On the way to Holly’s home, just before I was about to leave her, she asked me if I had ever developed feelings for any of the girls throughout all these years..

Not always in the same way.

Not always as love.

Not always as something I could explain.. but every girl I met, every story I filmed, every smile, every silence, every little moment on the road, left something in me.

For many people, that might sound like a problem.

For me, it is fire.

Not the type of Ed Sheeran says in "I see Fire" for / in Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug type, not a destructive one (what an interesting and beautiful song it is).

More like the kind that keeps you moving when the world feels cold.

The kind that reminds you that you are still alive, still searching, still hoping, I guess..

People become couples.

They fall in love, get married even, build lives together, go places, do things.

I mostly.. let me say "mostly" but.. I don’t.

I liked Holly.

..and I know we will never be together, nor a couple.

That´s OK.

I will like her.. probably forever.

That´s also OK as the embers of that fire will burn inside me.. not like a flame.. but will always be there..

..and I will keep creating, keep meeting, keep feeling, and keep trying to turn all those moments, the flames, fire, the embers into something beautiful to share..

..as I´ve been doing and as I do and as I´ll be doing.

Probably forever.