If you’re reading this post, it means the level of trust between us is already quite high. So let me be honest. I didn’t just enjoy sunbathing. I enjoyed feeling my body. Feeling the sun touch my skin, feeling the tension slowly melt away, feeling old restrictions fall off along with the clothes and responsibilities. The prohibition against being lazy. The prohibition against enjoying myself for no reason. The prohibition against liking myself. At some point, I realized that it wasn’t the result I e