I'm fine, kinda
Hey everyone, I'm terribly sorry I've been absent for so long worrying everyone. So I decided to come clear.
I'm going to be very honest. I'm still not doing good, my mental health has been awful lately and I'm spiraling down a vicious cycle of deep depression, anxiety, substance abuse, malnutrition, multiple hospital trips, psychosis, morbid thoughts and interests, etc. So yeah... it's been rough and it still is.
But know I try to get out of this shit I put myself into. I have therapists, doctors and will soon go to a private mental health clinic. So I have hopes I can see the end of it all one day.
Now, when it comes to Axyn. I decided to move my fucking lazy ass and try at least to do something instead of slowly dying. So I'll try my best to work on the project no matter how painful and hard it is.
I'm sorry I made everyone worry, I hope I can get this sorted and I hope I can continue to spread my love of making video games and finish Axyn. I love this project, I love you all and I want to see through it all.
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While I get working on a project you love helps distract you from things, do take it slow, go too fast and you’re liable to burn yourself out, make sure to stay hydrated and have some nice safe stress relief whenever you can, while I may not have known you long, doesn’t mean I cant show that I care, so please, take it slow
Dude, take your time and get well.
Saw you reposting stuff on Bluesky, wanted to say that I'm glad to see you're still in one piece.
Please take time to take care of yourself. I hope you can get better and update about your current status soon.
Pls just try to improve your mental health. We value your work but we value your life even more. Talk to friends, family or even work colleague or mental health specialists. You will get better im sure. I wish you the best. <3
How ya doin Shin? Been a bit since we had an update (on your health or the game). Still chugging along?
I really hope you're feeling better. You def don't deserve the pain you're currently in. You're an amazing person and an amazing game maker.
Life is harsh, I hope our best wishes would make you feel better. The game represent your inner self, and considering the game is beutiful itself, you yourself are an incredible person, keep pushing when you think it's needed and relax when you think you need it.
your work is amazing i know life can be hard, take time to take care of yourself and heal you got this :)
I don't mean to presume, but if you wanna chat about your problems I'd love to talk to you! I think Axyn Adventure is awesome and would love to hype you up about it, if nothing else!
Hey, your work is lovely but you don't owe anyone anything. You deserve love and support! Don't feel pressured to speed up just because capitalism demands so much from lovely creators like you. LMK if you need a friend <3
Thanks for everything you do, stay safe!
While I want to say "don't push yourself" sometimes pushing is the best option. Especially where mental health is concerned. I will say ; Take care of yourself first. You could think of it like this, continuing the game not only serves as a distraction and a "push" but you're also filling other people's time with enjoyment, that is something worth taking pride in.
Work on it if you think that will help, but do what you've gotta, man. Take care of yourself.
it's worrying hearing about all the problems going on, but my point from the last post still stands, what's important is you're recovering and getting the help you need, you won't be able to do anything if your problems are out of control, game or no game
Heey man take your time with whatever you need and if you need help with the project im sure there are people in the community that would love to help for free. but most importantly hang in there and we will be waiting for the healthier you to make your wonderful return.
Dude the game can wait make sure you are okay first and I'm sure if you need someone any one of us would be happy to lend an ear
Man fuck that game we ain't worried about that, we worried about you. some of us thought you were.........well you know. Anyways be lazy and take your time, we just happy you alive. We understand you going through a lot, so do what's needed and be safe. We wish you a full recovery.
So sorry to hear this, I've had similar rough times in my life and they're so hard to get through. I hope you have a lot of love and support, at least here. Know we're all routing for you!
Take care of yourself first ❤️
Happy to have of yours news even if its one worryng me and the others still (at least your gonna to receive help to heal yourself) everyday i was hoping to have your news and that day happen (thanks god) Don't force yourself to dev please put your healt in first you will go back into dev when your gonna be fully healt (Sorry for potential bad english im still learning)
While I like the game, I'd rather you help yourself, especially if working on the game is harming your mental health this much.
awww I am so sorry to hear that from you. I hope to that you know that we are patient and no matter what we can always count on you for when you decide to add more content in Axyn. Your health is more important than that game and I say that I can speak for all of us that we believe that prioritizing your wellbeing is crucial. if we have to continue waiting (because you're going through a lot atm), so be it - just try to recover the best you can possibly get yourself to be, please!
It's ok to take breaks, don't push yourself
It's true that I'm looking forward to the games you're going to make. I was more concerned about your health than that. Take care of yourself. The games you already make will be immortalized. I'm not kidding, I'm even playing with a Korean translator on to enjoy the games on my own! :3
Put yourself before projects. Please take all the time you need to recover. I'm relieved to hear you are receiving the help you need to improve your quality of life. Stay safe and remember we are all rooting for you!
You're health is infinitely more important than a game.
I can't dare to imagine what you're going through. I am very thankful that you shared how you're doing despite the fact that so much is happening to you right now. Please prioritize your well-being in front of everything and know that you are not alone! I hope only the best for you and all goes well! Take care! :D
Honestly, I'd rather just wait for you to get better. I've tried to work on things while in a bad state of mind and I wasn't pleased with the results. Only work on Axyn if you're up to it.
Don't worry. Face the pain. This pain is no better than you. We miss you. There's so much more to come.
Forcing yourself to do anything can be counterproductive, take care of yourself before taking care of the game as you may find yourself in a different spiral if you don't like what you have done with the game in your state.
Prioritize yourself above all else. Stay in good company and don't overexert. Thanks for your update and just know that most of us can be patient when it comes to your health.
For you all the best! Your health is the most important thing, so take the time you need.
