Found the sweet spot for my body WITHOUT abusing androgens. It’s been a lot of work. I’ve experienced some libido loss but I’m hoping that improves or I may have to increase my testosterone — I still don’t regret experimenting with research compounds to get swole and have my sex drive on cloud 9 for years. I was a fucked up kid long before I started self medicating but I did the best I can and I’m smart and I’m using my brain to get myself to heal again. The drugs did something for me when I otherwise didn’t know how to cope with life . All I wanted was a balanced mood because naturally I was depressed and had trauma I couldn’t deal with