if anyone actually gives a shit... here's my experience with onlyfans from when i first started in december 2025 until the time im writing this in may 2026.

i'm not going to hide the fact that i started for financial security.

AND the fact i can "have sex" without actually having sex & do it all online too? it was a no brainer.

so when i started onlyfans, i studied alot about this "business" and what other girls are doing. and im still learning more everyday about the platform, the girls, the marketing, the ppvs, the types of fans, etc.

it looks like almost 300 fans have came in since i started. maybe about 90% of them never say a single word to me, and some even buy my ppvs once in a while which is cool. the other 10% well... most of you end up ghosting me at some point anyway. at first it hurt. but then someone gave me advice saying "you're going to have to get used to it" i guess bc most guys just wanna see what u got at their budget, and then they move onto the next girl. so yea i just got used to it.

most guys that stay, its never enough for them. it's like "i already paid for X, now i wanna see Y" "now i want to see you do this other thing" and then it gets more and more explicit. and they dont wanna pay for anything under the highest level of explicitness that they've so far received. its so easy to sell nudes once, but when it's clothed, nobody gives af. which is fine, i understand what men want to put their money into and what they dont. thats just part of this business. i tried selling what i like to do and show, and sometimes people like it, but most of the time they dont.

now the guys that actually stay longer and pay the most, end up always being the most toxic ones. even if they try to hide it at first, i can always spot the red flags. sometimes i dont even say anything and take it. why? i think it's just a psychology thing where "i pay more, so let's see how much i can get away with"

really it's just constant bullying, passive/aggressive manipulation tactics, insults, demands for stuff im not really comfortable doing, and then guilt tripping me into doing it. but if the money's worth it, why not do it. eventually i learned to say no to some things. protect my time and mental health. but sometimes the bills are due and i gotta suck it up.

i wish this business was just as easy as "sell nudes -> make money". but its not. and people make fun of onlyfans girls because this is not a real business. they are just selling nudes and its easy money. but its not. i think it can be worse. and this business is much harder than it seems. it can really negatively affect a girl's mental health.

so why do i stay? why dont i just do something else?

well for the very, very few of you i like. its sooo worth it. i do like meeting new people, and i dont have the time to sift through 5,000 dms on social media. so onlyfans becomes a filter, to see who of you actually values my time. my personality. who i am on the inside, instead of on the outside. someone who understands that i have a life outside of onlyfans too & can understand my busy schedule. understands where im coming from as a girl if im making certain decisions. this business can have the lowest of lows, and the highest of highs. and im still learning how to protect my time and energy to ignore the people who want to bring a negative experience to my life, and invest my time with the people who are making a positive impact to my life.

sooo yeah i'm just a girl who's highly emotional, high social anxiety, boring, kind of just has an empty brain lol, but just trying to survive in this cold world. were probably living in a simulation anyway.

so i just want to have fun & actually enjoy the time with who i choose to spend my time with. i'm a girl who wants to feel loved & to love.

**please do not be shy to talk to me!! i love getting to know new people! i might take some time to respond because i work 2 jobs but i promise i'd like for us to be friends 😊