05/14/2026

I was thinking about what to show today.

I don't think I have anything behind the scenes to show until the update is out. Instead I wanted to talk about eroge.

I've been playing eroge for a long time, if you know of VHgame, it was probably around when that first started getting popular years ago. That's basically the mother of all RPGM eroge.

It's fun that I might hopefully one day make a game with original characters that I can officially sell at some point. Although, when making any game eroge or not. Regardless of what genre the game might be in, I think it's important to play games of that genre so you know what works and what doesn't. Ever since I've started this project, I've actually had trouble playing or getting into VN's or Eroge. I've gotten so many recommendations from friends and people. Games such as Solgante, NebelGeister, or Falling Undercover.

Before making this, I've played tons of games like the ones by あせろら that I'm a big fan of. Other games such as the games from BBQ大好き, Big S Studio (NTRholic), WAKUWAKU, AVANTGARDE, 戦争屋さん, しなちくかすてぃーら and Golden Boy. The list of developers goes on and on.

Recently though, I've been unable to read any VN or Eroge. It's not like I don't have time, but lately I've been feeling really stressed out and a little anxious about development. I still spare some time for games with friends and what not. But in my freetime, if I'm not doing anything with friends my mind normally goes back to "I should be working on the game." Now that's not inherently a bad thing, but it feels like I'm being pressured by the stress of my own self-induced deadlines and trying to meet everyone's expectations. It's been starting to feel less fun and more like work. Again, not a bad thing. But it feels less fun and this project was always supposed to be fun and I want to maintain that feeling of:

"Oh, wouldn't it be cool if I did this kind of scene with Chizuru?"

"Wouldn't it be hot if Ruka did this?"

I also think since I haven't been playing eroge recently it's probably been hurting my writing a bit. Even now while I was double checking the Mami scene today, I was feeling a little unsatisfied with myself. Maybe the writing is fine and I'm too worried about it falling short. It's hard to tell nowadays. I feel like if I got back into playing eroge lately I'd be able to better latch onto what'll work and what doesn't. Not only that, it would help me come up with ideas for extra scenes.

I think after this patch comes out, I'm going to spend some time and pause payments for a couple weeks.

Don't worry, it won't be for a long time, it would just be a more lenient period for me to play games and develop slowly while I start working on the more important animations and using the cross sections.

I want to take some time for myself and play some eroge and VNs that I've left neglected. Me leaving Nebelgeister unplayed for so long hurts despite loving BBQ大好き. I also need to go finally play NTR騎士, it's been on my backlog forever and I'm really looking forward to their next game.

But if you have any recommendations to give me as well, feel free. I've spoken to people I've met on here that have given me great recommendations. I just need to play them!

In regards to the update, it's going to come out very soon. I don't wanna specify another date lest I shoot myself in the foot again.

Also the Discord server is made, If you've linked your Discord account to Patreon, you'll be automatically added. I'll be animating and working on the game from time to time in there in a voice channel if people want to watch. I'll probably only limit it to animating since I feel like showing the writing would be too big of a spoiler, but who knows maybe that'll change.

我在想今天要展示什么内容。

在更新发布之前，我觉得没有什么幕后内容可以展示。所以我想聊聊美少女游戏（eroge）。

我玩美少女游戏已经很长时间了，如果你知道VHgame，大概就是在那款游戏开始流行的那个年代。那基本上是所有RPGM美少女游戏的鼻祖。

想到有一天我可能会制作一款拥有原创角色并可以正式销售的游戏，感觉很有趣。不过，无论制作什么类型的游戏，美少女游戏也好，其他类型也好，我认为玩该类型的游戏是很重要的，这样才能知道什么有效、什么无效。自从开始这个项目以来，我其实很难再投入进去玩VN或美少女游戏了。朋友和大家给了我很多推荐，比如Solgante、NebelGeister或Falling Undercover这样的游戏。

在制作这个项目之前，我玩过很多游戏，比如あせろら的作品，我是他们的忠实粉丝。还有BBQ大好き、Big S Studio（NTRholic）、WAKUWAKU、AVANTGARDE、戦争屋さん、しなちくかすてぃーら以及Golden Boy等开发者的游戏。这份名单还可以一直列下去。

然而最近，我完全无法阅读任何VN或美少女游戏。倒不是说没有时间，只是最近我一直感到非常焦虑，对开发工作感到压力很大。我还是会抽时间和朋友一起玩游戏之类的。但在空闲时间里，如果不是在和朋友一起，我的脑子通常会自动回到"我应该去做游戏"这个念头上。这本身不是坏事，但感觉自己正在被自我施加的截止日期和努力满足大家期望的压力所束缚。这件事开始变得不那么有趣，更像是一份工作了。再说一遍，这不是坏事。但感觉少了些乐趣，而这个项目一直以来都应该是有趣的，我想保持那种感觉：

"哦，如果我做这种千鹤的场景会不会很棒？" "如果留华做这个会不会很带劲？"

我也认为，由于最近没有在玩美少女游戏，这可能对我的写作造成了一定影响。就连今天在复查麻美场景时，我也对自己感到有些不满意。也许写作本身没有问题，只是我太担心会差强人意了。现在真的很难判断。我觉得如果最近能重新开始玩美少女游戏，我会更容易把握什么有效、什么无效。不仅如此，这也会帮助我想出更多额外场景的创意。

我想在这次补丁发布后，花一些时间暂停收费几周。

不用担心，不会太久，只是给自己一个更宽松的时期，边玩游戏边慢慢开发，同时开始着手制作更重要的动画和透视截面图的内容。

我想给自己一些时间，去玩一些一直搁置的美少女游戏和VN。尽管很喜欢BBQ大好き，但NebelGeister一直没玩实在让我心里过意不去。我也终于需要去玩NTR騎士了，它在我的待玩清单上积压了很久，我也非常期待他们的下一款游戏。

如果大家有什么推荐的话，也欢迎告诉我。我在这里认识的一些朋友给了我很棒的推荐，我只是需要真的去玩它们！

关于更新，很快就会发布了。我不想再指定具体日期，免得再次搬起石头砸自己的脚。

另外，Discord服务器已经建好了，如果你已经将Discord账号与Patreon关联，将会被自动添加进来。我会不时在语音频道里进行动画制作和游戏开发的直播，欢迎大家来观看。我可能只会直播动画制作部分，因为我觉得展示写作内容剧透性太强，不过谁知道呢，也许以后会有所改变。