛みますが、Chamさんが歩んできた時間は決して消えないと信じています。 これからも変わらず応援しています。韓国ファン탁구공(ピンポン球)より
Long time, no see Cham! I was with you since the early days. (Under 1000 Subs, I believe.) My patreon has been active on and off, but I still cheered for you! In fact, I still do! I remember the shy times you mentioned. The few of us English speakers encouraged your English introduction. It was always cute and very Cham. I always loved your videos from the microphone touching all the way to the current mouth-sounds. My favorite thing I learned about you is that you made your own jewelry and always wore them. It felt like an Easter Egg whenever I noticed. I love how close you are with your family. Your sister collab was fun. Learning about your grandma was fun. The streams were fun when I was able to watch them! Lol I hope you are able to appeal this youtube ban. But if not I do look forward to the future, whatever you decide to do. You always do your best and thats always been inspiring.
You say such beautiful, captivating words, and it hurts my heart and soul to see you go. It was such a shock to see all your videos disappear, all the amazing works you shared with us... all gone in an instant. I always loved hearing your voice, seeing you smile, it's an experience that could not be described in words alone. I hope that one day you will come back to us in some way, Cham. You're my most favorite ASMRist on the entire YouTube platform and I could never forget all the content you did for us. I love you so much, Cham, and I want you to know that your art has given me restful and secure nights. It pains me to see you go, but I will never stop supporting you. Thank you for everything, Cham 💕🩷💖💓❤️💝🌸
What happened? I don’t think your channel has any illegal content, we all love your asmr and we’ll support you
When you're ready, please give more details why your channel closed. Maybe we can brainstorm ideas on how to help you. We support you.
I'm so sorry, Cham! Youtube is no longer friendly for ASMR creators. ☹️
Omg Cham😭💔💔💔 You were my favorite YouTube asmrtist! So sorry to hear this. I’m hoping you can either recover your channel or find another way. ♥️♥️ I appreciate you writing this out though.
