Hey everyone,

First of all, I want to apologize for how quiet Patreon has been over the past two months. I know many of you are supporting me because you enjoy my work, and going this long without properly uploading or explaining what has been happening isn’t something I feel great about. I don’t want to worry y’all, but I think I gotta be transparent now

I tried my best to keep this statement sound as neutral as possible without making it too depressing and too long or turning it into some generic “ChatGPT, make me an apology statement for my Patrons” yapping session

(TL;DR at the bottom page if you hate reading wall of text yapping)

1. MAIN REASON FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES

The main reason is simply that I'm so fucking tired. Yeah, I know y'all kept seeing these aww poor goober content creators posting about these "boohoo im shooo tired womp womp so saaad" things everywhere by now. But in all honesty, I'm that goober right now. Physically, I’m doing alright. Mentally, however, I’ve been completely wrecked for months now, probably since the beginning of this year, and I don’t think I can keep pushing myself like this anymore, where it also affecting the quality of my drawings as well

For over a year now since June 2025, I’ve been working roughly from 9 AM to 7 PM while also running a small business with friends. Some days I don’t get home until around 9 PM. I only have a small window left to draw, relax, or do anything for myself before I need to sleep and start everything again the next morning. I can’t force myself to stay up late until 3-4 AM anymore without me becoming a cranky dorky zombie in the next morning
(In case you’re wondering about my profession, I work full-time as an In-house Legal Counsel for a tech company, and also run a food business chain as co-founder)

I do genuinely still enjoy drawing, doing commissions and stuff. Drawing still bring me joy in my boring chud life. Bringing my own ideas and other people’s ideas to life by drawing is really fun to me, but currently I’m juggling 3 different jobs at the same time; corporate Legal Counsel, Entrepreneur and Art if I consider this art hobby thing to be as a career. That’s just too much to handle on a daily basis that it left me exhausted by the end of the day, leaving me with barely any energy to do anything else once I’m back home.

The fatigue carried until weekends where I ended up doing nothing basically. Earlier this year, I can force my body to fight through the fatigue but lately, it getting harder. I can still work on commissions and drawing, but it may trade with my time from other things too

I’m still going to draw and upload artwork, just at a much slower pace whenever I got the time 'cuz obviously I'm not that busy everyday all the time. I’m not quitting art, Patreon, or anything like that (yet)

If you're currently subscribing mainly because you expect frequent posts, especially NSFW artworks, or to commission me,

I highly recommend that you unsubscribe and go support other artists instead

I probably won’t stop drawing NSFW anytime soon ‘cuz I lowkirkenuinely enjoy drawing NSFW for sure, especially if I’m drawing NSFW of me with your mom--wait what? I mean I will still draw NSFW content but don’t expect to see it that often

And to be completely transparent, I miiiight eventually stop drawing NSFW altogether in the future once I have a clearer idea of what I want to do with my life. I still enjoy NSFW stuff, but I don’t think I want to make NSFW contents all the time and get mainly known for that

I don’t really want to become a full-time online artist who relies on NSFW to make a living. There’s nothing wrong with doing that, of course. It’s just not the life I want for myself.
I just can’t imagine myself spending my whole life drawing ass and titties to survive

Anyway, please don’t feel obligated to continue paying while waiting for me to become more active again. I would much rather you keep that money, or use it to support another artist who currently needs the financial support more than I do.
Financially, I’m doing good, and Patreon money mostly goes toward savings for my future studies anyway. It just that I don’t have much free time anymore to post frequently as I used to

If you are subscribing simply because you enjoy my work and want to support me financially regardless of how often I upload, then I appreciate that enormously, but please only stay subscribed if you genuinely want to and not because you feel bad for me. I’m a grown-ass man with pubes thick as forest

The plans for the Buddy Boy and MrPeepee tiers are still ongoing, so I’m not abandoning those tiers or the things I’ve planned for them. They may simply move at a slower pace while I get myself back into a healthier routine.

2. REGARDING COMMISSIONS

For now, I’m going to finish all of my current commission slots and take a break from actively accepting commissions for a while. I’ll PROBABLY reopen commissions publicly again sometime end of this year or around next year when I have more room to handle them properly

When commissions return, they will be available publicly again rather than being primarily tied to Discord or Patreon availability. For now, commissions will only be reserved for Buddy Boy and MrPeepee tiers in a form of rewards instead. Patreon membership commission discounts will still remain, so members will continue receiving their discounts whenever commissions reopen

But again, the public commissions may not return until next year or, to be honest, may never return, but you can still message me directly instead if you really want one

What I mean by that is that I still technically kinda accepting commission. However, I will not show any slots anywhere anymore and you gotta message me directly instead to see if I'm available to do it. Most of the time, like 80% of the time, I will probably decline but it also depends on the idea. If it's simple enough that I can do it quickly or I'm very interested that it makes my brain go YIPPEE then I will probably accept it if I’m free that time
(I like thicc booty) WHO SAID THAT?!

