My Life Update Trigger Warning ⚠️

Hello everyone, I just want to start off by saying how deeply sorry I am for my slack in the sims creator community. Your support doesn't go unnoticed and I thank you all for still supporting me through this rough time in my life. As I had mentioned before my mother has been in and out of the hospital and it has taken a toll on my family so being motivated to do anything was out the door. My father in law was also sick so I travel to PR for the first time (on a plane in general) and actually had a great time. Even though I was stressed out with family health and work, I tried my hardest to think positive. My son kept getting sick, my brother and nephews and next thing I'm sick. I had the worse stomach bug and wasn't able to eat much. It lasted longer than I expected soooo my man and I decided that I should get checked out... Went to the hospital and found out I was actually 12 weeks pregnant 🤰🏾! Ofcourse we were happy cause we've been trying for a long time and that PR trip did us justice haha. Anyway fast forward, my relationship became a roller-coaster and it stressed me out to the point I cried every other night. I couldn't sleep, and I was deeply sad and had anxiety, depression, and felt alone during my pregnancy. I found out I was having a girl and quickly became happy again. I named her Aaliyah Janette 💕 and she became my BFF 🥰 I made her a registry and I kept her a secret from majority of my family and friends for as long as I can. That however, quickly came to an end when I kept getting UTI infections and going to the ER. All of a sudden my anxiety came back, my trauma from my first miscarriage came back and I quickly knew that she wasn't going to make it... I tried my hardest to stay on medications, and feed her and rest. I went to the ER for another UTI on July 23rd. Since I've been in the ER 3 times in 1 month they didn't bother checking me like they usually do and sent me on my way with more medicine. I told them I hadn't felt her but they brushed me off...

On July 24th, after my work shift, my body took a toll and next thing I know, I was stuck in the bathroom. My man came to help me but had to call the ambulance since I was bleeding 😕 going to the ER they confirmed I was 20weeks pregnant and had to go to LND (Labor and Delivery) I knew what was happening I was just so out of it I had no emotions... The nurse checked her heart beat and then checked me... she quickly announced I was indeed having another Miscarriage 💔 she saw her making her way out... I had to get medication and have my baby girl naturally... As the nurse pulled her out, I seen my man crying and I couldn't even react 🥺 I barely was able to keep my eyes open... The nurse then said to wait for the placenta to come out, however that never happened. Next thing I know I was taking more medication for the contractions and passing huge blood clots. I wasn't even able to hold my baby due to the pain. After 5 mins my man and nurse noticed my baby was breathing still. I quickly said F the pain and asked to hold her and I held my baby🤱🏾! The nurses came in to tell me she is living, but they can't help her since she is way too small... My entire world crashed once again and we had to watch our baby take her last breathe! She lived for 38 mins. I told her I was sorry and that we love her. I told her she will be with her brother Angelo and I will see them again one day. 👼🏾👼🏼

After that, my pain became so unbearable the nurses had to take the placenta out through a small surgery since I had lost over 1378 millimeters of blood and im anemic! All I can say is that I'm so thankful to be here with my family and my son Adrian 💙 going home and telling him his sissy was sick and we had to leave her at the hospital has been my fear! He would tell me all the time I had a baby in my tummy and he wanted a sissy. Not knowing I was pregnant I was sad cause we were trying. Then finding out I was indeed having a girl, I was so happy and scared at the same time! Now losing my second baby, I'm so sad to even try again... I don't want to watch my son cry in my arms like that again. He's only 4 years old and he already lost his sissy/BFF 💔 I breaks my heart knowing she was alive and healthy. They tested my placenta and it says the infection was so bad it erupted the placenta base. 😔 on July 24, 2024 I lost my little girl 😭

I've been waiting to share the good news, now this is all I have... As for my mother she is doing better, she is back home, however she needs supplies, and I need a little help with my babies cremation, that was also my last day working at my job too. So, if you guys are willing to share, or donate I would really appreciate it. Even if you share some kind words to this post I would be happy with that. Anything positive will help 🥹 just please help me get through this 🙏🏽 Thank you for reading, I love you guys ♡

UPDATE ♡

Thank you guys so much for the beautiful messages and prayers ❤️ I appreciate you all. Thank you to those that donated 🥲 you guys definitely helped me bring my baby home in a beautiful heart shaped urn ♡ I am taking it day by day and I'm healing little by little ❤️ I love you guys and Thank you for allowing me this break 😊 but I'm back and ready to get back to myself.