Chapter 3, Part 1
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I luv it and im feelin so saad
the angel looks like jay…
I have no word to describe how much i love the art! Evry shene the faces the story the chars worth my aduld money 😱🤌✨️
« Angels have pink hair, i had no idea »
i’m crying sam’s “😛😛” at the pic of adil
Enjoy your guy he said
i just realized did jay tell sam not to call him for a couple of days because he was going to kill himself 🥲🥲
I pay for crying wtf 😭
Adil is so expressive like I would use him as a reaction image 😂
adil is so dust bowl 😿
THE ANGEL BEING PINK IM IN TEARS
adil looks so shook at the end lol ,, his dad is so mean :((
the effect on jay’s phone screen is so cool omg so talented
they r the sweetest
What nationality is he? I'm so curious. I never thought about him being anything other than american. woah. a whole new world.
Adil is from Kazakhstan and Jay is Polish
Please publish this 😭 I will buy it I promise
nooo my baby adil
AHHH I LIVE THEM SO MUUUCH
GAAHHH I LOVE THIS!!!! SO HAPPY TO KEEP SEEING THESE UPDATES :DD
Idk if I'm imagining it but Jay looks a little thinner here compared to the present. I kinda see it as a sign his mental health improved after he befriended adil or something
Coming back from another doomscroll of all your posts and I just noticed thats the same drawing as the one when we see how Adil got his scar😩😩
Adil hugging the blanket while he sleeps implies he is a cuddler/destined to enjoy being the big spoon but I think it’s cuter if he still cuddles blankets in his sleep but gets to be the little spoon too 🥹
Can’t believe Adil was fated to fall in love w/ Jay 🥹
SAMMM!!! SAM YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE GRAVITY OF THE SITUATION!!!! SAAAAAMMMM 💥💥💥💥💥
“So what you’re the top” brah I’m dead
Right like shut up?????💀💀💀
THAT LAST PANEL OOH
The quality is always amazing. I'm impressed every single time!!
OH HE LIKES THE PINK PINK EVER SINCE. ALso Jay, god bless you and your redbull cans.
He must've been really tired and sleepy, to have drunk that many energy drink cans 🥺
I hope you know just how much they mean to me
stuck switching between the night and day panel like it’s crack
Adil looks like a sweet cherub in the day panel with his rosy cheeks and sleeping face UGH I CAN'T STOP LOOKING AT IT
bro the paper texture and water effects are so good not to mention the phone screen looking so real❤️🩹 sasha youre a genius ily
I LOVE that you put moiré effects on the phone screen, it creates such a unique realistic feeling
their face at the end xdd
I love Jay’s expression!!
OMG
Jay me representa con tanto redbull KADHSK
angel drawing looks like jay😭
the several red bulls on jay’s desk are killing me omg
Poor Jay drinking the three energy drinks to stay up all night
Sam telling him to enjoy him night and Jay pulling an all nighter 😭 And Adil's painting 🥹 it looks like Jay
Adil's got his angel now 🩷
Oh Sasha this looks so beautiful!!!! The colors the style everything the details, amazing. Masterpiece🙏🏻🍾🫰🏻🪄
mybabiesuhghuthgiprejdsk
Love them so much
Ah!! I love this episode😭❤️🩹 the expressions in this one god they are so precious to me
Lol startled Jay on his laptop clearly having not slept at all is such a mood. I honestly don’t think I have seen anyone nail every single facial expression this well in my life, your attention to detail is crazy idk how you work so fast.
the pink in his palette being all used up… ohhh adil i will protect you forever
his favorite color 😭😭😭
the pink angel STOPPPP 😭 Sam's "😛😛😛😛😛" to Adil's pic is so stupid god i love Sam so muchhhh 😂 this story is JAIL and I never want to leave, thank you very much 🫰
thank you!!!!!
bro hell yea this update is just what i needed rn! this is SO good🙏🙏🙏🌚🌚🤗🤗💗
literally same😭🙂↕️🫶
Лялечки💔💔
My God, how beautifully drawn🙌🙌
thank you!!!!!
jay being his pink angel💔
yess 😭
The expression ❤️❤️❤️
Omg the start of chapter three!!!! I’m so excited!
patreon won't show me this chapter i am having withdrawals please load the chapter patreon I'm begging
май шейлаааааас!!!
