⭐️⭐️⭐️New things happening with my OF :)!!!⭐️⭐️⭐️

AaAAAA!!! I realize the video is a little long, I wish I could say everything in a few words, but this is coming from my heart and my heart is overflowing💕! Thank you for anyone who takes the time to listen to everything :) I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE BUT FORWARD! AND ITS ONLY GETTING BETTER FROM HERE!!

I tried summarizing everything multiple times, but bullet points don’t have emotion. I transcribed for anyone who would prefer to read though :)! Thank you again soosoo much for even considering my words 💕!!

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Ello everyone :)!! It’s Meggii!

I’m here to talk about why I've been gone, what I've been up to, and what's coming up in the future.

I promise I'm not leaving the internet!!! But, that's not to say I'm going to be doing the same things. I really want to continue protecting my community, myself, and everyone who views my content.

It’s hard to talk about these things, but I want to, and I'm not just gonna keep being quiet and not saying anything. This is something that really means a lot to me.

I've come to the realization that while I've enjoyed my entire time doing OnlyFans and making lewd content, it's been a while that my heart just hasn't been in it. I'm sure it's been obvious from the lack of posting, and even lack of creativity with some of my work. I don't feel the passion that I used to feel making this kind of content, and it doesn't come from being in a dark place, it's the opposite.

I am discovering who I am and learning more about myself. I think the community and this space has really changed in the last couple of years.

This is all coming because I miss the community. I miss my community and I miss not being an object. I miss being a person, and while I’ve always created my content as a form of art, I know why it's being consumed.

I love every single person in this community. My time away has been spent healing and I've been growing and discovering things I like to do. I’ve been being a person for maybe the first time in my adult life, and at the end of the day, I'm realizing I want to keep bringing a positive influence. I want to see a positive change in the community and that is not calling anyone out! That is not a negative throw!

I'm gonna do what I want to do, and I'm not gonna do what I think is bad and don't want to do. Which is not saying sex work is bad!!! I'm not saying that! But i also don’t think OnlyFans as it currently is, is healthy. And it makes me sad but I don't think it's healthy anymore. It could have been at one point.

Im sorry, Im looking at my notes but I just realized I never wrote what I’m about to say, and that's that I'm going to be taking a step away from OnlyFans, from lewd content as it currently is. I'm going to be taking a step away from the constant pressure of needing to shoot more content, to be more lewd, to push myself more, from the constant need to one up myself to do something more, to put content out so fast that I don't even know what I'm making, that I stop cosplaying, that I stop loving it, that I stop putting me into my work and pushing myself to just be a product, to turn off my emotions and pretend that doesn't do anything to my body or my mind.

It has not been like this forever.This is a gradual thing that has happened over time. I want to say, I love this! I love this, and I think it can be done in such a healthy way, but the way the world is going and the way OnlyFans has evolved, it is not a place I want to be.I will probably not be making new photo sets for a long time.

I do have an entirely huge backlog that I'm working through to get edited and posted that I'll still be sharing because I'm really proud of my work!!! it's hard because I've always seen what I do as art. I've always referred to it as art. I’m always thinking about it from what do I want to create, and that’s the hard part.

You're probably like, "What do you mean? You don't even sound like you like this.”

I love lewdness.

I love the art of it.

I love hentai.

It makes me so sad,It doesn't inspire me.It doesn't make me want to create more.It makes me look at myself in the mirror and...

I'm really excited to take this break, step away. Go back into myself and learn what I want to do. Discover myself more.

Maybe I will still do lewd shoots in the future! I still think there's so much beauty in it. I have so many friends who do it, they are phenomenal! And I still think it's fun. It's fun..

While I’ll be stepping away from making new content, I'll still be posting tons of stuff you have not seen!!! I want to do more! I want to post more online! My goals are to build up a community again, to build up a safe place.

I'm really excited to say that I'm going to be streaming again😭✨✨✨💕💕💕💕💕💕🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I got my stream room set up.I got my stream chair set up. I got my streamer room ready.

But I don't have a date for that yet. I'm not gonna rush myself because I love myself and I'm not gonna put myself in more stressful situations.

BUT it's probably gonna be soon and it might even be before the end of the month!

I'm really excited to stream again and what streaming brings. Cause it brings being able to actually talk to you guys, play games, and build a community.

Where it's not just BOOBA WHEN?!*. *NEED BOKBA

That’s the thing with onlyfns, I think wanting to talk. is awesome, but it gets to the point where it's sexting or messages every day. I don't think it's healthy. Healthy for the creator or the consumer.

That's the point. No one is doing that. If you are sexting someone, it's an agcy. You know that.

I don't know how you don't know that.

If you're sexting someone, that's an agcy. If you're talking to them every day and they also have 200 other men in their DMs, it's an agcy(or hired chatters by the creator)

If you don't know that I'm sorry, but I think if you are talking to someone on a daily basis you're not talking to the person. (Obviously not talking about small accounts!)

And it's the agencies that are profiting off it.

!!So do not blame the creator!!

This is a problem that agcies have created.

If these agcies weren't coming in, taking 25-40%, signing you up with all the chatters, and making it so if you're not sexting and you're not messaging everybody back every day, you're forgotten about and you're not making money.

Wow, I wonder who made that business model.

