New year, new era
Hey everyone! So, another year is about to pass by, a year where I've actually felt I managed to do this full time... kinda, but I've been doing a little bit better overall! Nonetheless, these last months I've been thinking on what to do next, so I decided to change a few things:
Lets start with my OC Lucy, my soul in a way, I've felt I haven't been comfortable with some of the stuff I do, the main one being making cb with Lucy, she was created originally as a projection of mine, how I'd like to be, a way to make myself feel better by having a character share my same struggles and overcome them, I don't want to give much details but making her have a you know what (don't want to get too explicit since Patreon is a bit finicky with public posts) has been making me feel awful.
To make it short, all my life I've felt like I'm less, that I'm not valid, because I don't have the equipment "a real woman has", so I made it that Lucy was comfortable with herself, that she doesn't mind it and it's even comfortable with it just like me... but when I have to change her anyways, it just feels like the world is slapping me and reminding me that not even she can escape this, and it has made my self esteem lower even more; Lucy is a trans woman without bottom dysphoria, and I don't want to change her anymore, no matter what, on the bright side this'll help me use my other OCs a bit more.
I've been struggling a lot recently to stay motivated, feeling like I'm in a loop of creating amazing ideas and then having to scrap them because, well, they're not NSFW enough, I want to tell stories, more complex and compelling, and I know that people here prefer it straight to the point, so for this I'll be creating a new account where I'll make all these passion projects. Feel free to follow me there (@BlagonChronicle), just don't expect it to be close to how I manage TheKreadora/OWF, I'm not sure if I'll even post the comics I make there over here, but y'all let me know!
I'll try and focus on faster content, I usually take long because for some reason I tend to try and connect everything to a lore I've inside my brain and usually never share unless certain cases, which honestly causes headaches in vain, so from now on I'll be focusing on loose images and at most mini stories, oh and I'll still do the fights of couse!
The last thing, is something I've been thinking for a while but I'm not sure if I should, so I'll do a poll soon, but that is if I should keep Discord for Patreon only or if I should open it to the public? The VIP section is always Patreon exclusive, but I've been wondering if the social part could be open so there's a little more activity, I'll leave it up to all of you.
Also, I know I haven't been the best at organization, cancelling things and overall being a mess with my own targets and schedule, this is something that I want to solve but I'm still unsure how, both here and in real life, and I'm very sorry if this has annoyed you, I think I'll probably stick with improvising and do more polls as well, but I'll try to avoid promises so there's no more disappointments.
Now, I want to finish by asking a few questions: What are the things you enjoy about my content? What do you think of my OCs? Is it better if I just stick with IP characters instead? What should I focus on? I know that I can't please everyone, but I want to ensure all of you are at least heard and communicate more often, as I feel I've been very disconnected with the people that have gotten me to this point.
Thank you so much for another year, it has been a very rough year for me, but I can't deny that making my content has helped me to continue, specially because after years I finally made Lucy "tangible", she saved my life when I was a teenager, and now she's saving it again.
Tons of love, from TheKreadora <3