МОЇ ХОРОШІ😭
the pink watercolor is all used up omgggggg
Omg Jay is such an angel, he is Adil’s angel who saves him in so many ways omg😭
Adil predicted his own future as a kid haha
Sam: 😛😛😛😛
It must've been a cultural shock for Adil seeing a DUDE with PINK hair that can still be masculine while his dad is there being a closed minded sore loser
yes!!!!
the colours and the facial expressions are especially incredible in this chapter wowww
thank you so much!!!!
Sam is so uncaring, I just know Adil would never act like that
I don't think he's "uncaring" per say, maybe just unaware. He seemed to genuinely care and would've dropped everything in an instant to help (even if the "everything" is just sleep). That doesn't seem like someone who doesn't care, besides, wasn't he the one to help Jay through his depression after everything? I think in this situation he just figured Jay was finally letting himself be active again, which would be a relief, a sign of healthy growth.
SASHA THE COLORS ARE JUST INCREDIBLE. I love these two, they make me both worry for them and giggle at the same time. You are an incredible artist who I really want to emulate both in terms of artistic and writing skills
thank you so much!!! omg I was actually stressing so much about the color haha, because I can’t tell if my new monitor shows the colors accurately or not. but I’m really happy if everything looks good, thank you!!!!
Thank you for existing Sasha and for creating this wonderful comic. 🙏💗💗💗
thank you so much!!!!!!!!
SAM XD
Omg how every little thing in your instagram is relating to the chapters AHH like his angle is pink!?! And he’s drawing with a kid later
🥺♥️ Adil my baby
THE ANGEL LOOKING LIKE JAY 💔💔💔 HIS DAD BEING A POS 💔💔💔💔 JAY CALLING HIM HUGE NOW BUT SAID “he’s just a little guy” WHEN SAM FIRST ACTUALLY MET HIM 💔💔💔💔 OUGGUYSHSHD MT GOD SASHAAAAAAA GOD EVERY CHAPTER YOU HURT ME IN THE BEST WAAYYYY
beautiful chapter 💗
thank you!!!!
Sam I am begging you oh my God
Adil crying has just destroyed me I think.
Im sorry I know its a serious part in the story but adil and jays faces in the last panel are killing me 😂😂 they are so cute and comical 💜
The lighting in this chapter is a masterpiece on itself ✨✨✨✨✨
дякую💚
Hey so I'ma go and jump bcs this is SAD give my babies a rainbow shiny life plz
Sasha how do you draw phones so well like what is the overlay that makes it look like an actual phone screen and all glowy😭🙏🏾🙏🏾 this is amazing
I’m adding a screen texture on top! It’s actually pretty simple, I’ll try to show how it’s done
AH! THABK YOU BURGER KING! THIS IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED! A PICKLE AT THE TOP OF MY BURGER!!! thabk you sasha for another post
“you’re the top” HELLO? 😭😭
Sam! That situation is so serious and you're so chill 😩 but we know more than him so can't complain too much 😔 Also Adil's reaction in the morning like "what happened? Who am I?" 😂
pretty pink angel :)
ALSO when Sam said Jay first told him not to call for a couple days, was it because before from what we have seen, he was making sure no one would disturb him as he tried to commit (with the jar of pills)??? :(
BEAUTIFUL OMGGGGGG. I'm calling this Adil manifesting jay into his life lmao. And augh his dad, just want to hug Adil forever
Sam my brother in Christ, try and read the room man. “enjoy your man” HE IS SCARED
I hate to see both of them so broken. This is personal now, I need them to be happy! We already know parts of their journey, I hope that in the end both find peace ♡
Oh my godits beautiful
Ля прекрасно
So what you’re the top 🫦
RARARARARARARARARARRARA I love the hunchback Jay in the morning but also gosh, he did not sleep at all, did he? 😀
So many details in such simple lines
I LOBE THEEEMMMMM. Also, when will you have commissions open? Should I DM for prices if I can?
