Hey guys!It’s a little bit later than I wanted but you all s..
Hey guys!
It’s a little bit later than I wanted but you all should be used to that by now 😂.
Honestly, it’s been a rough one. Between the fire in January and my health the rest of the year it has been incredibly difficult to do anything that I wanted to this year. Let’s take a look at some of the things that have impacted me this year and what they look like going forward:
Health:
I’ve suffered from chronic migraines my entire life. They are bad and have been mistaken for strokes by a lot of doctors. Half of my body goes limp and I lose the ability to talk. That’s what happened on Saturday. On our way to the club the pain, numbness and tingling started and I panicked so we stopped at the ER. It ended up passing and I was able to still go but I was terrified all evening that it would come back.
The frequency and intensity of these has increased this year and I’m having multiple attacks a month.
I also learned that I had undiagnosed chronic lymes and PCOS. To say I’ve been miserable almost this entire year is an understatement.
But on to some good news. If you’ve been following for a while or looked back through older content you’ve almost certainly noticed some weight gain. I’m proud to report that I’m down 30lbs and I’m a hair away from being the same size I was in 2022 when I started this whole thing. As I get treatment for my ongoing conditions and shed the weight my confidence has been slowly coming back. Going into 2025 I’m feeling better about myself than I have in years and I’m looking forward to hitting my health goals.
Personal Life:
The house fire really set into motion the worst set of dominoes ever. While our insurance covered our financial losses it took an eternity to pay out and was incredibly difficult to find an affordable home. This meant we spent the majority of the year sleeping on my in-laws couch. This in turn made it near impossible to get out to lifestyle events or shoots. When we finally found our house it was in dire need of repairs and put our finances in a hole.
The upside is that we’re finally mostly settled and getting out to work is finally getting back to normal.
TOS:
This has been a big one. I maintain all legally required documents for everyone I work with. Unfortunately due to changes in TOS I’m required to use this platforms specific documents or tag an existing verified user. This caused a bunch of my backlog to become effectively useless until I get my co-performers to redo paperwork. This changed happened practically without warning. It’s also made finding bulls more difficult because it requires them to create an account and verify before anything goes on camera. This is part of the reason you rarely see live updates anymore. If I find a bull at the club I have to wait for them to get verified which can take days.
I like to operate on the fly and signing a few documents and sharing IDs was so much easier.
This is where I have to thank @whoismattblack . Without whom I’d have next to nothing to share this year. We’ve grown incredibly close over this past year and Hubby and I can’t say thank you enough for everything he’s done to keep us going.
To the future:
Now I don’t intend to bring politics into this but there are whispers of a nationwide porn ban. If that happens, well, I guess that’s it. There’s conflicting information and a lot of confusion surrounding the topic. That being said, I will continue to operate as normal until I’m no longer able to continue physically, financially, or legally.
The chaos of the last year has really thrown off any plans for growth. I’m also notoriously bad at maintaining new sweeping changes and so I’m going to try not to overpromise and under deliver.
That being said I do have a few plans for next year. The first being the ability to purchase videos to keep after your sub expires. All content will remain available on my wall for subscribers but the videos will also be sent out to all followers with the option to purchase.
I’m going to be expanding to more platforms so I can offer all of my content including things that maybe don’t fit here. This platform will remain my primary but if you have some niche tastes, please keep an eye out for those announcements. 😘
I also began this whole thing to pay for a “mommy makeover” surgery and now that I’m on course to hit my weight goals I fully intend to take that step next year. I just want to feel good in my body again and as much as hubby loves picking my outfits we’re both ready for me to start filming more stuff totally nude.
I’m cautiously optimistic heading into 2025 and I’m treating it as a reset of sorts. I’ve been invited to participate in some new and exciting things that I can’t tell you about yet and myself and a few other creators are working on a big big project for this year that I can’t wait to share with you.
This coming year you can look forward to a healthy mix of old and new style stuff. I’m hoping to explore and try new things while getting back to the kind of content that I used to have so much fun making.
Thank you so much for all the love and support you’ve given me through the years and especially this one. I really needed it.
I love you!
Chloee Mae