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...Must've been the wind

3. CLOSING DISCORD SERVER

Due to everything going on, I’ve deleted my Discord Server. Was planning to just put it on lockdown, but it's gonna be years long so I think it better to just delete it and start from scratch again in the not-so-near future when i feel like it

I simply don’t have the mental capacity, tolerance and energy right now to properly manage a community on top of work, running a business, drawing, personal life, and everything else. I feel bad just leaving it there without me actually managing it and letting other people do it instead

For the foreseeable future, Patreon will become the main place where I post my "exclusive" artworks and longer updates

4. UNIVERSITY STUDY PLAN

This one actually sparked from the thought of me not wanting to be a full-time a online artist once I quit my IRL job ‘cuz I don’t like either option; I don’t like my job but I also don’t want to be a full-time online artist. I’m an annoying picky bitch, I know

I’ve been thinking about this for very long time now and a growing feeling that I want to become a student again one last time and pursue a game development programme; I do want to make my own game one day

My current plan is to return to university sometime around the middle or end of next year. I’m currently considering two very different paths: pursuing a Bachelor’s degree in Game Development, or continuing my existing academic path by getting a Master of Laws degree instead. So, now I'm currently saving my money to continue my studies without having to get a student loan

Game development is the direction I’m currently most interested in pursuing, so I’m planning to spend much of the coming months doing my own stuff. If I’m able to qualify for the Game Development Bachelor’s programme, that’s the path I’m hoping to pursue. (Also, the idea of a corporate legal counsel randomly become a game dev student kinda funny to me)

If that doesn’t work out and I dont pass the Bachelor's entry requirements, I’ll most likely continue by getting a Master of Laws instead. If I end up pursuing a Master of Laws, I’ll probably retire from art, close my Patreon and art social media accounts, and fully focus on my legal career instead or at least goes on multi-years hiatus

Either way, going back to studying is something I genuinely want to do at this point in my life. I miss being an idiot with zero responsibility who still procrastinate my assignments and then blames lecturers for giving us an “unreasonably short deadline” despite them giving us perfectly reasonable amount of time

Before you say "You dont need a degree to work in creative industry or to make your own indie game--" or “Art school is scam! Don’t go!”; I know. I just miss being stupid student and I want to feel like a goober again before I reach 30 years old and become unc

But again, this is just a plan. It can easily change next year, and I’ll probably figure out alternative plan and things to do later. For now, this is my current plan as I genuinely want to go back study later next year

5. CONCLUSION

And lastly, I want to say thank you. Especially to those of you who continued supporting me for a long time and during these past two quiet months despite me barely posting anything. I genuinely appreciate your patience and support

There are other matters that I didn’t write here, but I’d rather kept that one private. Not everything has to be share and I honestly don’t want y’all to worry about me

I’m fine well-being-wise and I’m sorry that if I come across like a Debbie Downer and disappeared without giving everyone a proper explanation sooner. I’m just extremely fucking tired and I can’t keep pushing myself like this anymore. Physically 26, mentally unc

I’m not quitting art or disappearing. I’m just tired and want to focus on myself for a while. If I eventually choose the Master of Laws degree, that'll be when I probably officially retire from art, or at least close Patreon and post once in a blue moon randomly on Twitter and multi-years hiatus

For now, I want to work, rest, study, practice Blender and Unity, draw whenever I actually have the energy and inspiration to do so, and slowly figure out where I want the next part of my life to go

AGAIN, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT ME PLEASE. I'm doing fine. I'm just, again, simply really tired and need to rethink my approach for my online presence

Stay if you dont mind rare post uploads and want to help fund for my university studies next year. If you are here for gooning material for your private meat beating session, then dont expect to get that materials often. Go support other full-time NSFW artists instead

Thank you for reading my yapping, I will resume uploading again soon and please take care of yourselves too

TL;DR for people whose attention span already got air fried by TikTok/Twitter:

• I’m not quitting art right now, I’m just mentally exhausted from juggling a full-time legal job, running a business, art stuff all at once.

• Patreon uploads are going to become much slower and less consistent, including NSFW content. I’ll draw and post whenever I actually have the energy and feel like it.

• If you’re subscribed mainly for frequent posts, NSFW content, or commissions, I genuinely recommend unsubscribing and keeping your money or supporting another artist who needs it more.

• The Buddy Boy and MrPeepee tier plans are still ongoing, just at a slower pace.

• I’m finishing my current commissions, then I’m basically taking a break from publicly advertising slots. Public commissions will probably return end of this year, next year or never. You can still DM me directly, but there’s a very high chance I’ll say no unless the idea interests me and I have time.

• I've deleted the server because I don’t have the energy to manage it properly. Patreon will be my main place for art and updates until then.

• I’m planning to return to university next year. My preferred route is a Bachelor’s in Game Development

• If Game Development doesn’t work out, I’ll probably pursue a Master of Laws instead. If I choose that route, that’ll probably be when I retire from art, close Patreon and my art accounts, and focus fully on my legal career

• Basically: I’m okay, just tired as fuck. I’m slowing everything down, and figuring out what I actually want to do next