Which is also something I don't do! I have never sexted. that is not me. in my bio I have that!

So if you ever tried, you are part of the problem.jkjk. So much love, so much love, so much love!!!!

I also don't think it's healthy to think you're in a relationship with someone that you're dishing your entire paycheck out to. and it's just an agcy that you're talking with.

And like I said, please, I don't blame the girls.

Agcies are ruthless. They talk about customers like it's just money bags. No matter what, they're just trying to talk and get as much out of you as they can.

Also, I've not been in an agcy.

I've never had chatters.I have never had anything like that, but I know so many people who have and had the worst experiences with agcies , that have been destroyed by agcies , as well as people who have loved theirs? but the agecies are still doing bad?

So it's its full spectrum.

But all agcied pushing sexting to get as much money out of you guys as possible are bad.

I'm sorry.

I don't think that's okay. These people are spending thousands of dollars a month sometimes and it's not even them. And this I've seen lead to such bad situations for both, for the model too. Where they are in day to day life, being followed by someone who thinks they are messaging their favorite creator every day.

I don't get it..

I dont like it, the fans don't like it. The agcies have completely ruined the space for us So if you're not sexting, if you're not messaging every single person every day, bye.

Thank you to my fans, even though I am very bad at messaging. I hate saying that everybody is using an agecy and then I'm saying “no guys, I'm not!” but sound off in the comments if I have missed your message after months with a tip?because that happens a lot. I'm not good at messaging, it unfortunately has turned me off messaging.
I don't think it's healthy for a fan to have that kind of intimate connection with someone that they think they might have a chance with because of these interactions.

I don't think that's healthy.

I don't.

I don't.

I don't.

But I'm not saying that we should just totally obliterate agecies. I feel like they could be doing good.

But one’s that are purely taking over DMs to get as much money out of people as possible.

I don't like, I don't like.

I feel like there's so much pressure and it's do or die basically. Join one or nothing's gonna happen.

I'd like to say I am proof that no, you do not need an agecy.

You can do this yourself.

It's not gonna be easy.

You are not gonna make 60 grand in a month, but I've been able to live.

So I am a success non-agecy story!

I also don't think it's wrong to want to talk to your favorite creator and have a connection with them. Humans, as we are, we see connection. it's a lonely time where people need connection more than ever.

I'm not going to pay someone to message my fans for me, to sex them, to get money out of them.

And that's why I'm also so excited to stream because I feel like that's a way I'll actually be able to talk again And we've done it before! we were talking, we would have FUN.

I'm really excited for my streams cuz it has been years!!! Can you see that I've rediscovered video games??

I didn't game for a little bit cuz I was so focused on my appearance,What I was doing… So I'm very excited to be a NEET inside-don't leave my room-shut in and play video games and talk on stream and talk to you guys and play games :3.

I'm still gonna be making cosplay.

I'm still gonna be posting.

I'm still gonna be posting on here.

I might not be in DMs. at all. A little bit. I'll try getting back but just stop sexting me. I'm not gonna reply to those.

I'm also excited to keep sharing the sets that I have in the backlog here!!!!I'm not going to be pressuring anyone to buy them.They're all gonna be $20 and under at least.

I'm gonna be putting all of my work down to at least under $20 because money is AAAA i just want to discount everything so like yo if you want to see it, it's gonna be there! it's not going anywhere! i mean genuinely, i'm probably just gonna post everything for free in five years, so if you're here then yo!you are gonna get no bobs because i've never done bobs, no vijean i've never done…

i get a lot of very good messages. most of my messages are amazing, but there's been a couple that have just Oh man. It sucks when the community starts pushing its creators to just do things they're not comfy with. And when you don't do it, you're gonna get a message every day from someone else asking you to do it.

I'm sure I missed things and I'm sure I'm gonna be talking more about this later, but that is... my whole everything that I've been struggling with (Not everything, Oh my godXD)But a lot of what's been going through my head around my career, my life, my everything that's gonna go on.

So I'm very very very excited for the future :3

I'm excited to see what I'm even gonna do.

Because who knows, I'm gonna start streaming and you'll... whatever happens, wherever life takes me, that's where I'm going.

So this is not the last you've seen of me. Not even the start.

I'm excited to discover my passion for life again.

And I'm also excited to share that with you guys.

And I hope we can continue hanging out and grow and discover who we are and challenge the systems that we're currently in.

Think of something you want to do. If you don't have a hobby, take up a hobby. That maybe you forgot when you were a kid. Maybe someone bullied you out of doing something. Take it back. There's so much sadness, there's so much judgement, there's so much hate.

You need to be yourself.

You need to fight against it.

Because otherwise you're not going to do anything that you want to do.The world is beautiful and it's so big and there's so much for everyone to be able to do what they want to do. And it takes time and it takes becoming your true self. But it's there for you. It’s waiting for you, I promise.

I'm sure I've already talked so long, so much. This is probably a lot longer than I want it to be.

I'm happy I was able to sit down and talk and finally film this after Struggling a bit for a while, but I hope you have an amazing rest of your day, rest of your week, and you do something you enjoy today, and you have some yummy food and You drink water and stay healthy.

Thank you for listening if you are still here.

I appreciate and I love you,

Thank you for allowing me to do what I love to do for so long, and for continuing to support me in what I do next.

I'm very excited.

Thank you