Omg so beautiful 😭
Masculinity so toxic, his son’s mythical angel can’t even be pink 😤😤😡😡
Adils papa is very traditional right? It will be hard for them reach an agreement 🥲btw I like jay and Sam friendship. Thank you Sasha for the chapter ❤️🩹
Yeah, he’s very old-fashioned, unfortunately Thank you so much!!
dude the details that you put in your art are truly amazing, I stay mesmerized every time I admire your work sm
thank you so much!!!
aww Adil's flush cheeks 🥺🎀🌸
The insane amount of caffeine Jay is consuming!!
the lighting in this entire thing is sooooo beautiful omg
thank you!!!
Is it me, or does Adil hugs the sheets almost like he's cuddling with someone. It makes me feel he might thought that it was Jay for a moment, judging by the way he panicked when he woke up
I think that thought might have crossed his mind hahaha Mostly, he got scared because he fell asleep thinking he couldn’t move or take up too much space, since Jay had told him not to touch him (Adil thought he meant not to disturb Jay’s sleep lmao) And then, waking up, he realized he was way too comfortable, he wasn’t even on the edge of the bed, and he’d taken the blanket that he was hugging
THE LAST PANEL WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
"so what, you're the top" haha 😭
I love how you can convey so much with your expressions, it's super inspiring!! ❤️❤️
Excellent 🥺
🥹💛💛💛💛💛
ALSO SASHA!!! I ABSOLUTELY *LOOOOOVE* THE WAY IN ADIL'S NIGHTMARE THAT THE BACKGROUND IS COMPLETELY GRAY/BLACK BESIDES THE TABLE AND THINGS. I DONT KNOW IF YOU INTENTIONALLY DID THAT TO SIGNIFY IT BEING A DREAM BUT ITS SUCH A GOOD DETAIL AND REALLY SELLS HOW IN NIGHTMARES AND DREAMS SOME THINGS ARE SO VIVID WHILE OTHER UNIMPORTANT DETAILS AROUND YOU TEND TO BE MUDDLED OR INCOMPREHENSIVE <3333
thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!
YAAAY!!! NEW CHAPTER
jay is his angel 🥹
yesss 😭😭
Okay but......Jay Was making pill soup earlier, no?
yep
THE WAY HE BOLTS UP LIKE A BABY DEER BRO 😭😭😭😭😭
i hope the colour pink will be in adils life for forever
I think he’s hoping for that too 😭😭😭
Sam has Jay’s mom’s number? Were they close when he was with Jay, do they still talk to each other after everything? That’s be so wholesome.
Yes! He has her number, but I don’t think they really talk They weren’t close, and Jay’s mom wasn’t too happy that he was hanging out with him, but she was always kind to Sam anyway, especially after she found out he grew up with his grandfather and without parents They exchanged numbers because she thought it would be easier to reach Jay and just find him in general lol, since Sam always knows where he is (usually near Sam)
I can't begin to explain what every updates does to me. 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️
🥹💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛
my loves
Wow, I love how the art style of the nightmare is so sharp & looks like it’s lit by neon bulbs. Definitely adds to the “other world” feeling of it not being reality.
thank you!!!!!🥹💛💛
"first you told me not to call you for a couple days" oh okay.
It's "if you're planning something" for me, as we know now that he actually was 💔 And that Sam just knew that something was wrong
Jay crouching over Adil looks like he thought it was another medical emergency 💔 On the other hand Adil's father looks like he's very strict, and I wondered if it's just a first child syndrome? Is he be a different father to Adil's brother? It seems like such a complex family dynamic tbh
No it's deff not "just" first child syndrome since his dad works in illicit business. On top of that, Adil's brother has cancer(I think so?) which most likely makes him put more pressure on Adil because 1. He has to take over the business 2. He will also have to provide and take care of his brother when the time of his dad has come Also his dad cannot afford mistakes/holes in his line of work lol High risk, high reward 🤷♀️ We haven't seen much of the fam dynamic tho can't wait to see more
AHHHH. I scream.
