September 19, 2023

Crafting Lucky Paradox #3: Difficult Weeks in My Life and Luna's Content

Hello everyone, there is a lot to say this week...

Long post alert.

I was debating quite a bit with myself about writing this post or not, as I have had a very bad few weeks, and it is difficult for me to write about what has happened, I hate to share negative news, but I think you deserve to know everything that has happened, as it has indirectly affected the development of the project.

Those of you who have been following the development of Lucky Paradox for a while will know my little buddy, a rather old bunny who unfortunately had been diagnosed with cancer. He has been a fundamental support for me during the development of Lucky Paradox. He was always there in the nights of work, in the days of frustration, in the good times and the bad times. He was a friend I could always rely on and who gave me unconditional support.

However, one Friday night he began to suffer some digestive problems, which got worse and worse, so I decided to hospitalize him urgently to stabilize him again. These crises became more and more constant, due to suffering from cancer and being of an advanced age for a rabbit (more than 12 years old).

I went through days of intense emotional stress in which I could hardly sleep. On Monday, I received positive news about his recovery, which gave me some relief. But the next day, the vet called me to tell me that he was no longer responding to any treatment and was on his last legs.

I went immediately and when I finally saw... he was in very bad shape. I felt a terrible impotence, but there was nothing more to do, I could only say goodbye to my little partner forever.

He died on Tuesday of the same week at 3:55 p.m....

Even though I always knew this could happen, I never imagined it would affect me so much emotionally and mentally. In the days that followed, I continued to work on Lucky Paradox while I waited for his ashes to give him a resting place.

And on Friday, I received another devastating news: my mother was hospitalized due to a stroke.

This ended what little emotional and mental stability I had left.

Expressing everything I feel in words is extremely difficult. I want to apologize for not being able to work faster so that you can enjoy more content. You, with your support, make possible the development of this game that is so special to me. But I needed to take at least a day or two to think about what to do next and find some stability. So, I decided to step away from development for Saturday and Sunday of that week.

At the beginning of the following week, I decided to resume development. Working somehow helps me keep my mind busy and avoid getting caught up in that tide of negativity. Besides, I don't think it's fair to stop development for so long, especially considering this is the biggest update yet. Although, my work speed hasn't been the same and I haven't managed to make as much progress as I had hoped.

It's been strange writing Luna Blair's story during these days, as it touches on some themes related to death and darkness. However, I have tried to focus it on a more fun plot.

Even so, there has been progress in the development:

I have completed writing of the Luna Blair story, which now contains a significant amount of content. I have also decided to remove the initial prerequisite, so you will be able to enjoy this story without needing to have reached Halloween within the game.

Through the side stories, you will be able to unlock two new activities with Luna Blair. The first one is a regular activity: "Going to the beach", which will allow you to earn Love points with the witch. The second activity, which for me is quite significant, is "Reading the Tarot", although it requires a more detailed explanation...

Luna Blair possesses special abilities that allow her to strengthen the relationships between the characters in the game and the player. By performing the "Read the Tarot" action, they will be able to earn Love/Lust points with any of the girls in the game that have content to unlock. Of course, this comes at a cost (money), as Luna is a very business-focused girl. This option offers the possibility of spending money in exchange for saving time, as performing this activity will not advance the clock, although for the moment it has a limit: you will only be able to get five Love/Lust hearts with each girl.

This is also a small reference to Chihaya system from Persona 5.

Luna's story will unlock two new eroge scenes, both of which could turn out to be quite strange. One will be triggered through spirit possession, and the other will be unlocked through a crossover event with Maxy. These scenes serve to set the trend for future Luna content, and both will be optional.

My intention is that Luna's story will feel very different to anything seen so far and that this, along with the other secondary girls to come, will allow other content to be explored. I think this will enrich the story and make it more and more of an adventure.

A new gallery entry (Blue Firefly) has been added (Luna Blair), from where you will be able to revisit the two previous eroge scenes. Even if you decide to avoid these two scenes during the story, the content will still be unlocked in the gallery, so you can enjoy them if you think the time is right.

From now on we only must edit the texts and make hundreds of renders, there is still a lot of work to do, but it will be totally worth it when you see the final result.

Although for now I'm working slower than usual because mentally I'm not feeling in the best shape, bad things never last forever, and I think I should soon recover to be able to work at my usual speed.

I apologize for the potential delay in the update's release date, as I do my best to prevent such delays...

Your support on Patreon means the world to me, especially during these trying weeks. It's a vital part of Lucky Paradox's progress, and I truly appreciate it <3

I hope the week ahead treats you kindly. Stay well, and stay tuned for more updates coming your way!

Comments (24)

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Sim · October 3, 2023

I'm so very sorry for your loses. Take the time you need to heal. We will continue to support you. Take care.

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Zealot of Malice · September 26, 2023

I am terribly sorry that you have had to go through this all in such a short amount of time. There are many ways in which life can be really unfair, and saying goodbye to a loved one is one of the hardest. I don't remember who wrote this but I would like to share it with you. Grief is just love that can't be let out in a way that we want, the hollow feeling in our chest the wetness form the corner of our eyes, and the lump in our throat is just our love that we cant let out as the ones we would share it with are gone. I will always support as long as I am able if I ever had a time it was a problem I would reach out, but as it stands right now I have no issue and thus I believe there are others that would wish this please take a few days to try and breath friend.

