where i've been
Hello, everyone! So... it's been a little while and I feel like I owe you guys an explanation on where I've been.
So, first off, if I'm totally honest, my mental health is pretty shot right now. I'm not going to therapy at the moment because money is tight and it is really taking its toll on me. Honestly, I'm struggling. Even the simple things like cooking or taking a shower are getting really hard to do. I've struggled with my mental health for years now and this is just another low period for me.
Second, my house semi-flooded. Basically, there was an issue with my shower. This led to a ton of water leaking and getting my bathroom soaked. It was bad. It sucked to fix and clean up everything.
Third, my friend was in a really bad accident. He is one of my childhood best friends and was hit while riding his motorcycle. Finding this out was devastating for me. I'm so grateful he's still alive, but he's in the hospital now. I went to travel to go visit him and his mother.
And finally, my body confidence has tanked. I don't even know why it's so low right now, nothing special happened, but I feel like crap about my body. I like being chubby, it feels so much better than being skinny, but the shape right now is just making me feel bad. Getting bigger has lowkey always been a struggle for me even while doing content like this because I spent so much of my life trying to be as skinny as I could be.
Also, in terms of posting on Instagram or Twitter, I completely honestly just forget. I'm not on them very often and sometimes I genuinely just forget I have to post on them. Like, I'll hop on Instagram for maybe two minutes, like a few posts, and then not open the app again for days. Which is really just my bad, I'm trying to get better about posting on it, but I'm just so horrible at it.
Also, on a lighter note, I've managed to recover some old YouTube videos which I will be slowly posting on my YouTube channel again!
I'm sorry this whole post is so long but I felt like you all deserved an explanation. Thank you if you've read this far. Thank you so much for supporting me and my content. I honestly love posting for you. Thank you for everything and I will see you in the next post. <3<3
Comments (6)
Wishing you a speedy return to overall wellness and health. You are a beautiful girl 馃槍
I hope things get better for you and that your friend fully recovers. Hugs!!
I'm sorry that you've been going through so much! Take your time with stuff and try doing stuff that makes you feel good! I hope you're able to feel better about stuff soon. Some of the other comments say it better haha
I'm not the best when it comes to words, but I just wanted to wish you all the best during this tough time.
Wishing you all the best. Thankyou for taking the time to explain to us what's been going on. I know its really tough right now but you know things will improve. Even though the shower leak must have been awful to deal with, you said you've cleared it all and had it all repaired. That's a step in the right direction to feeling better and improving. As well as recovering those old vids. Im really sorry to hear about your friend, that must have been absolutely devastating, I'm so glad there still alive and recovering. Im sure they really appreciated you visiting them in hospital. As for feeling bad about your body, I know its tough, alot of us struggle with body imagine. But just remember, like you said, you enjoy being chubby and you know, just from how many of us pay to follow you, that your gorgeous and have an amazing figure. You'll mostly find all your negative thoughts are linked to your current mental health and the stressful situations you've been going through. And that once your out the other side you'll begin to look at your self for how beautiful you are again.
*sending you all the emotional support in the world*