Billing Update + What I've (not) Been Up To

Your hair color and the eye dress rule! Angela, I get what you're saying. These are stressful times. Very stressful! I sometimes can't make it out of bed until the hungry cat insists. You have not posted here since the pattern video (which I enjoyed quite a lot), so I'm concerned about how things are going and how your dog is faring. We are all pushing for you. Your honesty shows how much courage you possess! Try to keep going forward, even though it's hard.

The eye dress and your hair both look so cool! I don't think you even need to justify taking time off work to take care of yourself or your sick dog. Just because the world has bigger problems that doesn't mean your issues are less real. Where I live, paid sick leave and vacation time is a very normal (and legally mandated) thing, and I think one of the great things about patreon ist that it opens these options up for people who usually aren't so lucky, like self-employed artists. So I think you can still bill us even when you're not feeling well enough to work as much as you usually do, or when you just need some vacation time.

I made my first comment before seeing the eye bodice. I LOVE it.

I am completely understand how the combination of quarantine and the news is very distressing. And poor little Guin, I am sorry she is sick, there's no reason to apologize for feeling emotional about your own life. I appreciate all of your content - especially because you ARE funny and authentic. Sounds like a break is the best thing. Here's hoping this next month is getting better.

Dear Angela, please take care of yourself first and foremost! I can only speak for myself, but I won't be feeling taken advantage of... I am in this (Patreon) mostly to be a patron of creators (well, Capt. Obvious), and not so much to exclusively recieve extras and updates; plus you DO have to eat and pay your bills EVERY month. While I sincerely appreciate your concern, I wish for you just to be yourself and do what's best for you in the long run; this too shall pass, and I'm hoping you'll have a long and prosperous career. Furthermore, I guess a lot of us know and understand what it means to be dealing with sorrow and depression, and even feeling like being in the wrong for suffering, on top of that... there IS truly a lot to be upset and worried about these days, but there is also hope, and I hope you can feel that. Take care and stay safe! ps. I will raise my pledge for the month/s to come, to compensate for this month, and I hope others will join me in doing so.

Can I just say that your hair color is stunning? I love it! I used to change my hair color when I was feeling down as well. Last month I had it pink, then felt uncomfortable with it and changed it to gray (natural color nowadays). Like you, I have also suffered from depressions and I also used to procrastinate a lot. When I would wake up, I wanted to do loads of things and at the end of the day had done nothing. Just because I would be too tired or just didn't feel like picking up anything. I wish there was a good solution for it. On the bright side, you did finish some great things, like the dog bed for your lovely Guinevere. She has some amazing mommy that takes good care of her. On the good days and on the bad days. And those bad days are soooo hard. I dread the day when my older dogs will get too old. I will hug them and kiss them each day. They are so dear to me. Like your guinevere is to you. Take your time whenever you need it - whether it is for you sanity, for you guinevere, or just for you. You are important, and I LOVE your content. Huge hug from my side!

Hope things start to get better for you, but in the meantime I LOVE your hair. I have a pot of this kind of green hair dye sitting ready for me to man up and use for a few weeks... maybe I'll just do it.

I really enjoy following your work with the pattern store. an I look forward to the mourning dress :)

I hadn't come here since last month and it has been today, when I have received an email from Patreon saying you weren't charging the bill that I have come to see this because I was worried. I wouldn't have minded paying even if you cannot provide the extra content because of the situation. I hope by now things will be getting better for you. Take care of yourself and I hope your dog is also doing well. A big hug!!!

The eye dress is going to be a museum piece if/when you make it happen. What an amazing, creative idea! Can't wait to see it!! I hope, over time, to see all of these pieces made. Meanwhile, much love to you and yours! :)

I am obsessed...obsessed, I say...with your wonderful green hair. I just love love love it on you!