im ugly crying
jay aka the most kindhearted angel (confirmed) on earth is just too much for me. especially with the knowledge of adils past??? he’s just a baby?? leave him alone☹️
I love how you draw Jay at the end, in a way that it's just so obvious from the first glance that he hasn't slept at all that night. Also, it's killing me how excited and supportive Sam is that Jay might slept with someone or maybe even got a boyfriend, just completely unaware of why Jay is actually texting him about it. Or maybe he's just joking but like still
Sam worries about Jay and fears he might hurt himself or do something to himself He feels uneasy being away from him, even though Sams grandfather is supposed to be around and Jay seems somewhat under control, but that’s not enough So finding out that Jay might be in a relationship, or at least interested in one and will spend at least one night with someone, is pretty relieving for Sam
the stuff adil had to go through is so painful knowing that hes just a massive sweetheart. i hope one day he can leave it all behind ☹️☹️☹️
Ughh adils dad gets on my nerves so muchhh
Love
Sam’s like- just have fun and Jay’s in bed with some random thug 0_о
They both have gone through a lot, kinda hard to watch but I’m so exited to finally see them together. Can’t wait to see them connect and find some peace in one another❤️❤️❤️
Guys I know that Adil’s dad is a complex character who is significantly less evil than the spawn of Satan that is Chris but everytime there’s an update that includes him it makes me hate him more
yeah but keep in mind that very often these are just Adil’s nightmares featuring his dad, not real flashbacks, so his dad is portrayed in an exaggerated way
Not gonna lie I laughed hard in this one (even though the beginning is indeed sad)
How often does bro get nightmares jeeeez. Not even a comfy bed can give him good sleep 💔
Every night, actually Adil has major sleep problems, and I think his mental state is pretty fragile, which is why he breaks down in tears so often without any real reason
The way every panel hurts. Except the one where Adil’s face is all relaxed sleeping on a pillow that smells of Jay 😌😴 Wish they could live in happy dreamland together. I bet there are angels there and that your pink water colours never run out.
Sam being in jays phone as “landlordskid” is killing me lol
“Landlords kid” SOOONNN IM CRINE
Adil is so talented wtf the kid just mastered watercolor at the age of like idk 6 IT'S ONE OF THE HARDEST MEDIUMS OUT THERE man deep respect for my fellow artist 🫂
This is so freaking gooddd, i think i love you 😗 muack
thank you!!!!
Need to ingest sleeping Adil expeditiously he’s so cute
SAM'S REACTION TO ADIL'S PIC I'M SOBBING
I still adore how jay and sam kept their relationship after breaking up, they care for each other
THE TEXTS?? LMAO???
Oh Sam...that's not what he meant🥲
"So what, you're the top" sam is so funny i hope he never goes bald
He really didn’t get what Jay meant when he said “he’s huge” lmao
This was longer ,I love that ! Thank you ☺️! They are precious. I crave more !
thank you!!!
His dad really is a piece of work.... dont know what his mom saw in him
He changed a lot after she died
Jays face at the end!!
jay clinging to life with redbud and his 2sec of rest 💔💔 I'm glad he take care of Adil tho even if he's scared
He didnt sleep both from discomfort + being unnverved seeing adil so distraught damnnn
Every single frame is so peak 😭😭😭
AU where nothing bad ever happened to them and they’re both happy
Jay is such a caring person
"so what u're the top" 😭😭 and also jay not saying he's doesn't have a bf I know what you are
“angels have pink hair.. i had no idea”
Jay is his angel omg, I wonder if he remembers that
his dad probably wants the best for him since the moms death but it's hurting so hard to see him being so mean 💔
Samdil crumbs
I can't with them-
jay pink long hair angel 🤍
😛😛😛😛😛😛😛
I was feeling down but when i saw the notification i immediately felt better🩷 thank you sasha💟
🥹💛💛💛💛💛
Didn't take Sam for a guy who uses emojis, gotta love him
AWWW HIS PINK ANGEL 🥹🥹🥹❤️🩹❤️🩹
Meu Deus esse coitado so toma no cu incrível
This might be one of my favorite chapter parts!! Has adil actually physically hurt anyone like that? Or is it just the nightmare
Thank you!!! No, it’s more like his nightmare because he’s really afraid it might actually happen someday It’s his biggest fear, that he could one day kill someone or do something like that
I need more. God i cant get enough of them
Adil flashback!!! Ahahhavah
Wow!! Як гарно😍😍
дуже дякую!!!
