Dev Update September 2021
Hey there !
I suppose it's been quite a while, a lot has happened lately, a lot always happens everytime I make these posts.
How I'm doing
First of all, I'm sorry for not talking much lately, as I said on a few different places, anxiety hit me like a truck in September and well, I pretty much didn't feel like doing anything really !
You know there is always that phase in life, that phase in which you just lurk, finding purpose, enhancing the way you see things, preparing the future and all, well I turned 21 in August so I suppose it's life catching up with me I'm a goddamn grown ass man now !
Quickly enough I had to deal with ToU, I worked hard to get great looking animations out, if you played 0.10 I think we can agree that they look much better and unique as the past ones !
But I did a lot of them, until well I got burnt out, not gonna hide it, working felt like a chore and no longer like a pleasent time, hence why 0.10 Part 1 is so late, I took around 2 / 3 weeks off, to cool off, played with friends, met a few people, prepared some life projects, y'know I can't live at my mother's my entire life, especially because family is a bit "toxic" for me lately, I'm looking for a way out, my own appartment, and my own "life" again.
Fortunatly, as of today, I atleast have goals regarding that so hey, progress !
I also spent that time, studying new ways to engage with ToU, I played a handful of VNs & games, mostly choice / story driven, I played one no further than yesterday as I lost Internet connection, which pretty much shook me the story writing of the character I romanced actually was far more human and "close" to my experience than I expected, it put a huge weight on my heart, a weight that I welcomed.
Beyond giving me inspiration that route also gave me relief on my problems, can't feel joy and relief without feeling pain and sorrow, in the end it's part of life.
I decided to get my ass back to work, I think it's great time that I stop this nonsense year long "late" updates to actually work, I'm overhyped by the project coming after ToU, but to get it out I have to finish ToU, and oh boy, we're in for quite a ride still !
I really want to live from this passion, this world I created, to a certain extend my supporters and the people considering supporting me are the main actors on that, it's always great to recieve a donation, makes you feel like you earned it, and I've been feeling terrible at the idea of not providing a proper update despite being paid, it was the main issue I had, the main source of anxiety, often as a content creator you face those, the fear of disappointing, the fear of people saying "Oh that was short, oh that was pretty bad, how can you post that and think that it's alright?" We all feel it when we create something, hell today is supposed to be my payday, and same as every 1st of the month, I dream and sometimes have nightmare about losing the people backing me up, that's just how it is, and yet I don't mind it, I'd take that deal over any other, in the end, I'm comfortable and happy in my position.
And I have to work even harder to earn the money you fancy chads, keep giving me, thanks to you I have a lot of opportunities, now I just have the grow a pair of balls and reach for them !
Progress on ToU
I decided to split 0.10 in 2 parts, I addopted my monthly schedule therefore, as soon as 0.10 Part 1 drops, 0.10 part 2 drops, within a 40 day period, and that'll be the same for 0.11 and so on...
I am working on multiple things at the same time, of course I've got the game but I'm also working on Patreon requests, especially for characters, I'm making a lot of them lately haha, but I enjoy it, I love giving new lifes inside of my stories, and somehow I don't feel like it's overwhelming, ToU does have a LOT of branches, and stories that need to be fully tied up!
I'm also working on a new "main" girl, Not really main, but in between main and side, that character represents I suppose all that depressing phase I've been through lately, and how I'm dealing with it today, I like to keep parts of me in my work, allows me to look back on them and see how much I did since then !
Well it has certainly been quite a wall of text, I can't thank you enough for your attention, player, patron, lurker, I really hope that I can keep making good content for all of you to enjoy.
ToU 0.10 Part 1 is close at hand, I want to get it out by the 5th of October, but again you know how I am with release dates !
But trust me starting the very end of this announce, I'm doubling up the efforts !
Take care of you fancy reader and I wish you a great day !