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SadisticSaint · September 23, 2023

Take your Time to overcome your loss, be there for your Mum, Fuck the Rest! This does not mean you should not do your best in progressing the Game if it does you something good - but to know it´s not the End of the World if we have to wait for an Update. Do what you feel it´s good for your Wellbeing. There are Situations in Life where you have to be there for yourself. All the best for you!

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Bell Cranell · September 21, 2023

You need to take care of you. We can wait for you to be your best. We all understand the feelings of lose of losing a loved one even a pet and we are behind you all the way. Many religions believe in life after death and a few believe in reincarnation. Either way, if fate or the Supreme powers that be deem it to be then you will see your fuzzy buddy again. It may not be a rabbit this time but you will recognize your buddy immediately. If not then he will be there in spirit with you until the end by your side waiting for you to be there with it. A true pet will always wait for you to return to them. Remember, he is in a better place now without pain and discomfort. He would want you to be happy and remember the loving times. Pets feel love and give love in return. They feel lose and sadness too. He would want you happy and loved and not sad and discouraged. As for your mother. I will speak for all patreons here. We wish her the best and a healthy recovery. (FYI... my own mother has seizures and has to be on medication for the rest of her life, but she is living a good life even after her attacks. Yes they still happen every once in a while but she doesn't let it stop her and neither will your mother. Keep strong for her and she will stay strong in return)

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Stawer · September 22, 2023

My little friend gave me more unconditional love than I deserved, now I just hope he can rest after so much struggle :(

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Kyle K · September 21, 2023

So sorry for your loss! Honestly, take all the time you need to get yourself in a better place. Your game is wholesome and wonderful. But if pumping out content is too stressful, take some time for yourself. Your work is great, but always leave time to enjoy your life because at the end of the day. We only have one. As cool as it would be to have choices and potential immortality of sorts as lucky does. We are human and as such, should enjoy our time here to the best of our abilities. Be well and I hope things improve soon.

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Quantum Rooster · September 19, 2023

We are all sorry to hear about your loss. More than ten years ago now I lost a dog who I raised from a puppy. There hasn't been a day I haven't thought about him since. I comfort myself knowing that he was loved through his life.

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Humanity Averse · September 19, 2023

Take whatever time you need. We can wait for the update just take care of yourself first and foremost. Stay strong and know you have people rooting for you.

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Tim Parsons · September 19, 2023

So sorry to read all this and of course you must look after yourself first and foremost.

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VEGITOBLUE · September 19, 2023

Take as much time as u need to recuperate. losing a loved one even if it is a pet can be fundamentally hard to cope with. just make sure u go do some fun things and get plenty of sleep. we'll all be waiting patiently so take your time.

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Death1959 · September 19, 2023

Please take care of yourself. The loss of a beloved pet or an incredibly serious health concern is way more than enough to take a break to get your head straight.

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Musket · September 19, 2023

Everyone has or will experience personal loses and it is never easy. Make sure you take care of yourself

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NFinity · September 19, 2023

I know its an outdated term, but huge ehugs to you! You've been through so much in so short a time. My prayers are with you and I hope you will take time and not stress about content. I also know that work of any kind helps as a distraction, but don't let it become a chore. Best to you.

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Stawer · September 22, 2023

hugs!

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Richard · September 19, 2023

remember your number one the project is number 2 so make sure it stays that way

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Stawer · September 22, 2023

sometimes I lose the balance of priorities... more than I'd like

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Glizzy · September 19, 2023

I'm glad you were open with us and explained so thank you. Losing pets is never easy and neither is having medical problems pop up with family members. We are all here you for you Stawer and if you ever need to talk or just vent, you know where to find me at least. I have hope that's things will improve for you but it may take a bit of time.

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Stawer · September 22, 2023

Thank you for being there for me <3

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Vincent Aun · September 19, 2023

Sorry for your loss, and hope your mom gets better soon! I can’t speak for others but I personally hope that you take at least two days of developing the game each week! You cannot work yourself to death just to please your supporters. From what I’ve seen your supporters are a lovely and sympathic bunch and we all want what’s best for you! Yes we pay to support you, but if you don’t take care of yourself first, there will be no lucky parax at all! Take care of yourself, breathe out, relax. We all will be thrilled when the new update is coming, and we look forward to it, even if it is delayed! 👊🏼

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Stawer · September 22, 2023

Developing video games requires a lot of time, so it's hard to take breaks, it's a fun job and one that I love, so I have no problem

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Kyuujin · September 19, 2023

I’m sorry for your loss. I know how it is to lose a beautiful furry friend under similar circumstances

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ValsheaM · September 19, 2023

Take care of yourself first. We can wait.

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NachoTrancal · September 19, 2023

I'm sorry to read what happened, my condolences and a lot of strength, thank you for worrying about us.

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El D · September 19, 2023

I'm really sorry for your loss. Be strong. /hug