ugh. lovely as always
thank you!!!
Omg omg omg omg!!
oouuuggg sam was so worried 😭😭 my babies😭
Jay is da real angel here 💔💔💔
OMG FINALLY 🫢
AUGHH, another amazing post, thank you so much for all the art you do!!
thank you!!!! 🥹💛💛💛💛💛
NEW CHAPTER YAYYY. Adil dad PISS ME OFF. and Sam, that is NOT what Jay meant 🤦🏾♀️💀.Jay couldn’t even sleep and I honestly don’t blame him. Meanwhile Adil looks like he was having nightmares :/
Yeess! 🩷
MY POOR SLEEPLESS JAY 😭😭
Omg, I love them 😭🫶
MY SHAYLASSSSS, MY BABIESSSSSSSS!!!!!
Has adil been forced to acrually kill someone?? I'm so curious now omg
Luckily, no, he was just learning to shoot, and his dad told him that he might one day need to protect the family or something like that, and that this skill would come in handy Adil is terrified of murder and violence, so he often has nightmares about the possibility of becoming a killer
mama me want more😔😔😔
Cuuuute
THASSS RIGT
Everytime we get a glance into adil’s childhood it really just makes me want to take care of him more and more. Like that’s my baby right there :( beautiful chapter as always
thank you!!!
😭
sam is so real😛😛😛😛😛
😭😭he always loved pink
He's so precious please his sleepy face😭💗
babydil my shayla 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
he didnt even sleep omg
everytime u post im at work, and i go “YIPEE PATREON UPDATE” and my manager tells me to take it outside. worth it
SAM’S FREAKY EMOJIS LMFAOOOOO he’s so real tho(so what, you’re the top💅)
“you said not to call you for a couple days” OUUUGHHHH 😭😭 he really was gonna end it AUUUGHFH let them be happy pls 💔💔
yes 😭😭😭
And the way even as a kid adil thought that pink was a pretty color and then met jay oml I'm gonna cry stop
Oh Aldi looks so cozy in the morning! Poor Jay though, look at these eyes xD
The contrast between the pink paint on his hands to the blood oh my heart 😭😭💔💔
I hate his father omg
I have a REALLY bitter feeling about Sam, I’m sorry.
SO GOOD
The pink angel broke me. I saw them in the autism post and now... Oh my god. Such beautiful work.
Amazing show stopping spectacular never before seen
<3
Even though jay is scared he still seemed concerned when adil started crying on his sleep I'm gonna cry
AHHHHH
sam and jay acting like friends after being together is so healing
SASHA SAVE ME
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Sam’s texts 😭
The red bulls HAHAH. Jay's face is so funny, but I get it.
AWHHHH
The colors are so good omg, just simple parts look so good
AW THE PINK ANGEL IS LIKE JAYY
OMG THESE FRIGGING CHARACTERS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
It's so funny how you post when I'm having a shitty day and crying. Thank you Sasha ❤️😭
🥹💛💛💛💛💛
YES I HAVE BEEN FEED, SO YYUMMY SO GOOD
His angel :(
I need a job again to continue paying for peak
BEST NIGHT PRESENTTTT
NEW CHAPTER RIGHT B4 MY BDAY???? 🥳 best gift ever
Hrgrhrhhh I love them
pink was always in his life 🫠🫠🫠
YYEEEESSS
LETSS GOO
AHAHAHHAHAHA ILYY
CHAPTER 3 ALREADY WOOO
AAAAA