Preview of Yellow Diamond

The fill edit is 12 mins long and ends on a silly note. It’s too exotic for YouTube and has already been flagged so it might not stay up for long 😬.

Be prepared for 12 midnight PST tomorrow night when I actually upload TWO of my yellow swimsuit ASMR movies. I’m furiously starting my second edit now of Yellow Moon.

If you wondered about the title, that was a clue. I am constantly bemused that there are full on fetish movies out there on YouTube, which I do enjoy... but I lurk and do not want to be seen with that crowd. Since these videos are made for people projecting their sexuality, and the feedback they receive is not something I want. I do not want to reflect that part of me which is private, out in public.

I have certain “things” that I really really enjoy, but I don’t want to put that intimate side of me in public. I don’t understand how anyone can write openly in public about how they want to be spoon fed a certain way in public. I will happily watch some fetish videos on whatever platform, but I would never project what I want from that creator. My fantasy is simply felt from the inside, upon the faceless hooded canvass that was presented to me.

So I lurk on these videos consuming what I like, running over the reels of meaningless footage in curiosity over that one thing that makes me tick only. Most videos, don’t know what they are feeding me with, because I look for the thing with no intention.

I do what makes me feel right about my body. And the great thing is when I review the footage from another perspective I never see, I am deeply rewarded with my own shapes and signatures highlighted by man made textures.

Man made textures give me an edge, they fold over me in ways that suggest my shape. They allow me to appreciate the natural form given to me, that I grew up through my teenage years HATING.

I HATED my lady parts. I hated it all. My vagina, My Vulva, was like the damaged goods rejected my those who abused me while I was perfect. My mind was so twisted about the only adoration I had received in my life, that I could not bring myself to even look at my most intimate areas.

Now. I celebrate them. I celebrate the beautiful folds. I love the protection and suggestion my swimsuits give me. They make me feel like I’m waiting for the right person to unwrap me. I feel special, that’s my gift to you. To share with you how learning to love my body makes me feel.

Yellow Diamond ASMR Artistic Swimmer Body Conditioning (YouTube)