Chapter 14: Context

“Well I’m glad to see you’ve overcome your hesitation with the twins.” The tone was unmistakably sardonic.

Bambinae smiled at me as I sat in the armchair. The stark white background was now replaced with the interior of a small thatch hut. The campfire was now a stone fireplace and it seemed much more cosy and comfortable than before.

“You’re getting stronger.” I complimented her.

“You’ve brought three new worshippers to me. I would hope so.”

I shot Bambinae a look. “What happened to the Gods here? Everyone was mightily surprised that I was wielding divine power. They were even more surprised to hear you were alive.”

The Goddess smiled sadly. “There was a war. A war of Gods over the world of Dromin. An interloper tried to destroy the world. They managed to sway some of the native Gods to their side and we had a deific civil war. The progenitor Goddess, who created all of us, disappeared first and she is still locked in battle with the interloper, dedicating her entire power to fighting the enemy. It consumes her completely.

The war was fought by the interloper’s allies and the rest of us. And we won; we cast out the enemy’s army and locked down those native Gods who had fought against us - but the cost was high.”

I watched Bambinae lose herself in her memory.

“You must understand that it is very difficult to kill a God. They cannot be slain in their deific form but instead must be rendered mortal by some means and slain on the prime material plane. The cost for us was to use all our power to protect the people of the world, the result was that the Gods were reduced to a fraction of their former selves, barely more powerful than the mortals that they once governed. And as such, we now reside on the mortal plane, hiding that last essence of ourselves for fear that some mortal finds us and kills us.”

I took in the news carefully and thought through what it meant in context with what I already knew. I didn’t question the fear of a mortal slaying a weakened God, any number of fools would do it for the glory. But what did this mean for me?

“You’re looking to gather more power, to ascend again?” I asked her directly.

“Of course, but I can’t do it alone. I need you to gather people of faith and pray. Their prayers will strengthen me. That power will mostly flow to you so that you may gather more. However, you must find me at some stage and gather enough faithful to pray to me in my presence for me to finally ascend to Godhood again. As the Goddess of fertility, childbirth and the home, enough people still half-heartedly pray to me to grant me the power to commune with you. But I need you to find me with REAL followers to restore me to power.”

“Well, where are you?”

Bambinae shook her head. “Like last time, you will not remember the specifics of this conversation. You will know in your heart you need to find me. That is all I can do for now.”

I nodded and bowed my head to her in respect. “It will be done, my lady. I will find you.”

Bambinae giggled, a sound I found unusual for one that I had envisioned as an older woman. “Now go back to your women. I expect you to create a home with them, even if that home must follow you as you travel.”

“You really don’t mind me having sex with them? It doesn’t seem right… it still feels like the situation is enforcing consent.”

Bambinae stood and moved to me. I saw her face truly for the first time and, though I was sure it wasn’t her actual face, it was unsettling. It was Asha and Erica and Laura all in one. They were looking at me with mixtures of adoration, love and concern.

“I waited a long time for the conditions to be right. I placed you in the path of women who would be useful to you and you would be useful to them. Your restraint is part of the reason that you are my champion. It’s part of the reason that they feel safe enough to offer themselves to you. I am not going to tell you when you can make love to them, you are smart enough to figure that out yourself.”

Bambinae touched her lips to mine and her hands rubbed my chest. We were suddenly naked and she was in my lap, passion flooding through her and into me. My cock sprung into life supernaturally fast as she impaled herself onto me.

“What?” I spluttered, absolutely stunned by the rapid development. “Oh… fuck.”

The goddess ground her hips on mine, the immense pleasure of it all overwhelming me. It was all too fast. It was too pleasurable; it was too much.

I knew I loved her. Bambinae had saved me, offered me a second chance. I wanted to give her what she wanted. I wanted to serve her. I wanted to feel needed. But something wasn’t right. It was too fast. It had come out of nowhere. But it was amazing. It was fantastic! I wanted it. I wanted her to love me. But most of all I didn’t want to deny her in case she abandoned me…

Oh…

Yeah.

I blinked and she was in the chair opposite me again, clothed and face hidden. My pants were back and, after that brief and god-tier passion and arousal, I was again breathing normally and back to thinking clearly. The whole experience had taken only seconds.

“That is the difference,” she said quietly. “Can you see it?”

I nodded. I was to them what Bambinae was to me. The power imbalance was even greater than I had imagined. The responsibility was crushing down upon me to protect them from their own desires.

“I almost gave in. I almost took them.” I confessed. “They begged me to.”

“And I wouldn’t have blamed you. You are human. You will make mistakes, you already have. They will too. But your restraint will be rewarded in the end. And remember, you are not responsible for their actions, only your own.”

“I’m kinda getting mixed messages here.”

Bambinae giggled again. Something I was beginning to find incredibly erotic. “Love and sex are complicated. Even when consent is freely given it can be regretted and end up hurting. But done right, it will be perfect. And it’s only going to get more complicated I’m afraid.”

I felt my cock grow again as a wave of pleasure rolled through my pants. I looked at her, alarmed. “Wait… what is happening?”

“A genuine show of affection from one of the girls. A declaration of her service and love. And yes, a mistake on her part; she doesn’t understand consent like you do. Be kind to the twins; they are navigating this maze of emotions more blindly than even you are.”

“I will. Of course I will.” I panted. “But what is happening?”

I groaned as I felt my cock swell and my breath quicken again. Bambinae once again slinked over to me, her dress falling from her body to reveal the perfect female form in a sensual, slow-motion. She knelt in front of me and as she looked up into my eyes I still couldn’t see her clearly, but I knew her all the same and her face was erotic and mesmerising.

“The real world is affecting your dream. Would you like me to help you?” She giggled. And, as when we always spoke, I could hear her intent. It was truly a request this time. No power over me. No restraint. No expectation. She was giving herself to me. She only wanted to help me feel good. But more than that. This was permission to feel good.

No guilt.

No second guessing.

Just affection.

I nodded.

The goddess inhaled my cock, my pants vanishing as she leant forward and I felt my glans slide down her throat. She managed to giggle erotically again as I arched my head back in pleasure. My body writhed beneath her perfect touch, her every motion of her mouth on my cock was sending shockwaves through my body. It was perfect. I wanted this and I could tell that she wanted this too. And it felt right. Just. It wasn’t long before I was bucking my hips in ecstasy, pushing upwards and fucking her throat as I shot ropes of cum into the goddess kneeling in front of me. Her eyes were still locked on mine, her smile wide and loving as she pulled back and let the remain cum flow onto her tongue and then her face and breasts. But it wasn’t just physical. The accumulated trauma, the loss of life; my own and others, and the sheer overwhelming shock of the last week’s events poured out of me in spiritual relief as she slowly milked my despair lovingly and tenderly from my body. The Goddess sat like this in front of me as I came down from my emotional high, cleansed and refreshed, and then knelt up to kiss me tenderly on the lips.

“Don’t be cross with her when you awake. I did this to serve both of you. Remember me.

Be safe, my Champion.

My Paladin.”

And the world faded away into dream again.