With heavy heart...
I made a mistake. Or rather, a miscalculation. It's not easy to admit, but over the past week, I've found myself grappling with a heavy burden of doubt. There were moments when I was convinced I was on the right track, only to be hit by waves of uncertainty just a few hours later. The fear and self-doubt grew until they paralyzed me, sapping away the motivation that usually drives me to create.
I've been trying to push through, to fake it, to force myself into a rhythm that just isn’t there right now. The truth is, I can’t keep up the facade. What I’m facing is more serious than I initially thought. Being so close to death really scared me, and I need more time to deal with it properly.
With a heavy heart, I've decided to pause my Patreon for the next month. This decision wasn't easy. I feel incredibly guilty for not posting as often as I used to. But I also recognize that pushing myself when I’m not in the right headspace will only make things worse. Taking a break from Patreon will be one less stressor, giving me the time and space I need to recover mentally and emotionally.
I hope to return in a month with a fresh stack of works and, most importantly, a better mindset. Thank you for your understanding and support during this time. I’m grateful for this community, and I look forward to coming back stronger.
Comments (8)
I hope you get the rest you need, i am happy to know you are open and honest about it with us, i think that should be more normalized! Rest and well being before work - cos there is only one you and we cherish you, not just for your art! Youre a wonderful person and though i lurk quite a bit, i know you have a big heart and whatever break you need is earned hundreds of times over! 😊🫶🏻
Take your time madcha 🖤 Make sure to make time for yourself and your family! We will always be here when you feel called to return!
Please take care of yourself! Your health is the most important aspect above anything. It’s lovely to see your work, but we will rest easier knowing that you did it from enjoyment rather than obligation or undue exertion.
Take as much time as you need and take care of yourself. Your life should be priority, so don't feel guilty about taking the break. And I'll gladly support when you come back.
Thank you for being so supportive! 😭
Please take care. I'd rather having you into happiness and shape, rather than in danger. Please take care of yourself, as I recognize myself through your words 🙏
As a creator on this platform, I'm telling you that you should not feel guilty for taking a break. I did so too last month and I feel refreshed. The constant need to make deadlines meet can hamper creativity on the long-run so it's okay. As a creative myself i understand what you're going through because I'd been experiencing the same in the past couple of months. Please take a break and don't feel guilty about it. We'll be here to support you when you come back ❤️
Thank you 💗 it's reassuring to hear from other creator 🥺