As others have stated, please take care of you...we are all here to support you! There is too much going on in the world today and when you connect with it and feel it - it's very overwhelming (To say the very least). Sending you much love, light and support and the knowing that it will get better! Stay safe and take good and gentle care.

i'm going to go see what was shot this time last year and the year before that

We are all here for you, and nobody is mad, disappointed, or bothered by a slow month. If anything, I bet a lot of us were just saying to ourselves, 'Gee, we haven't heard from Angela in a while, I hope she's OK.' I know I was! The U.S. is a truly frightening and disheartening place right now, and I totally understand your feelings of helplessness, pessimism, and lethargy as a result. Having such a beloved family member as Guin be so clearly unwell, and also being unable to do anything substantial about it, can only be worse. I think I speak for everyone when I say that we want all your artistry (and any content about it that we are SO LUCKY to get!) to come from a place of loving and exploring your craft and talents - so take as long as you need. The bonus is just that we get to see it and say "wow, that's so beautiful/creative/kooky/inspiring." And if you're still feeling off in September, take the time you need! If you need six months, so be it! My subscription will still be here.

So sorry to hear about Guen. Honestly, I like our dog better than most people and totally understand how hard it is to watch them when they're ill. Sending you a virtual hug!

Thank you for opening up so much and being so earnest with us, that is absolutely not easy. I completely understand you not charging, although I still would have loved to financially support your through such a difficult time! In other news, I am so excited for you making a 1860s dress since I have been planning on making one and can't wait to take inspiration from your work.

We love you and therefore want you to be happy and healthy!! Our fur babies are so special, so I understand the complete and utter heartache. Please take care of you!! Hugs!! Never forget how amazing you are!!! 💕💕

thank you

Take care of you, Angela and do what you have to do to get through this awful time. We are here for you and only want the very best for you. Big hugs.

If I could reach through the screen to give you a hug and giant bowl of ice cream, I totally would! Take the time you need, look after your sweet puppers, an give yourself time to rest. <3 We'll be here for you.

*hugs*

So sorry to hear how much Guin is suffering, and your pain about it is completely valid. I hope you can take this month to look after yourself and find your center again. The world is really crazy right now but mine is better for having you in it; I've been going through some awful stuff but you and your pattern hauls make it better! When I sew my new Butterick 1299 I'm going to put well wishes for you in every stitch.

take care of yourself, Angela, we love you

I am interested in donating my monthly fee to the Angela loves Guin fund. Does anybody know if this is possible without changing my subscription?

I truly understand, and I want you to be ok. Don’t feel pressured to get sewing done. Take your time.. I am thinking you of you and your family. Hugs from 🇨🇦.

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I'm long winded so I will start with that so you are ready for this long comment. 😂 But I just want to remind you that all of this is 500% ok. I think the decisions you made are the perfect compromise. Obviously I would love to be able to devour your content all the time I wish I could take the time to really put into everything like you do and have such high quality. But with everything going on I've been in a gigantic slump. I completely expect a lot of people to be in a similar head space. I can only imagine what you are going through with your sweet like guen (hope I spelled that right?) I know to some people without pets they are just a pet but to each of us with a pet it's devastating if anything ever happens. I really hope you can get everything figured out and I am just so glad she's not in pain. But that poor baby I literally hate when pets are feeling yucky because they can't understand. It hurts my heart. But take your time and do what you need to do. If you need to chill and just watch trash tv for a little while you do that. I absolutely love your content but I want you to feel good and ready before putting things out instead of wearing yourself down just to give us content. Give that sweet puppo a good snuggle for me.

Angela, listening to you talk about Guin made my heart lurch with pain and sympathy. I lost my dog Barbie a year ago: one day she was fine, the next day we were at the emergency vet and she was never coming home again. She was in an oxygen cage because she couldn't breathe on her own. A few days later, she went downhill even more and my husband and I made the heart-wrenching decision to put her to sleep. I became suicidal after losing her; she was my child. My mother died from a stroke in February 2019 and Barbie got me through that loss, then I lost Barbie in July of that same year. I cried and mourned her more than I did my own mother. She was everything to me. I went to an outpatient psychiatric program for a month (luckily, my supervisor is also my friend of 15 years), and I went to therapy twice a week for months. Every session was about trying to find a reason why I should keep living. It's been over a year and with a lot of therapy (a LOT, I have weekly sessions), I feel ready to risk my heart again and am open to loving another dog. But I still feel guilty, like I'm betraying Barbie in some way. I really hope you are still seeing a therapist, not just a psychologist who--in my experience--focuses only on meds. Please, please find a therapist because you are going to need someone to help you through the coming months. I'm very worried about your mental health and you need a professional to get you through this. I got a huge tattoo of Barbie's face on my thigh, so she is with me for the rest of my life. It ended up being a part of my grieving process (not suggesting you do this!). And for the love of God, it is perfectly okay to have personal problems right now! Stop apologizing for your feelings, Angela. The world may be in the toilet, but that doesn't stop people from having bad things happen to them personally, and it definitely does NOT diminish how those bad things make you feel. You are facing a terrible loss, and the world can go to hell and you'll STILL be facing a terrible loss. Your life is like no one else's life, and you have every right to be upset and depressed. Don't marginalize yourself during this very difficult time.

