June 2026 Newsletter (?)
Hello everyone! Perhaps someday I will write and release a newsletter consistently here, but until then, please accept this casual attempt. June is here, and as my birthday approaches, I find myself in a contemplative state.
Some of you may remember that my mother broke her hip recently. An accident that coincided with my elderly dog undergoing several weeks of sickness. Fortunately, both of them are faring much better. I, however, am tired. Of so many things. Namely, my own habits and beliefs that continue to leave me stagnant and small.
I've been recounting the way it used to feel when I was younger, when I was so certain I would one day train and become an animator. Or a few years later, when I was sure I would be a creative director for a pop star, or work in some big game studio... etc... etc. These things never happened, and it is neither fortunate, nor unfortunate that they didn't. Times changed, experiences happened, and life shuffled me around considerably. I miss feeling that hopeful, or certain about my potential. Despite this, I am grateful that I have always seemed to be in the place I needed to be, when I needed to be, and this wouldn't have been possible without this page, and the support that I have been graced with over the years.
It allowed me to spend my fathers final 11 days with him, by his side in the hospital as machines kept his lungs and heart working until on the morning of the 11th day, he decided he had had enough. I was able to relocate to stay with my mother, and take care of her and the dogs my father used to care for. To take her every Monday to see and talk to my brother behind bulletproof glass, and see what new tattoos he traded toothpaste and cheetos to have someone poke into him with a staple and some charcoal from burning paper towels.
My brother is only recently out of jail. He wasn't able to see my father in person during his final days, but on the last one, they got a zoom call in, I think about this moment a lot. I can't imagine the way he must have felt going through everything that he has, and everything he will carry with him into the future.
I didn't have a plan when I started writing this, just as I didn't when I began this Patreon, or even what has become my career as the artist known as dizdoodz, but something in me was yearning to write, and so I did. There isn't really a point to what has become a journal entry, and I thank you for reading. I have witnessed and experienced a lot of strange, discouraging, and hurtful things during my years sharing my art online, and I find it difficult to peel back the curtain a bit, and talk about myself not just as an artist, but as a person. I have a tendency to dismiss myself, and undermine my work before I give another person the opportunity to, just so I won't be surprised when I get the funny comment.
All that is to say, I have a lot on my mind right now, and a lot that I want to create, and build. I've been putting more time into the first build of the Crown's Reverie game, and it brings me a lot of joy seeing something that's been so close to me for so long take form. I can't wait to share it with everyone when I'm comfortable to start, and I hope you'll give it a shot when you do. Until then, there are a few comics I got in the works now that I hope peak your interest too.
I must say, focusing more and more on developing my own stories and characters this year has made me very pleased!
Thank you again,
Diztopher
Comments (37)
We love you and are always so excited for your work and your ideas! And you're so cool too! I hope you always have the support you need dizzy and i'm always happy to follow your amazing art 💖
"I have a tendency to dismiss myself, and undermine my work before I give another person the opportunity to, just so I won't be surprised when I get the funny comment." I also have a tendency to dismiss myself, or otherwise be very hard on myself. I've never really figured out why I do this, but your reasoning resonates with me. Thanks for sharing this about yourself, you may have unknowingly helped others by doing so.
You're a great artist diz and it's good that the patreon page helped you be in the right spot at the right times. Hope you can continue to do what you strive for and find fulfillment in it ^^
Thank you Ranulf!
Glad you're well, man
Happy to be!
Sending you a warm hug, my friend 💖 Thank you so much for sharing this note with us
Thanks Ole! 🫂
You're always amazing Dizdoodz 💗 a humble legend
Just a wiw fewwa…
Thanks for being so open with us about your struggles Diz. Just know I support you all the way, and hope things get better. The recent stride you’ve hit with Crown’s is really impressive to see. Always looking forward to see what you have coming out next <3.
Thank you Sailor! 🫂
I'm so happy you spoke your heart, Dizy. You know I'm always gonna be a ride or die for you no matter what. I'm also just glad you have so many people who can laugh with you and love you for you—the human, real you! I'm glad you're here, Dizy, and I'm happy I get to see what new things you do and what's yet to come.💙🫶💙
Thank you Fluffle! Happy to have you here 💛
Love you Diz!
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I hope things get better for you in the meantime! ❤️
They are!
Thank you so much Diz, for heeding that call to write this letter, there's something so sobering and healing about recognizing just how much you have gone through, how you continue pushing forward and how much there's still yet to come! Even if it's hard seeing it in yourself, I can confidently say that you and your work hold a very important place, you continue to inspire me and so many others, I have seen it with my own eyes!!! So let this time of contemplation fuel you, these past experiences inform the person you are now but also pave the way to a bright future ahead of you. You definitely are one of a kind, always remember that! and I hope you have a swell birthday too! We love you Diz 💖
Thank you for your eternal kindness and well wishes Vermy 🫂
Pero lo primero sería apoyar a la famailia, organizar tu cabeza y sobre todo Focus on your projects, the Crown's Reverie game sounds interesting and to me personally, I love supporting personal projects and asking for commissions for it but if that gives you the peace of mind you need, go ahead ❤️🌸
Yo te apoyo o sea se que el sendero del artista es difícil pero no te debes rendir muchos logran ser animadores incluso hasta los 50 años y tú aún eres joven lograrás ser grande algún día
To be honest, I'm not very good at leaving messages for others, because I seem to spend most of my time just paying for some artwork and not participating much in the discussions in the group.But...yeah, I feel like I have to reply to this one.It sounds like this has been a very difficult time,I don't know how to comfort you, but seeing that you are still facing life with positivity and hope is more important than anything else.I am also very happy to see you share these inner stories. I think it is always better to tell them out than to keep them in your heart.You are great, not just as an artist.Everything will be fine as long as you can do it.
Thank you for sharing all this. Will be here supporting the game 🫶
We love you Diz! And always here for ya!
Love you ! Thanks for being here. You are a huge inspiration for me
Your growth as an artist is remarkable, Diz. I'm always amazed by everything you do and what you're building. I hope things continue to get better for you, and if you need to, don't hesitate to take a break; I'll be here to support you ❣️
YEEEEEEAH love you Diz <3
you’ve grown and improved so so much diz. I’m honored to be here witnessing everything you make, and seeing you continue to pull through even when the going gets rough is inspiring for me. you’re a real hero dizzy, and don’t forget that!
Always support you♥️
Thank you 🧀
Love you boo and always there to support no matter what 💪💪💪
Thank you mistress 🫂
Glad you're here, Diz. <3
Me too Dan3!!! Glad you are here
WE LOVE YOU DIZ!! ❤️❤️🫶🥺
Love you too 🫶