I’m sharing with all of you more things than anyone in my life knows about me. I wish nobody felt the need to have a certain body. I wish I didn’t let confusion about my masculine and feminine feelings and my bisexuality. I’ve always been ashamed of myself. Then I found opiates, this magical class of chemicals that floods your body with endorphins that block pain signals, not just in the bottom, but your emotional pain too. So imagine always being to walking around with a head full of baggage and PTSD then taking something that instantly makes you comfortable in your own skin. And during this time money was plentiful and my habit grew to a level that still gives me chills because no matter how much I had it wasn’t enough and I had to detox when I ran through a lot of money that i could’ve invested or put into something I’m passionate about but instead it went to painkillers and steroids.everything rooted in insecurity.

I don’t expect this post to be a turn on. Im just telling you who I am beneath the flesh and muscle.

Thanks to anyone who listened to me.