All That I Have

I don't remember exactly when I wrote this song but it's dated 2008. I know that I was sad and angry when I wrote it. I was having problems with people and in a strange place those days - feeling very much like everything wrong inside needed to be expressed lyrically.

Once upon a time, All That I Have was going to be on an older album but then it got shelved (by me, of course, not Universal Music Group, lmao) and now it's just...there.

Every so often, when I listen to it, it takes me back to when I was trying to get better at making beats and experimenting with vocal arrangements, harmonies, etc. The opening lyric - All that I have, all that I've got, I've already given - is a state of mind I've been in so many times. Going back to childhood - there were so many times I wondered how I'd get through and felt so powerless. Sometimes a person is so tapped out, maxed out or spent that there is nothing physically, emotionally or spiritually left in the tank.

Wrote a song about it. Like to here it? Here it goes...

Happy Almost December Anomalies.

The Anomaly

All That I Have

All that I have, all that I've got, I've already given

It's so insane, I'm always the blame, there's no way around it

But tables can turn, I know that it burns, you know that I'm through with it

I'm already done, you've already won, the towel's thrown in

Makes me so sad, how you get mad and act really needy

And when it is time to walk away, you get really angry

All that you've said, all that you say is so very threatening

But under the veil, under the shell, we know that you're hurting

Do you realize that we hurt too

Do you realize that we hurt too

I remember when we used to live our lives uninhibitedly

I remember when we used to laugh all day at everything

I remember when we used to not take things so seriously

I believe that there's a part of you inside that really wants to

Change - I truly believe if you want to you could

Change - It's not so hard you can do it

Change - Everybody has the ability to rearrange their life

But here at the end you can't begin to try to face it

You thought all along everyone's wrong

It always comes to this

Now we're all gone

You are alone

Is that what you wanted?

You didn't hear wrong

You are alone

Is that what you wanted?

Is that really what you want too?

Is that really what you want too?

Is that really what you want too?

Is that really what you want too?