someone said something about my body recently and like… it actually got to me ngl, like properly got to me, which is annoying because i hate that it did, i hate that words from some random person can just do that to you, you know?
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like why do people even feel the need, what's the point, what are you getting out of it
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i genuinely cannot wrap my head around why it's so hard for some people to just… let others exist. like we're all here, we all ended up on this weird little planet together, evolution did all that work over millions of years and this is what we chose to do with it?? shame each other for how we look?? for what language we speak?? okay cool great use of consciousness guys really
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and speaking of which when i moved from ukraine to poland people were shaming me for not knowing polish and that one actually had me in tears, like real ones, i'm not even exaggerating. strangers going out of their way to make you feel small in a place that's already not yours, in a moment that's already hard enough. both things just sitting on top of each other is genuinely a lot to carry and i just hate that this is normal for so many people, i hate it so much

my first instinct after all this was literally to go sign up for a gym and lose weight for you guys which like… is that good or bad?? i don't even know anymore. i could cancel the membership right now if that's what you want, you decide, i'm serious
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but then i remember you exist and something just settles, like actually settles. you're the reason this stuff doesn't swallow me whole and i mean that. thank god for you guys genuinely, i don't say it enough
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okay i'm done, just needed to get that out somewhere