Wassup!! How are you guys doing?! It is kind of long, but I would appreciate if you took the time to read this 🖤

I really really miss chatting and connecting with all of you. It has been almost two months since I have made a post, and I have not said much as to why. I wish I would have made this post a bit sooner, I just wanted to make sure it was the right time, for me.

I want to assure all of you that I am not going anywhere. My page is still active and all of my posts are still available. It turns me on knowing I can turn you on, even if it is clips from a year ago. I love making content, showing off, all of that that fun stuff. But most of all I love talking with you.

I love the connections, conversations, jokes, the sexual stuff, everything. Sure, I like showing off, but I honestly love the chats so much more. You all have taught me a lot, made me laugh, gave advice I have never heard of. Some long-lasting, some be only once. But no matter what I always get so happy when I see a message in my inbox.

When I begun this page, I did it because I needed money. I was jobless, depressed, and overall just not happy with who I was. It sucks saying that, mostly for myself, but it is the truth. I never wanted this page to have a monthly charge, it never sounded right to me. My dick is all over the internet and why should I limit it on this page? I want you all to enjoy this, my tattoos, beard, tattoos, whatever you are on this page for I want to make sure you enjoy it.

That joy, the pleasure you get, is what drives me to make more content. And that makes me so happy! It is this perfect hobby that does not even involve money. So, at such a negative and honestly treacherous time of my life, it was a hobby I was craving for because it made both you and I happy. Thankfully, over the last 6ish months, I am so happy to say I am much more confident in who I am. Granted I am still going through a lot in my life, it is still a lot to handle.

Some more about me. I am proud to say I am epileptic. 1 in every 26 people will develop epilepsy in their lifetime. That was is lot more people than I expected. I was diagnosed about 2.5 years ago and over that time I had met probably, hundreds of people who have, or know of someone who has epilepsy. It was really difficult to listen at first, but over time, listening to these "strangers" (and doctors), I have learnt, and I have applied.

Even with all of my other health problems, money problems, all of the problems a 25 year old living in the expensive North East deals with. I have finally secured myself as a (mostly) stable, smart, and caring person. I have a job I love, friends I love, people who support me, finally the way I live is different than how I lived when I begun this account.

I feel really bad knowing I have not replied, and felt even worse when I would not follow through with a request that was asked. There are so many of you that I love talking with and really want to continue. Just, sometimes, I forget this page even exists. I am working my ass off living the best life I can live, and it sucks knowing this page is suffering from that. It sucks knowing that I am not replying to replies or comments, but I am just so high-strung working, after work I just want to relax and enjoy the limited free time I have. A lot of the time too, I think of how I want to post, I want to chat, I am just so tired.

And when I am tired, I forget. I forget a lot of requests when I work 4 days in a row and just go to bed after I eat and shower. Memory loss, both short-term and long, is a big symptom of epilepsy, and it is the symptom I suffer from the most. You would be surprised how many people I frustrate because I forgot just what I said 10 minutes ago at work. Or frustrating myself for making a plan with a friend days before, but then double book.

It is something I am still trying hard to fight through, but the symptom can only improve if I eat a lot more, treat myself better, get good sleep, just take care of myself and be healthy. I am ready to treat myself better, I have been for a while, but again, North East student without a degree. Still difficult lol.

• Alright, I will finally start wrapping up this long post. -
  I sound like a broken record, but you all have been so supportive through my time online, and I am every so grateful. I apologize so so much for all of the messages that I had forgotten of. Requests I did not follow through with. The things a good content creator should not be doing. I could only assume the frustration it may have created for you, but I am very thankful if you may forgive me. I hope you know that your suffering is rooted from my own personal suffering, it is not fair to you and I. Therefore, it is going to change.

Slowly but surely, I will be putting more work and become more organized with is account. I will be taking the time to work on how I can have this hobby back in my life. I want it probably even more than you do lol. The past is the past, and I hope you can all understand, and forgive. Because I want these connections again, I want to show off again, I want to fulfill requests, I want to be the sexy show off that I know I am.

But even more so, I want to be the moral and hard-working content creator that I know I can be. It will be a process to get to where I want it to be, but I hope you will all be there for the ride.

Thank you so much for reading. Truly.

• Jason