You are an empath. There is nothing wrong with that. As you age and mature you will find ways keep it from impacting you so much. That being said losing a pet is crushing. You are allowed to be affected by it. Last year I was a week from submitting my CapStone when our old dog took a health nose dive. We ended up having to let her go. I paid for an extension because I could not make myself write cohesively. All of my research was finished I had all but 5-7 pages left but just couldn’t. Self care...nothing wrong with it. ♥️

Hi Angela Im sorry to hear about Gwen and that you’ve been struggling with mental health but am glad to hear you’re taking the time you need. Take care of yourself first! You deserve to be happy and healthy just as much as the rest of us <3 I also wanted to say that pain is not a competition. Just because someone else has more problems does not invalidate the issues you’re facing. How you feel is valid. I know that this is much easier to write than it is to internalize it (this is partly me telling this to myself lol, by the sound of it Ive been going through something very similar) but hopefully this helped a little bit. (Also Im loving all the vintage pattern content, although it may be spurring on my desire to buy alllllllll the patterns now lol)

Wow Angela. What a great video. I am always appreciated your courage to talk about your depression. That has been big reason I felt connected to your channel all these years. And have been happy to support you on Patreon the last few months. I’ve been praying for you these last months knowing how hard it been for me I could image. Praying for you doggo and your family as you journey through her illness. Looking forward to what you put out next and I loved your pattern haul video.

I feel you. 2020 has been a dumpster fire. Don't be so hard on yourself. I'm struggling with depression too. I'm in California and although the fires got very close to us (I could see flames in the hills at night) they have moved away. The smoke has been unbearable. No worries. Take care of yourself. Hug your pupper. I hope things go up from here. Hugs to you. ❤️

oh angela i bought two of your patterns from the lots. would you like to see the mock ups once im done them?

This has been a rough year for so many, I think we all need to not be too hard on ourselves! <3 Sending best wishes for your pup.

My sympathies for your dog. They love unconditionally... and are greatly missed.

I'm so sorry you are going through this emotional pain. I hope you know that it is reasonable that you are experiencing this depression and fear. Life is difficult now and there is reason to fear. A virus that has killed so many is to be feared. Citizen unrest in our Country right now, does make us fearful of what will happen to our Country as a whole. Hang on to the fact that we have a strong Constitution that will be upheld by the Courts, that justice will prevail. We have the right to vote and we will soon. I get scared as well. I have PTSD and all of the upheaval has effected me as well, so I can empathize with you. We lost our dog Chief in February and are still grieving his transition. I will be praying for Gwen and your family.

I hate that you are sad, and I am so sorry to hear about Gwenevier (not sure how to spell it). Hugs Angela, any content from you is good. I look forward to future videos. I love your hair.

Angela dear!! I so wish you would bill me anyway so that I could help float you through these challenges. Your sweet puppy girl brightens all of our lives--mine especially since I don't have a puppy friend at the moment. Gwen is a family member and objectively adorable. Please take what you need for you--we <3 you and will be here whenever you're ready to get back to us. xoxoxoxoxo

I'm rooting for you and Gwen <3 I lost my sweet boy in April and this quarantine (while understandable and necessary) made it so much harder. All my love and thoughts to her and to you.

Relationships with a pet can be more personal and immediate than with people because animals love unconditionally. Your fear and grief is valid. I have been there and know how hard it is to lose your pet. I cried so hard when my cat had to be put down the vet was crying with me. It is a real loss and a grief is inevitable. I wish you equal happiness with another pet sometime in the future.

I feel you, girl

Sending all the love in the world for you and qwen, its hard. Btw i love your hair color.

Praying for Gwen. <3