I finally can be present in my body and know what my body needs. I’m learning to treat myself like I would treat my future partner. I’ve been trying my best to taper off excessive meds and the steroids… I got a lot of muscle and validation from getting so big so fast but it wrecked me mentally. I always felt agitated and toxic. Could never sleep. Chest pain while working out. Luckily I’m not having major body dysmorphia coming offf them because having a healthier body. Taking care of my diet, sleep, stress and working out without feeling like I’m gonna have a stroke all that toxic shit was making me look worse. I still use testosterone at a moderate dose because I probably fucked my hormones naturally but I’m off the tren and crazy shit that took away who I was as a person. This is as natural as I’ve ever been